I wrote this because lately I've been feeling upset because my grandmother passed away exactly two years ago tommorow, Oct 27th. So I poured all my sadness and stuff into a oneshot. careful, its kind of dark at the beginning. Then it gets almost fluffy.
JunZumi - The last night you'll spend alone.
I awoke to my parents screaming at eachother. It was like this every night. They would wake up in the middle of the night and fight. I cried as they did, they wouldn't hear me over themselves yelling, breaking things and screaming. I couldn't hold the sobs in anymore. I needed to get out of here. I crawled out of bed, not bothering to change out of my pajama shirt and pants. I clung to the tree outside my room window, then my legs left my room as well, and I swung down to the ground. I needed to find somewhere to stay tonight. Maybe longer.
My feet took off running.
*You come to me with scars on your wrist*
I knocked on the white door. I begged to god he was home, if he wasn't I couldn't go to anyone else's house. Tomoki lived on the other side of town, Takuya, nd the twins lived in a totally different section of town too, and I hadn't thought far enough ahead to bring money for a train ticket. I knocked again, louder this time.
"Open the door Junpei!" I yelled, sobbing loudly. Finally Junpei came to the door, dressed in White pajamas, looking shocked.
"Izumi, are you alright? Did something happen?" He stood aside and I walked in the door. I nodded, not saying anything. I didn't want to completely cry in front of Junpei, but I couldn't stand holding in everything, not anymore. He grabbed my hands and held them both for a moment. "Tell me what happened, I'll make you some tea." He moved his hands up to my elbows, but stopped in the middle.
"Izumi." He grabbed my hand and flipped my arm over to reveal the soft underside of my arm. He and I both looked upon the scabs forming in straight lines. There was several small lines across my wrist. "Why did you do this?"
"My parents fight every night. In the middle of the night, after they think I'm asleep, they start screaming at eachother, sometimes about me, sometimes just about eachother."
*You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this*
"Would you still like some tea?" Jumpei asked cautiously. I nodded.
"They scream and yell and break things. It's been happening since we got back from the digital world." I sobbed harder. The tears were flowing on their own now, I couldn't stop now. It was too late to even think about it. "My father shouts about me and my mother, saying he should've never gotten involved with her, never had me come around."
"Here. It's chamomile, with some sugar. Just the way you like it Izumi." Junpei said as he put down the tea and hugged me. I hugged back, burying my face in his shoulder and crying my heart out.
"They act like it never happens in the daytime. They just pretend everything is fine and dandy. I hate it."
*I just came to say goodbye*
"They want to divorce. And my mother wants to move away with me. She wants to leave Japan completely" Junpei looked shocked. "My mother has started hating my father, she hits him, I hear it through the walls every night. I hear her slapping him. Sometimes he'll hit back."
"Izumi. I'm so sorry."
"It's not like you knew."
"Why didn't you tell me? Does anyone else know?"
*I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine*
"No one else knows anything about it. This is the first time I've told anyone."
"Will they notice you're missing?" Junpei asked, suddenly worried. I shook my head.
"As long as I get home early enough, no. I didn't change, I didn't do anything, I just left. I didn't even bring my shoes Junpei. They won't check on me. They are always too preoccupied."
*But I know it's a lie.*
"I'm sure that's not true. They must love you. They--"
"It's true Junpei! They don't care anymore. My mother loves my father more than she cares for me! She doesn't even talk to me anymore!" I yelled, more tears and sobs racking my body.
"There will always be someone there for you. I promise. Even if it's not me, I promise you don't need to be alone anymore Izumi."
"That doesn't do anything!" I yelled again, pulling my tangled hair. " People say that all the time, but they're just words! They don't mean anything!" I stood up, some of my hair coming out. "Why can't you see Junpei? Words can only be neutral or painful!" I fell to my knees, now scratching the back of my neck, adding more scars with my nails.
"Izumi stop!" Junpei yelled as the back of my neck started bleeding, adding red to my blonde hair.
*This is the last night you'll spend alone*
"Stop hurting yourself. Izumi, it's painful to watch." Junpei pleaded, grabbing my scarred wrists.
"I have to! It's all my fault. If I never went to the Digi-world things wouldn't be like this!" I cried. "It would all be better if I never left." Junpei stiffened at this.
*Look me in the eyes so I know you know*
"I think you should calm down Izumi. You don't know what you're saying." He said.
"You're right." I said as I took some tea. I raised the cup to my lips. I saw him relax out of the corner of my eye. Junpei was right, the tea was exactly how I liked it. He knew more about me than I had understood.
*I'm everywhere you want me to be.*
"How is it?" Junpei asked, reffering to the tea. I nodded and gave him a small smile.
"Junpei?"
"Yes?"
"I- I don't want to go home yet."
*The last night you'll spend alone,*
"You don't have to, if you don't want to."
"Why do my parents hate me?" I asked.
"They don't hate you."
"Yes they do."
"What's not to like?"
"How could anyone put up with me?"
"Easily."
"I doubt it."
"I don't."
*I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,*
"Why?"
"Because, you're one of my closest friends. How could I not like you?" I felt like I had weights on my shoulders, sure it was a positive response, but I had really wanted him to say something more.
"Thanks Junpei. I really appreaciate it."
"It's alright." I crawled over to him on the other side of his couch and hugged him. He pat my back. "It's okay now."
I fell asleep on Junpei's shoulder, tears still falling down my face.
*I'm everything you need me to be.*
--Junpei's pov-
I stayed there. She was sleeping net to me now, her breathing calm and even. I couldn't help but think about all she had said.
*Your parents say everything is your fault*
I have heard from her before when she was ranting that her parents think the littlest things are her fault. Like that they are almost bankrupt.
*But they don't know you like I know you they don't know *
It's not like they could prove it.
An besides, how could they think that? They should've thought of money before they even thought of having Izumi.
*you at all*
It's their fault she's like this.
*I'm so sick of when they say*
Maybe everything she's complained about was true.
*It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine*
It wasn't just teenage girl complaints, she really meant it.
*But I know it's a lie.*
She should've told someone sooner.
*This is the last night you'll spend alone*
Why did she hold it in? It might've gotten better if she told someone about it.
*Look me in the eyes so I know you know*
I looked at her tear stained face.
*I'm everywhere you want me to be.*
She shouldn't go back to them at all.
*The last night you'll spend alone,*
Those people don't deserve to have any children.
*I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,*
I held her a little tighter, I was sure it wouldn't be long before I cried.
*I'm everything you need me to be.*
"How could you have gotten the impression it was your fault Izumi?" I asked her in a soft voice
*The last night away from me*
The tears started coming, and I couldn't hold them back either.
*The night is so long when everything's wrong*
I gasped in a quick breath. She didn't deserve the pain she felt.
*If you give me your hand I will help you hold on*
I had to do everything I could to make her stay. I couldn't let her go back to that place.
*Tonight,*
"You won't be alone anymore. I promise you Izumi."
*Tonight.*
"I've cared about you as more than a friend since the day I met you. I'd be an idiot not to help you, even if I didn't love you like I do."
*This is the last night you'll spend alone*
"Please just let me care for you. Even if it's only until you heal yourself."
*Look me in the eyes so I know you know*
"Izumi, I love you."
*I'm everywhere you want me to be.*
"I'll make sure you never have to hear your parent's voices yelling anymore."
*The last night you'll spend alone,*
"I'll stop your pain as best as I can. But don't hurt yourself anymore."
*I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,*
"I'll never give up until you can truthfully say you're fine."
*I'm everything you need me to be.*
"I don't give a damn how long it takes."
*I won't let you say goodbye,*
"I will always be there."
*I'll be your reason why.*
"And there is no way you'll ever hurt yourself again Izumi, I promise."
*The last night away from me,*
Maybe, for now there wasn't any hope, but I wasn't going to give up on her for that.
*Away from me.*
Because even though there's no hope so far.
"There will be hope." And maybe, there could be.
But untill then, I'll help.
I'll continue this if I get more than two people saying I should, but other than that it'll probably stay a oneshot unless three people say I should continue. I HAVE ENOUGH ANGST FOR MORE!