Hey guys! New story. Haha. Maybe I'll keep this a oneshot. But maybe it'll be continueedddd. Lemme know what'cha thiinnkk!!!
This was inspired by Jesse McCartney's "Just So You Know", Hence the title. Lol.
Disclaimer: Er, sadly again, I don't own anything. :( I still want JOE JONAS! I hope I get him for my birthday present...Which is in September. Momma, that's PLENTY of time to get Joe Jonas for my present. :D
I shouldn't love you, but I want to, I just can't turn away. I shouldn't see you, but I can't move. I can't look away…
The only girl I'd ever love…was with someone else. That was only because I was stupid and let her go. She'd warned me about her leaving but, like always, I had to be the jackass that fucked everything up. The dumbass who couldn't take no shit seriously whether my life depended on it or not. Vanessa was my life. Correction; she'd still be my whole entire fucking life if I wasn't the stupid asshole I was and pushed her away from me. Driving her into that bastard's arms.
He doesn't love her. At least not the ways I do.
We're still friends, but she made it perfectly clear that that's all we'll ever be. Nothing more, nothing less. But still, I can't seem to find myself happy.
When she's with him, all I ever see if pain and agony in her eyes and nothing can ever tell me why.
I ask her about it, and all she ever says is that everything couldn't be better. But I knew better. She was my best friend and I knew her probably better than she knew herself.
For the past 3 years, I've tried everything in my willpower to make her fall in love with me once again. But nothing ever works.
Why?
Because I'm not good enough.
I'm not some ass that looks so god damned fucking sexy doing stupid shit like cheating and getting drunk 24/7.
Vanessa respects that about me. Which drives me insane because she puts on his smile in front of him, acting like nothing he does bothers her.
All because I was stupid and let her slip out of my grip; she's gone…
"Tonight will be the night that you will fall for me…Over again…"
How pathetic can I get?
Sitting here like a fucking dumbass in this hellhole while she's out on some stupid date with the bastard. While he'll leave early, leaving her AND the check. While I'm still sitting here, waiting for her to burst through my bedroom door with tears falling faster than a waterfall. And while I sit here, comforting her. All I do is sit around like some stupid ass jerk feeling sorry for himself. I got up and ran over to the only spot he takes her on their "dates". That was the beach at night. As soon as I got there, I saw the little bastard on one fucking knee and Vanessa's eyes filled with tears and a small smile creeping up to her fucking torturing lips.
What the hell am I supposed to do now?
Cry and plead her to say no? What if she already said yes?
Fucking Hell, just take me NOW!
I hope you guys liked it!!! :D
I "enHOYED" writing this one. :P Aha, love you Joseph.
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More to come; I promise! :D