A/N-I have decided to write a second story, while I am currently working on Inner Demons. So, the updates for both of them will take longer, but there will be two stories at once, if enough people would like me to continue with the telling of this story also. This idea came to me late one night, and the chapters for Inner Demons are also on-going. So, any feedback at all, if you like this story, if you feel that I should just stick with my current one of late, please give what feedback you can. Thank you; and I hope you find this idea, just as enjoyable to read, as my first Fan-Fic. If you haven't already, I would please ask that you look into my first story, and review for it. Inner Demons is very different, but I am curious if I should also work on this story as well?
Ages- Robin-17, Starfire-17, Raven-17, Cyborg-19, and Beast Boy-15 years old.
Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans, or any other characters in the DC Universe.
Chapter 1- Trepidation
The day was a dark and cold one, for the summer grasp upon the Northern hemisphere, was soon coming to a close. The wondrous season of autumn, was right around the corner, and the final weeks of August, were anything but pure sunshine, in the typical always sunny, Californian metropolis. Today; was very gloomy, as the last days of the month, were for-casted to be rainy, all throughout the weekend, and into September.
The dark clouds covered the skyline in a foggy fixture, of gray and dark blue, and the sounds of echoing thunder, could be heard, rumbling above the dreary atmosphere. Then, just as quickly as the thunder began, the rain could be heard to slowly, pitter-patter across the glass windows, all around Titans Tower.
It was like the music of a clasical concert, everything about the day was building up to a master cresendo, of powerful events. Now, the rain had its own rythem to it, and alough I never really paid much attention to the sounds of nature, it was all I could really listen in on, to calm my tiring nerves of late.
It was such a sad and lonely day, when so many weeks for the fun of being a hero, were full of rigorous battles, countless pursuits of conspirators, and criminals of all kinds, but ever since my team's return from Tokyo, now many months old, Jump City seemed to be slowing in criminal activities. This only dulled the air, and brought a lasting state of pure boredom to the minds of my fellow teammates, and me.
With Slade's eluding disappearance, and the Brotherhood of Evils defeat, having most villains frozen, never to break out, well guarded in high security faculties in their current posses; where only a small few managed to retreat back to the shadows. With the masked villain out of the picture, I could never fully understand where he had fled, or why he hadn't attack? After the near countless times he could have, following Trigon's defeat, he was gone, off the grid, having vanished like a ghost.
There were always plenty of things to keep mine, and Cyborg's time occupied at Titans Tower. While I was kept busy, bent over old cases, filing reports, and keeping the training of my team up to speed, Cyborg had the T-Car to maintain, as if he didn't keep it clean already. But he was just as meticulous about his T-Car, his baby, as I was about my R-Cycle, so, we both had a passion for mechanics, and the inner workings of machines. He also had to constantly upgrade the security, for the whole tower weekly, which took quiet the time to re-boot defensive systems, he knew would cause quite a problem, for any simple villain.
Titans Tower; or home had been hit not once, but six known times. The Hive Five led by Jinx at one point, from Control Freak and his rants, when no-body was home, to Red X who somehow managed to break in, get into the evidence room, of all secure places, and take my old attire. As if those villains weren't bad enough, a dragon nearly destroyed the Tower, Professor Change almost blasted our home to oblivian, and even Slade managed to get underneath it, and nearly sink our home under the ocean. While he somehow, even managed to get in a few times. I hated to admit it, but, Titans Tower was just one big sitting target, simply waiting to be hit time and time over by our many enemies. But it was still our home, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
The tin man, never really had much time to get out, and when he did, something always bothered him, as though he felt like he was constantly forgetting something.
Raven had her hundreds of books, and her meditating to preoccupy her time. Although she had defeated Trigon, she still feared something. It was almost like she was still unsure of herself, but I never paid much attention to that. I kept my personal opinions to myself, although she could read my mind, due to the link we shared, but she wasn't invasive about it. Never-the-less, I was still rather weary around her.
It was odd almost, how much our team had grown together, yet, we seemed to be drawing apart. Our normal routines continued on, the same old same old, but ever since the prophecy, Raven was never really the same, spooky dark Empath that I remember her as. She had changed, and for some unknown reason, the unpleasant feeling of constant worry, was morphed, into something warm, now directed towards, me. What-ever it was; I could never completely put a finger on, what she truly was trying to say.
Beast Boy had his video games, and always, he seemed more than willing to find the time, to pull his pranks on Cyborg and Rae. Stank Ball for him, was a very competitive sport, but I made sure to stay clear of his smelly laundry tosses. He had requested numerous times, for frequent leave of the tower, and since things were slow, he always ventured off, but where he ventured off to, I never fully knew.
I presumed he left for the mall, to see a matinee movie from time to time. Maybe he went to get a second side job, or, to just go to the downtown comic-book store. Although these were places he sometimes hinted that he left for, they never fully fit. The current summer movies were all pretty dull, nothing too entertaining for the changeling. He had enough comic books to keep him at the tower, and he never appeared like he wanted to get second job. Beast Boy had a slim number of tasks at the tower, but, he never appeared to want, to carry on more than his weight outside of heroic duties.
Regardless of where he did, or didn't go to, it wasn't my business to interfere with. I cared for him, like the others, but, when he said he was leaving, he always carried a certain, ambiance. It was like; he wanted to be alone from time to time. I could relate to that, so, I gave him his space, as did the others.
Starfire had Silkie and the mall. When the Jump City Mall came to my mind, Starfire getting her hair done, her toenails painted green, dragging Raven along to watch, if not to get her nails painted black, also caused me to smile.
The Tamaranean Princess and I had been going out for quiet a long time, and though we had our ups and downs, we finally embraced the feelings we shared for each-other in Tokyo. We had already found our deeper feelings, after crashing on the strange alien world, but when we arrived in Japan, the line of being a hero only, and that of finding love was no longer a simple divider, rather twas a vast chasm to jump across.
Well, I thought it was; I thought I would be forced to chose, like my mentor was before me. But he chose hero over the girl, always. That was something that made me fear him, probably, one of the most unpleasant traits of being in this line of work. Having to choose between something that the city needs, and something you want, yet find it hard to express your deeper feelings, to someone that you truly care about.
I enjoyed being a hero, but with Starfire, everything was so much better, everything made sense and felt right. I quickly saw my faults, my own weaknesses that Starfire had poured her heart out to me, and I, was not going to wait, to let my feelings for her just sink away. I didn't express my feelings to her in public before Tokyo, but during the massive celebration, I felt honored of the testing obstacle of my past fears, to be finally overcome.
I slumped down in the common room's blue sofa; my legs and arms were sore, and my eyes under the trademark mask, carried dark bags of much turbulence. The lower sections of my lobes, when I looked in the mirror at the main bathroom down the hall, reflected the dreary state I was in. My dark black hair, was some-what spiked in it's normal look, and most of the time, I kept it gelled up. Lately however, I was letting it grow out, and my hygiene was now deplorable.
I hadn't taken a shower in days, and my clothing was ruffled, yet I cared not for how I looked at the moment, because my mind was still bent with multiple questions; and I was too exhausted to care about my current look of late. There were no photo-ops with the press, no statements to be made on television, nothing to show the fans. I just didn't care right now, and I was too exhausted to even go outside the tower.
The common room was very open, rather breathable, very welcoming. Yet, despite what time I did manage to share, with the othes in here, it was also a place; I never fully had time to just relax. To simply sit back as Beast Boy, Raven, Starfire, or even Cyborg would do. Most of my time, I was away from the others, alone, and as much as I liked to be their leader, I always felt, somehow, left out of our close-knit family.
Cyborg loved to work in the kitchen, Raven had the couch and the long glass windows to sit in front, to read and meditate. Beast Boy had the gamer station and DVD player, while Starfire had the music section of surround sound. Most music she would listen to; was a very wide variety, she listened to all kinds of things, and Austrian Yodeling was one toon, that she adored. However, both myself along with everyone else, quickly persuaded her that, certain music doesn't fly. She was a big fan of Bob Marley, and rock-steady toons, mostly the song 'Every-thing's gonna be all right', which was a classic, and we could all accept that beat.
Now though, there were no sounds, not from the music player, not from Raven reciting her mantra upon the couch. Not a sound from the TV, nothing from the kitchen being cooked or sizzling upon the stove. Only the rain carried the pitter-pattering drizzle, across the main windows on the front of the tower. Even the light in the room was dark; the shadows covered much of the common room, in a state of further sadness. It was indeed a dreary mood, for a lasting and very gloomy, two distasteful weeks.
So much of my own time, was bent within my dark and lonely room. The common room was a place for relaxation, for joy, and to be with friends. My room on the other hand, for anyone who would enter, would think it just as lonesome and sad, as my past life. The newspaper clippings of criminals, mostly of Slade, had nothing but the simple atmosphere; which any insane person would develop over time. It showed someone who is obsessed with finding answers, only to have more questions built over the years, and nothing further to be revealed, other than time being wasted, and plots that had no true intention, other than unraveling more of my own, and my families deeper weaknesses.
To be finding myself, sitting in the monster cushy sofa finally, I didn't feel like moving. There was nothing on the plasma screen to watch, for I only wanted to think, but I had only questions, and no answers. My stomach grumbled for a moment, I was hungry, but I could not eat. My own reflection told me, that needed rest, but I could not sleep either.
It was a horrible pain, a lasting tourture I allowed myself to endure. I did not like any of it, but felt it was my punishment to bear alone, and I would carry it onwards, with a heavy heart.
The past week, I was locked inside of the tower infirmary. Just, sitting by the long bed, slouched over her body. I couldn't leave her side for one moment, and the weirdest feeling I had, was if I left, even for the slightest second, her condition could change or grow worse.
There is a bathroom in the infirmary room, so, I was kept inside, with no real drive to leave. Raven managed to make some sandwiches; brought them to me on a serving tray, but the most I had, of the subs were a tiny bite. A nibble at most, and I let them just sit on the far table by the counter-top, allowing mold to grow on them. The others would come, or at least Raven would, and retrieve the old sandwiches that she had made.
Cyborg and Beast Boy would come in to see me, to learn how things were going, but nothing changed. Her heart rate was the same slow beat as usual, from the moment I carried her in, and since Cyborg hooked the monitoring machines to her, nothing had grown any different.
Everything I needed was in that room, and I only wanted for things to be better, but they weren't. My own state was also growing worse, my stomach was twisted in numerous knots, where it felt like I would hurl, but I had nothing to expel from within, there was no fuel, no food in my stomach. I was very exhausted, my mind kept telling me had to look for clues, to keep searching for answers; that I had to get to the bottom of things, but I couldn't, I just couldn't do anything. The only thing that made any reasonable sense to me; was to sit by her bed, holding her hand.
The first four days, after Starfire was brought to the infirmary, I did focus on finding answers, on looking for any trail, but everything was a dead-end. There were no leads to go off on, there was nothing further to find; and the longer time spent away from the tower, the more I wished; to be by her side.
Cyborg, Raven and Beast Boy helped me in the search, but, soon they began to lose any and all hope. After four straight days of searching, and coming up empty handed. The endless hours, from dawn to dusk, only getting a half hour sleep every one of those days, of looking from the city, to the scene where it all happened, back to the main computer within the evidence room of Titans Tower. For four straight days, there was nothing to be found, and it only made me feel worse, that I couldn't get anywhere.
From the fourth day onwards, for the rest of the week as soon as I returned, I went to check on my beloved. Since then, I had not left her side, mainly for a bathroom break, but that was it. I didn't go outside to check for lost clues, I didn't care for petty criminals of auto theft, or simple graffiti art; there was no true threat like Slade to the city. What crime there was, Cyborg led the others, filled out the reports to the J.C.P.D. and kept the team going, while I stayed in the depressing room, with the girl who meant so much to me.
By the ending of the second week, by her side, the others began to worry over my current state. They didn't say it outright to my face, but they were hinting that I needed to move, that I had to leave the room. I listened to their offers, but stayed where I was, unchanged in my state of depression, just like Starfire was, in her comma.
Cyborg had tried at first, but quickly gave up; Beast Boy couldn't sum up the nerve to confront my dejected being, or his own. Where these two just left me over time, to stay where I was, Rae was determined to get me, to find myself once again. Either from her own understanding, or from a plan the trio formed, what-ever it was, she did manage to bring me some hope.
Raven managed to get me to move, I couldn't pry myself from the seat, not after everything we had been through together. My whole focus was on Starfire's body, on her curves under the white sheets, as she breathed in and out soothingly. The machines continued to beep at a rhythmic toon, monitoring her heart rate, which was slow, steady, but slower than the normal rhythm it was supposed to be.
Things weren't as happy for anyone; as they once were around Titans Tower. Although it looked normal on the outside, on the inside, our home, felt to me like a tomb. So quiet and lonely, so depressing and eerie, and the once jumping atmosphere of the common room; simply carried all the subtleties of a graveyard. It was so lonesome and desolate, so cold and tragic.
"Why would I go out there, when it feels the same, everywhere in our home?"
I knew she was about to enter, to try and get me up again. I could just feel her presence before she came. The question that was on her mind; was very easy to read and I didn't have to tilt my head up, from my beloveds side, to see who it was.
"Robin…"
The voice of Raven's soft monotone carries across the infirmary. The door parting could be heard to "whoosh" open, but my head was by my girlfriend's lap, my hand clasping hers as it was by her side. The rain continued to rattle across the long glass windows, as a single boom of thunder, bellows in the darkness of the night sky.
"Robin please… I-I know it may seem hard now, but it's been a whole week and then some; since anyone has seen you leave this room."
After giving a deep sigh, I manage to bring my head off from the sheets, where I turn to face the Empath.
Raven pulled away her trademark hood, from her outer blue cloak, which covered her black, skin-tight leotard. Her attire fit the curves of her slender and goddess-like figure perfectly, and her violet colored, A-Line haircut, was always kept clean. I already knew how I looked, rather deplorable to-say-the-least.
From the first day I was in this specific section of Titans Tower, I did leave every now and then, to change my clothing, to shower and keep refreshed. But every-time I left the room, it drew more heavily on my conscience, that I may never see her face again, that her current predicament would worsen. So I made the trips from the tower's infirmary, to my chambers very quick, when nobody was around, and even after a few days of doing that routine, I was finding it even harder to move from her side.
While I did have AXE body spray, and other deoderants to fight the human body's stench, some of the chemicals, made the sanatorium smell like the dentists office. I never liked spending my time in this room at all, but the girl I deeply loved was in here, and over time, the strange chemicals didn't bother me as much.
When Raven entered however, I instantly picked up on her lavender perfume. It smelt soothing, the nausea of the cleaning chemicals were instantly taken aback, when Raven approached. As soon as she placed her pallid hand upon my shoulder, a slight calm, came over me, and for the first time in many days, I was, in a small sense, at peace.
I turn my head, from Starfire's body, to Rae's palm on my shoulder. In a raspy voice, I manage to find the words to speak, after so long of not talking.
"I-I know… but she would be doing the same thing, should our places have been swapped."
I lower my head in saddness, my eyes hurt; they burned from staying open for many days on end. After taking another deep breath, in a softer tone after clearing my throat, I continue to speak. "Why, why couldn't it have been me? Why did this have to happen, why am I not in her place instead?"
I knew the questions I were asking, were near pointless, but I cared not. They had been on my mind since the moment I carried her in, and only bore down onto my conscience, that I could have done something, anything else to change things. I felt deeply guilt, tremendous sorrow for how badly things had transformed, and I couldn't stop blaming myself for events that I knew, I had no control over.
"She would be asking the same questions, if you were lying in that bed, and if she were sitting where you are now, talking to me."
Again I tilt my head to meet Raven's face, and she had a half smile showing. She was trying to comfort me, and in a small way, it was working. I pull my whole body away from my inamorata's sleeping figure. She was like an angel, and even when she was in slumber, I was still held captivated, by her curves, by her soft breathing.
"Yeah, but it's different."
Raven lifts an eyebrow, giving me a bemused look. Her warm smile is fast to fade under her normal emotionless glare.
"No, there would be no difference."
"I don't care what you see, how she would act. The fact is; it-it should have been me to taken that beating. I should have gone to that lead instead, and look what happened!"
I was loosing my temper, my sadness, was now being clouded with anger. I realized I was stepping out of line, but I was too tired to care for the moment.
"Just stop this, alright! Stop pittying yourself for HER current state of being. Look at how the team has been handling it. I mean, sure, we're all sad and angry, but we still do our duties."
Raven takes her hand off my shoulder, and crosses her arms in front of her chest. Another loud clash, from the forces of nature echoes in the sky once more. After listening to the mood of the weather, it felt like the mood of the room just now, and we stayed silent, to take in what had been spoken so far.
"While you have been mourning in this room for the past two weeks, you do know that crime has still been going on? It's one thing to come in here, and check up on her, but you've locked yourself away, for TWO WHOLE WEEKS!"
There was a monster migraine, pounding away within my head, a throbbing feeling from my heart. I place a hand on my forehead, and keep my other gloved hand, clasped within the fingers of my beloved. I narrow my eyes, and can feel the mask narrow against my skin, but I was so used to the texture, to the feel of the mask, that it almost became a part of me.
"Raven." I start, while my eyes are still fixed on Starfire's tan complection of her skin, of her beautiful face, of her long red hair, which was draped about the pillow, behind her head. "I may have been in here, but I don't have to leave, simply to know that Cyborg and Beast Boy are just as torn as I am."
After running the hand, from my forehead through my jet-black hair, Raven walks over to me again, and has regained her calm composure. As I drop my left hand onto a side of the bed, Raven picks it up, and while looking from me to Starfire, she speaks soothingly as she caresses it within her own hands.
"Robin, the team needs you."
"Starfire needs me!"
"I entirely understand that… and we all feel how you do."
I pull my hand out of Raven's soft touch, and then place both hands, on top of my princess's. I narrow my eyes once more, and even though I am looking down, at my girlfriend's body, I can feel the piercing eyes of my fellow teammate, boring down on my back.
"How could you possibly know, how I feel?" My voice has grown quiet again, and I feel thirsty, but care not for a drink of water.
"Don't think you're the only one who has been affected by this!" Raven's voice is stern, but she then turns away once again, and walks to the window as she looks to Jump City night-life.
The yellow glows, from the multiple buildings shine across the bay, as the flashes of lightning, streak across the darkness above.
"Cyborg has some big shoes to fill, and he always second guesses every action we do. You would stick with one decision, yet the tin man always feels he's doing the wrong thing, and with you out, he feels the full weight of responsibility is too much to bear alone."
"But he's led the Titans East before; he knows how to lead a team."
"Yes, but this is YOUR team Robin."
It dawned on me then, that I was not doing my part, that I was not leading the others through this difficult struggle. The rain becomes louder, rattling across the glass windows, as the thunder clashes again, but not as violent as before.
The storm outside, was how I felt right in this moment, and the rain felt like the tears I wished to shed, but I couldn't. My eyes hurt too much, I was too fazed to weep in the moment, but I did have some tears, and they streaked across my face, onto the white sheets that were draped over the girl of my heart. She was nestled beneath the white linen sheets, and there were no ruffles in the fabric, as there were many in my clothing.
As I closed my eyes harder together, I knew Raven was getting closer to me again, and I felt that now, I was not only letting my inamorata, my Starfire down, but also the others over my own suffering. Before Raven could resume speaking, I tilt my head back up, the blood from my drooped posture carries a very dizzy feeling, but it quickly wears off.
"I…" The words are hard to say, my throat feels as tight in a knot as my stomach, and I manage to swallow, while I fight back more tears, from escaping my eyes.
"I don't know anymore." I allow my voice to trail off, growing quieter and quieter, where it soon becomes a whisper, and I drop my head once more, in agony of defeat.
"There will always be struggles Robin, always hardships we will have to face. But by facing them, meeting the next day with even more determination, we can overcome these testing obstacles much faster."
Raven tilts my head with her palm, and her violet lobes, so entrancing and beautiful, where I never fully noticed before, look deeply into my eye-mask. "You will always be the leader of this team, and even though Starfire can't speak right now, she would also agree with me on this."
My fellow teammate gives another smile, and the intense storm, outside Titans Tower sounded to be quieting down. I rub the back of my neck with my right hand, and I yawn unknowing that my own body, is fighting me now.
"Why not go to the common room? I'm sure playing that new game B got, could take your mind off of this."
Once again, I turn my face from my concerning friend, back to Starfire. I didn't want to go, but part of me desperately wanted to. I didn't know why, if it was seeing her the way she was, unchanged in her state, which only brought heartache to me. I didn't care so much for video games at the moment, or anything else, but my head had been consumed with so much guilt, I did feel the need, to escape from the world of reality.
"I-"
"Don't worry, besides, I'll be here, so you don't have to be afraid of something bad happening." Raven interrupts and my mouth hangs partly open, trying to express my concern. "If anything should change in her current state, you'll be the first to know."
My voice is silent, and I cannot speak any words, for I was speechless. After I close my eyes for a few, lingering seconds, I nod my head slowly in compliance. As I get out of the chair, I bend over my beloved Starfire, still in her comma, and I kiss her left cheek softly.
After taking a deep breath, I pull away, and my hand is the last to part from hers. She was at such peace, and it looked like she was only sleeping, but in truth, she was fighting for her very life, and if she had not been given aid immediately, her current state could have been worse off.
As I stand by the door, looking in, I notice Raven take Starfire's hands, in her own, and she sits down where I did, with one of her books, being carried under her other arm.
"Thanks Raven." I manage to say, the only true words of gratitude that come to my mind, the only thing I can speak as I make my leave.
She turns her head, from Starfire's face, to meet mine as I stand in the doorway, where she stood moments ago.
"It's fine Robin. You should get some rest, you look terrible."
I rub my right hand behind my neck, something I did when I was uneasy or thinking deeply. There are no further words to come into my mind, I knew she was right, and I nod once more, and turn as I swipe my hand by the door's sensor. In seconds, the divider "whooshes" open again, and with my head bowed in sorrow, I take my leave down the hall, as the doors slide shut behind.
I stood outside in the hallway, leaning my back against a far wall. The lighting of the pathway was different from the glow from within the medical bay. The phloresant toobing within the infirmary, were off, so only the lights from the machines blinking on and off, made the whole room a dark color. Out in the hallway, the lights along the ceiling shined yellow glows, on a dim setting, and my shadow mirrored across the floor behind me, also slouched over.
Picking my feet up, I decided to make my way to my fellow teammate's rooms, to check on their dealings with the whole situation; of Starfire being out, and of my own absence from being their leader.
Making my way down the hall, I come across Beast Boy's room first, where his name imprinted along the top in bold letters causes me to hault instantly. I stood outside, with my hand ready to knock, but I stop myself, as I try to think of what to say next, of how to begin a conversation.
After what felt like an hour, I sum up the strength and next to his door, like all of the other doors inside of the tower, I swipe my hand by the black scanner on the wall, and the devider parts open.
"Beast Boy?"
I ask, but there is no answer, nothing, not a voice in his room, only the eerie static, from the buzzing from a few of the lights in the hall, which I stand in. The sound of silence, reminds me then, that this was how I had treated the others, as they came to check up on me. Realizing that he probably left the tower, like so many times before, I thought of calling him on the my Titans Communicator, but I stop myself fast.
"What would I say to him? I'm sorry for not talking, I'm sorry for leaving you guys? No, I'll wait until the morning to speak with him, and the others."
I turn from Beast Boy's room, where the door quickly slides shut again. I continue on my way, past my other teammates chambers as the sound of rain, continues to pitter-patter across our home.
Soon, I find myself standing across Cyborg's room next, where I pause as I had before going into Beast Boy's. Only, it is shorter than before, and instead of actualy willing to go in, I think once more, on how my absence has affected the tin man.
"What could I possibly say to Cyborg? I thank you for taking over the team, for moving on with them after accepting all the burden upon yourself? I'm sorry for leaving you, when you could have defiantly used my help? I'm sorry for leaving all the big stuff to you, when I told you so many times over, that this was my team to lead?"
I lower my head once again, as another migrain pounds away within my skull. After taking a long exhale from my lungs, I continue down the hallway, too tired for a conversation, with anyone else. I had the funniest feeling that Cyborg had stayed within the garage, keeping his entire mind, bent on fixing his T-Car. There were also no sounds coming from within his bedroom either, and I felt he went to the lower levels, to keep his mind busy.
Although the tune-ups, oil changes, break work, and electrical configurations and moderation's within his baby were up to date, he still took things apart. Even though there was nothing left on his T-Car to fix, he could always find new things, to tinker with.
Soon, I stop my walking as I pass by Raven's bedroom, and I already knew where she was, but I didn't feel like talking to her for the moment either. Starfire's bedroom was across the hall from her's, and mine was towards the end of the hallway, but it hit me just then, that my own suffering was deeply affecting the others as well, in their own ways.
Whenever Beast Boy left the tower for long periods of time, I knew he went to think on his deeper problems. When Cyborg was gone, within the garage for just as long, I knew he would wrap his mind into his work, like me and become obsessed with trying to find answers, or at least, to try and fix things to make them better. Raven was still a mystery to me, and I had no idea on why she of the others, wanted me out of that depressing room. I realized when she meditated, she thought on all kinds of things, and like the funny feeling I had with Cybrog and Beast Boy, I thought I could hear her reciting her mantra, softly from way down the hall.
After standing in silence, just pondering over the whole situation, I didn't even realize my legs were moving, untill I had entered the common room. I quickly stop, as the darkness of the entrance covers over me, and the dim lights from the hall shine across my backside.
Again, like the infirmary before, like the hallway I stood in, I am again only greeted by silence. I make my way to the long sofa, and plop down, lifting my legs onto the long center table, and I stretch my arms on-top of the couch. As I look around the dark and cold room, there is not a sound, not a whisper from anyone or anything.
"How am I supposed to lead this team, if there is nobody to lead? How can I move on, when the girl I love is hurt, and there is nothing I can do but wait?"
I rub my sore neck with my left hand, trying to get the knot out of my muscles, from being bent in an uncomfortable position over my inamorata for many sleepless nights.
"Damn it all. What the hell happened? How did things get so out of control, where now, I am no longer sure of whom I am anymore?"
Looking about the room, hoping that somebody would answer my many questions, I find that the shadows are my only friend. The silence is my loudest answer, and as the rain continues to fall from the heavens above, my eyes grow heavier, and soon, the world darkens in my mind, as I lay upon the couch for the night.
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~~~Here are some outstanding stories to read. If you haven't already, you are sure in for one enjoyable ride!~~~
The Joker's Shadow: By TheForceIsStrongWithThisOne. The Wild Man's Journey was one awesome story to read! Now, the very famous author for that masterpiece; is writing another wonderful, and brilliantly crafted tale of pure epicness! How can I describe how awesome it is? There are so many great things about this story. Robin is called back to Gotham by Alfred, where the Joker has The Dark Knight in a tough spot. Simply an outstanding and very gripping read! It's a Robin and Starfire story, with some Beast Boy and Raven of course. ;-)
Collateral Damage: By Novus Ordo Seclorum. This masterpiece is always in my stories to read, because it is simply is an AWESOME story to read! Things are coming to a close, in this magnificent and brilliantly sculpted work of art, yet I know I will only be kept in simple wonder when it's finished. It truly is another telling, in my top 3 stories that has really touched my heart. Truly A GREAT STORY! ;-D
Here Comes Da BOOM: By A New Side Of Awesome. Simple amazement I find myself in, when I read this wonderful story. Robin and Starfire, have a new and happy family, but Slade has a secret weapon yet to be unleashed. His dark plans are unfolding rather quickly, and a certain lost face, someone of the Titan's past is soon to creep back into the picture, and it will be a hard struggle for everyone, on how she came back into the swing of things. You may think you know who it is, but, the author really does quiet a number of twists on my mind. So, if you want to find out more, and if your guess for the mysterious girl is right or not, (most likely wrong) jump in! I said shockers, right? Well, you will be VERY surprised. ;-)
Shock and Awe: By DeathproofHero. Like stories with as much depth, detail, and powerful and very moving words like Novu's and mine? Then here is another fantastic story for you! Quiet the action packed deal in this story! So much depth in the plot-line; and it really flows nicely for your eyes, and you just can't turn away after the latest ending. I'm hooked, so, if you want to see what the rage is all about, jump on in! :-)
Inside My Head: By DcFan 100. It's a very nail biting storyline, keeping you on the very edge of your seat. If ya think my work is suspenseful, just take a look at his first chapter. :-O Robin, Raven and Scarecrow? Also, Two Face! Yeah, he is like my number one villain on DC universe. Anyway; it's a very strong plot-line, and a very gripping tale. I think both he and I have a thing in common, for leaving the readers hooked, in a state of fear for the characters well being. ;-) Suspense is right, quite the fitting word for the both of us.
Progress: By Avarici. A very deep and heart-felt story, of confusing emotions for Beast Boy and Raven. Rae keeps trying to see what is going on within his mind, as B tries to make sense of it all himself. Will love blossom between the two? Plus, another old face comes back into the swing of things, rather surprising for everyone. A very well, and genius tale to say the very least! Truly a wonderful story! :-D
Flowers: By SkilletFan000. Another wonderful telling! He sure knows how to make a heartwarming and very captivating story, full of many great details. The suspense is building for some unsuspecting twist I presume, for Raven and Beast Boy. What oh what could it be? I guess you'll just have to read to find out more, my lips are sealed. ;-)
Rocks And Redemption's: By Bk00. The geomancer in another wonderful story! True, not to many people like the girl, that broke the changeling's heart, but, still she is a great character. The author sure knows, how to put a wonderful story into motion, and everything is coming together nicely. Some twists and turns like in any great story, and I can only ponder, what the famed Terra will do now? :-D
Titans Going To High School!: By Saffire55. This is a very great tale. Many romances involved, for multiple characters of the Teen Titan universe, plus some 'other characters' as well, to make things have a new suspense built around the love triangles. Falcon from my Inner Demons is in this story, so I would ask that you read on into her work. She does a great job with details, and the depth of inner struggles for everyone. What will happen next? I guess you'll have to read to find out. ;-)
Here and Now: By Kenzi101. It's a bit different, being that it's under Naruto, instead of Teen Titans, but it is a Teen Titan story. Raven is in trouble, and the Titans and 'other characters' try to help her. Beast Boy is close to Rae, and things take off rather quickly. Truly a very enjoyable story to read. :-)
A Twisted Mind: By Shac89. Well, the title really says it all, for the main villain in the story. Truly, he has once twisted mind, like a crazy monster that knows no bounds. Some villains are dark, but this villain is Super dark and evil. It's rated M, so, just a heads up that it is rather violent. Still though, the author really does a good job in leaving some big cliff-hangers. Things are going well for the Teen Titans, Raven and Beast Boy are together, and have a child. But, with a one crazy villain on the prowl, who knows what's going to happen next? ;-)
The Teen Titans are going to review your stories!: By Emily Snow15. Quiet the idea, and a very brilliantly sculpted work of art, which the author has undertaken upon herself. This is a very genius idea, and truly, very enjoyable to read! The title says it all, Raven, Beast Boy, Robin, Starfire and Cyborg write reviews to works that people want to be reviewed upon. So, in the updates, the characters write what they feel, and at the end of their reviews, a rather interesting storyline is taking place. You should definitely look into this story. :-D
A/N Well, I think that should about wrap this up. Again, I'm not completely sure if I should continue to write this story, while Inner Demons updates are also on-going. I need to know, if I should press forwards with this or not, and the feedback really helps to boost my moral. Once again, I say thanks a million for everything. Later days Dudes and Dudetts! ;-)