When they tole me that I had leukaemia I had no idea how to think. Holden was telling them that they'd got it wrong, cause there was no way I could have leukaemia, I was just a kid. They tole him that unfortunately it was a kid's disease. D.B. was telling me that I'd be okay and that they'd fix me but I had no idea what leukaemia was. So I asked, and the doctor tole me that it was like a cancer, but it was in my blood. That really scared me, you know, cause cancer sure is serious. But I didn't show that I was scared cause I didn't know how, cause there's no way to show just how scared I was, so I just went quiet. I mean, people scream and shout and rage about how unfair it was, and cry cause they don't wanna die, but I didn't know what to do cause raging and crying wouldn't make it better. So I sort of sat there with a dumb look on my face and I realized I couldn't really feel anything. Mom was crying and Holden was standing next to me holding my hand and telling me it'd be alright. I didn't say anything. Then D.B. came over to me and he said that I was gonna haveta stay in the hospital for the night cause the doctors wanted to start treatment soon and I heard myself say O.K. but I didn't really say it, what I mean is, it didn't feel like me saying it.