Alert: i do not own vampire diaries,

Summery : This is my take on Vampire Diaries season 4 , i will be writing in the summer and while i wainting for season 4 to premiere in fall, this is Elena waking up dealing with her being a vampire Alarics death her feelings for Damon and Stefan and who is spying on Elena ?

AN: sorry for the bad grammar iam from sweden so English is not my first Lanuage, and iam looking for a beta pm me if you are intrested. I do no longer look for a beta, this chapter and story is being beta by Marlo27 , thanks you did a great job , :)

My whole body ached for Damon Salvatore. Damon the forbidden fruit. I know it is best to stay with Stefan, better to stay on the safe side. However, when I opened my eyes all I could think of was taking a bite from that forbidden fruit. My heart and body craved Damon Salvatore. I looked around and by the looks of it I was in the morgue, lying on a steel table. I see Stefan and Damon standing around me looking worried, all I could think about was what the hell am I doing on a table reserved for dead people?

Then it hits me. Me and Matt trapped in water, unable to get out. Just like the last time when my parents died, who died this time? Was it my life that was taken? But that meant that I had become a vampire. That's not right, as far as I know I didn't have any vamire blood in my system. I blinked a couple of times but nothing happend, the scene was still the same Damon and Stefan still stood there looking at me. Stefan not only had worry in his eyes he also had pity. Damons eyes held worry, love and relief. I don't like the pity that's in Stefans beautiful, brown eyes.

"Stefan, Damon? What's happening? What's wrong? Am I a vamp-" I couldn't finish that sentence, I didn't want it to be true. What would happen to Jeremy? I couldn't be a vampire, I just couldn't be. Unfortunatley Damon chose this moment to confirm my suspicions.

"A vampire? Not yet, Elena. But you're in transition. I'm so sorry, Elena. I know you never wanted this to happen. Damons eyes held sorry and pain.

"It's okay Damon, it wasn't your fault. But how is it possible? How did I get vampire blood in my system?"

"Elena, lets just go home, we'll explain it all when we get there." Says Stefan gently.

He reaches out and trys to take me off of the table. But I don't want to be touched. Not now and not by him. I shake his hands of me and instead I follow Damon out of the cold room. Leaving, atleast for now, the pressure to choose one of the brothers.

Once upon a time my heart belonged to Stefan but I'm not so sure anymore.

Later that day I found my self alone with Damon. Stefan mumbled something unintelliable and left after I annouched that I didn't want to complete the transition. I wanted to die. He hasn't returned but Damon stayed. We are sitting on the couch when it happens. Damon looks deep in my eyes, he moves closer and he kisses me.

The kiss is long but Damon breaks it off and ends the magical moment. "Even if you won't stay with me forever, that kiss will." I was about to answer him but but that's when Stefan chose to walk into the room. He wasn't alone.

An: Rewiev and thanks to Marlo 27 /u/3278585/