I have written fanfics in spanish (cos' I'm latinian) and I translate this one and change it a little. I don't really like songfics but this song really suits the pairing and this story which is the time Zel gets Amelia's bracalet. I hope you forgive me if you see any gramatical mistake. I did my best to write it properly in english.
Disclaimer: I don't own Slayers!
I hope you like it!
Always on your side
I hugged Lina with all my strength, at the point as she was asking me to stop before she got stroke. I can't do anything about it…saying goodbye is so difficult. But right after we broken the hug apart, Lina gave me a tender smile. "Please, take care, Amelia…" she said to me softly.
"I will!"- I responded emotionally- "Gourry-san, make sure she doesn't get into troubles!"
"That's something quite impossible if we are talking about these two…"- a voice behind me added. I turned back to face him, but he wasn't going to return the gesture. He gave his usual smirk to the couple- "I'll heading off too"
"To look for your cure, Zel?"- Gourry asked to the chimera guy. I was expecting this answer with great anxiety, but deep inside, I already knew the answer.
"Yeah"- and there it was. He was going to look for his cure.
"So this is goodbye for you too"- Gourry added
"I guess it is, bye!"- he make his usual gesture and then departed, without even looking at me. I guess he was too embarrassed to face me.
"Bye, Zel!"- the travelling couple were already waving at him. He was already gone…
"So, goodbye to you too, Amelia!"- Gourry face me and I gasped out of my daydreaming.
"Yeah!"- I started running to my own way and stop to wave at them- "Bye, Lina-san!! Gourry-san!!"- they smiled at me and wave in return- "I hope you've already married when I get to see you to two again"- I hear some grumbles of both of them, but I decided to ignore it with a toyfull grin on my face. But it vanished the moment I see Zelgadis striding in the forest.
I wish you would, at least, say goodbye to me…but what I know what I really want is for you to stay with me.
Why did you say you were going to think about if you weren't even consider it?!
But I should know by now…it's being already 3 years. I know I'm important to Zelgadis. I know friends are important for his…but still his cure come first…
I guess it's my fault for liking the 'lonely-wolf'! But you don't know how lonely I get in the palace, sometimes…
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
I really miss my dad when we are in battles, but I really miss the "slayers" when I'm home. I start remembering the moments I hung out with the three of you…also, when we fight! I treasure all those moments and sometimes I wish your just rush into the palace and take me to another of these marvellous adventures!
I remember you when you were forced to wear ridicule staff, when you argue with Lina,
When you protected me, when you save me…when you tenderly smile at me…
I began to feel so lonely…
But every now and then you come to mind
Don't you feel lonely some times? Being a 'loner' yourself?
I guess you'd say that we were really annoying and we'd always get you into stupid troubles! But I know what you feel inside, you're just so stubborn! You really care about us though you don't admit it. You really like us to be together, doesn't you?
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
If you really love to be with me, then, why can we just stay that way?
When you knew that I was always on your side
Our glances meet in few seconds, but our hearts felt it as it was an eternity.
May be I shouldn't have said to her I'd think about it. It's true we were in a middle of a mortal fight and a negative answer could have lower the princess's fighting spirit…
Who am I trying to deceive?! I really meant it…Is it because is getting more and more difficult to say goodbye?
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
It wasn't my character to get in group. I was always thinking of travelling alone. My research would always be a test for myself only. But I become to be fond of these people, which I could call 'friends'…
May be they were all noisy and pushy at the beginning, and they did force me to get involve in any kind of weird situation, but I truly care about them. I never have anyone to trust after Rezo's betrayal and the dead of my two only guardians.
So…they become like a family I got from time to time.
However, what it was even weirder it was that something more began to grow inside of me…a feeling more intense than a simple friendship…
At the beginning I didn't though we really were going to even get along (considering the fact she pointed me as I was some kind of monster!) but I began to get along with her...more and more deeper, I got into her…
May be it was her innocence and clumsiness that I felt I needed to protect her…
But it was also the though of you gone…I did choose die before getting to see her dying again…may be it wasn't that the reason I wanted to protect her…
Was it was her generous heart? Albeit I didn't buy the justice speech, I have to admit I felt comforted when she was kind at me. May be it was spirit and optimism that added a bit of spicy to my negative view? I don't exactly know what, but I knew I feel that way…
I couldn't stand to see you disappeared! And it kind of ironic I'm doing this to you now.
I did miss you when you were missed! And that feeling is unbearable when I'm travelling by myself, and it's beginning now…
That's why I said I'll think about it.
But it's my fault for not thinking it over! How could I stay! What about my cure! Do you really think it'd be happy ending being like this?!
But my demons and my angels reappeared
It's not a question of looks; it's a question of humanity! This body doesn't belong to me! I'm only 1/3 human! I'm demon in the outside and in the inside…and I just can say its okay…
As much as I enjoy the strength and endurance it gave to me…it isn't worth what it have taken from me: My humanity, my life…everything…
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
Hold onto your own illusion of me! I think that is better for the two of us…
A justice princess with a golem with a demon part, isn't really that match!
Too afraid to hear the words I always feel
I mustn't tight to an illusion! A simple feeling isn't enough give up on my quest!
You may think I ain't making a right choice. Many fair tales would say that! But this is real life…
You may not understand it, but I have to go…
Goodbye…like I always do…
Leavin' you so many the questions all these years
In the moment I want to steal a last image of you from my sight, our glances meet in few seconds…but it felt like an eternity.
No, we have to keep going! Thing won't change even if we want to!
He won't change her mind. His cure is everything for him…
I can't hold into an illusion. I have to find my cure…
But why I still can't move one?
Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Is it that I can't stand it anymore?!
Is it that I'm starting to regret it?!
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
Is this feeling so strong that I can just move on? Don't make me hesitate anymore! I won't make my feelings make me choose wrongly again! I won't let the illusions deceive one more time! That's why I become a loner…
but I'm not a loner no more…Then what am I? What is us to be?
This isn't how it's really meant to be?
No, it isn't how it's really meant to be
Why do you have to go?! Why are you doing this to me?! Why this is hearting so much?!
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
Is this love? I always wondered…but I always knew it…
How to pull it close and make it stay
Then come with me!
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
Then I have to think about of your own welfare and go…
Our eyes meet again. I had to struggle to keep going and I started to walk heavily without looking back, avoiding those watering sapphire eyes.
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
So this is going to turn out all the same. No matter how much I wish for, he isn't going to change his mind.
I shouldn't have gotten my hopes high! This is what Zelgadis-san is…
I hope one day you learnt that…
Even through it all, I'm always on your side