Mimi didn't die. Well, you know that, you've heard that story, but at some point you must have realized that even if she lived at the end of the story… she still only had a few months left. Everyone was so surprised that Mimi was doing so well after Christmas Eve. She actually took her AZT, and she started to quit heroin. The doctor advised that roger wean her off instead of stopping all at once, because it would be better for her health. It was a longer withdrawal than Roger's, but it was easier, and Mimi lived long enough to see the end of it. After years, and none of us knew exactly how many, Mimi could walk by the junkies on the street- even shooting up in the alley behind the cat scratch club- and not be tempted. No one could have said she didn't care, but she never wanted to go back, because she knew she would kill herself if she did. Even if Mimi wasn't afraid of dying, she couldn't do that to Roger. He had already lost April. He wasn't going to lose Mimi. She told me once, that she didn't care what it took, she would do everything she could to make sure that Roger wouldn't die alone. She would do everything to be with him for the rest of his life. I hoped she could do that for him… But I guess hope doesn't always get you where you're trying to go, does it?
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Please, Please, Please, Please! I know that Mom and Dad have told me over and over again that it's impossible, but if I live another day knowing nothing about my birth parents, I think I'm going to scream. Please, god or whoever lives in the sky and gives the orders- Let me meet my birth parents!
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If me and my husband are to die, I want to make it known that my two daughters, Haley and Sandra, are to be returned to their biological parents. They were adopted right after birth, because their parents were not expected to live long enough to raise their children. They didn't want their daughters to go through emotional trauma because of their deaths. If they are still alive and physically able, they should be offered the choice to gain custody of the girls.
-X-
Mark, I'm going to die soon. You know that. Roger might be deluding himself into thinking I'm actually leaving the hospital this time, but I know it, and you know it. Remember what I told you a few years ago? I would do whatever it took to live longer than Roger. I know I won't, so I'll keep my other promise. Can you promise me that you won't let Roger die alone? I know that after I die, he'll be like he was after April, and I know she put you through hell, leaving you alone with him like that, but this time he won't be in withdrawal. Can you stay with him even if he tries to force you away? I know he won't mean it. He'll come around, and meanwhile, I want to trust that you'll stay with him. He'll need you, and he'll need Collins… but Collins won't be here for long Mark… He hasn't been doing so well since Angel died, and since I got sicker. He'll try to act like he's fine, even if he's not. He'll be strong for you and Roger, even if he's weak, so watch him for me, and make sure he takes care of himself.
And Mark- Look after yourself too. I may be asking you to take care of Roger, but that doesn't mean you should stop taking care of yourself. If you ever need help, you know Collins and Benny are there to help you, and even Roger is…. on occasion. And remember- Benny may be a dick sometimes, but he's a rich dick who is willing to help with any financial dilemmas that you get stuck in. Whatever you do, don't mention Benny to Roger- especially if Benny ever gives you money to buy food. If Benny gives you AZT for Roger, and Roger finds out Benny paid for it, he won't even touch the bottle. Roger will starve himself if he finds out Benny paid for the food… You probably know that though…
You know I love you, right? You're the best, dorkiest, big brother anyone could ever ask for. I want you to know I love you so much, and I don't want you to go all emo like Roger will- tell him he shouldn't be depressed either. I don't want him to waste a year just crying over me… I don't want you to waste time crying over me either. I'll see you in heaven chico! We'll dance in the clouds- NO NOT THAT KIND OF DANCING! ROGER WILL NOT BE HAPPY IF I TELL HIM YOU THOUGHT ABOUT ME THAT WAY!! I'll get to see angel again soon! Just promise me Chico- You and Roger will take your time coming back up to see me again. And tell Collins to wait as long as he can, he's still got some time left. I'll stop now... I love you Mark, and I'll see you again someday.
-X-
Mimi looked at Mark pleadingly- "Can you find them, please? Just get a photo of what they look like now… I want to see my babies faces before I die." Mimi told him, tears running down her face. Mark tried to put a reassuring smile on his face, but it came out as a grimace instead.
"I'll try, Mimi… I'll try."
-X-
Mr. Howard Richmond and his wife Elaine died in a car collision on June 13th 2008. They were driving their small, ecologically sound smart car, to the small, town theatre to see a play, when they were hit head on by a drunk man driving a Hummer. The drunk driver sustained no injuries whatsoever. The couple's adopted twin daughters, both seventeen years old, are arranged to move into their biological parents' home in New York City, by next Saturday.
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Be careful what you wish for. It's fitting isn't it? I wished to meet my birth parents, and I will. But now MY PARENTS ARE FUCKING DEAD! AND IT'S MY FAULT FOR WISHING!!!! I don't think I'll even be able to look at them when I meet them. I've always thought I could forgive them for giving me and Sandra up… but I don't know if I can anymore… There's too much right now that I can't deal with. For instance… Sandra! Sandra is always crying now, and I'm always angry, and I keep getting pissed off and making her cry more… god or whatever force runs the universe- WHY COULDN'T BOTH OF US BE BAWLING IDIOTS! At least then I wouldn't feel like I'm the reason she's always crying… At least then I'd be too distracted to think it's my fault that my parents are dead… I wished to meet my birth parents, and I told them to buy a smart car… They wanted a big car… but I convinced them… But if I had let them buy a bigger car, that hummer wouldn't have run over them… and even if it had… they would have been hurt, not dead… IT'S MY FAULT that my parents are dead. IT'S MY FAULT that my sister is in the corner crying her eyes out. IT'S MY FAULT that everything is going wrong!
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A/n- Please review! I love Reviews, and I think this story is going to end up being better, and more plotlinish than my other fics. I've got a lot of good plot bunnies set up. Right now I want you to review to tell me if you want Mimi to live long enough to see her daughters or if she should die before she meets them. And guys, none of the plot will work if Mimi doesn't die, so she has to within the next couple of chapters. If you have any input I'd love to hear it. I'll update as soon as possible.
By the way- The first section is Mark's point of view, The second section is a small entry in Haley's diary, The third section is part of Haley and Sandra's Parent's Will, The fourth part is a letter from Mimi to Mark, the fifth section is a tiny bit of dialogue between Mimi and Mark, the sixth part is an obituary for Sandra and Haley's parents, and the seventh section is another diary entry of Haley's.
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As always, reviewers get cyber oreos!
-Glow