So, I was watching 'Mutant Gangland' the other day, and it really caught my attention how Mondo Gecko tried to confront Raph by saying "I sometimes throw tantrums, too, bro. But friends don't turn their back friends." And, that just got the gears turning in my head for those two to interact! No shipping, I swear! Also, I'd like to thank jobee2003 for favorite/following all of my stories so far!

*Raph's P.O.V. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)*

I made my way up to the rooftop. I thought that I was done with this! I punch the wall. It hurts, but I don't care! I continue to keep punching the wall. My knuckles begin to bleed, but I still don't care! I just hate how I always end up back in the same place I've always been! I always say that I will control my temper, and I try! But then, one of my brothers has to go and mess everything up! It's just, so hard sometimes.

I always try, constantly. Yet, I always seem to fail. No matter how hard I try. I now understand why Leo was picked as the leader. He can control himself, something I'll never be able to do. And he'll always be better than me. It's like dedicating yourself to doing something that you've always wanted to do your whole entire life. And then just sitting there, watching yourself fail. Wanting to stop it, but you don't know how. Trying to stop my temper from flaring up.

Watching everyone else with their hate filled eyes despise me for what I can't control. For something that they ignite. The thing I hate most about my existence.

I try to go over what happened today.

I was in the lair. I had woken up, and as soon as I got out of bed, there were fake spiders placed all over my room. Well, at least I didn't know that they were fake, and I screamed.

Leo, Mikey, and Donnie come running into my room. Mikey bursts out laughing, followed by Donnie and Leo. That was when I realized that they were fake spiders. I shove past them and go into the kitchen. I was starving. I didn't eat dinner last night, seeing as how I came home at 3:00 am, and all the pizza was gone. Breakfast was gone, too. I must have woken up late.

"Oh, Raph, are you still hungry?" Mikey asked as he joined me in the kitchen. Great, he's the exactly the person I wanted to see then. Especially since he's the person that made me wake up screaming!

"No, I'm fine." I lied. I don't want to be around him any longer than I have to! Though, I was starving. I tried to convince myself that I wasn't hungry. I go out into the living room where I see more people. Specifically April, Casey, and Donnie. I try to leave, but then Casey has to talk to me.

"Hey, Raph, what'cha doing?" He asked. Making April and Donnie turn their heads to look at me. Great! Now I'm probably gonna be stuck here!

"Oh, I was just leaving." I say as I turn to the hallway. Of course, they have to stop me!

"Why don't you hang out with us?" April asked. "It's been forever since you've spent time with us!"

"Ugh! Fine" I say as I plop done on the couch and look away. Maybe if I'm silent, they'll forget I'm here. Fat chance.

"So, how have you been lately?" April asks.

"Great! Just Great!" I lie, trying to sound as cheerful as I can, to no prevail.

"Alright, what's been up with you lately?!" Casey asks. Oh, nothing. I just feel like I'm suffocating right now at it would be great if you guys just let me have some time to myself!

"Nothing! I'm fine, I swear!" Dang it! Now they'll probably think that something's wrong! And then they'll try to help but that'll only make matters worse! And then I won't be fine!

"Raph, we just want to know what's wrong!" Donnie cuts in. "Yesterday, You lost your temper and left! Almost getting both you and I killed!" Great job, Donnie! You just always have to bring up things that no one else wants to remember!

I can't remember the rest, but I think that that's around when I lost my temper. I just can't it under control, can I! a few tears slip down my cheeks and I wipe them away angrily. I just can't do anything right! Suddenly someone puts a hand on my shoulder. I turn around to see Mondo Gecko.

"Hey, are you alright?" He asks.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I lie as I try to walk away from him. But of course, he has to follow me, and I quicken my pace.

"Are you sure? Your hand is bleeding really bad. And you were crying before I walked up to you." He said. Mondo, please, for you own safety, leave!

"Shut up!" I yell. He cowers down, and my expression softens a little. "What are you even doing out here?"

"Oh, well... Uh..." Just spit it out already! "I kinda made them a little mad... I wrecked the place. Again." That really got me thinking. In a way, that made us opposites. But in a way, that made us the same. The feeling of everyone hating you. The feeling of not being able to do it right. Except, he made everyone else mad, when everyone else made me mad. He said that he 'wrecked the place'. That made me remember way back to the farmhouse. Everyone got mad at Mikey, and Mikey tried to run away. I can't let Mondo run away!

"You were trying to run away, weren't you?" I ask him.

"Yeah, I was." He answered. "How did you know?"

"Because of something that happened a long time ago." I respond, not going into further detail than that.

"Oh. Sometimes it just feels like they don't appreciate me..." Now I definitely know how that feels! "Like, they'd be better of without me. Like they don't even need me... That's why I was leaving."

"You shouldn't leave! They do need you! And they'd never be better off without you!" I plead. I know how it felt when I thought we lost Mikey. I couldn't put the Mutanimals through that!

"Yeah, I guess..." He said, looking down at the street. Then, he suddenly looked back up at me. "Wait, why are you here?"

"Lost my temper again..." I reply coldly. He looked at me, like he wanted to hear more. Like he actually cared. I didn't want to continue, but at the same time it felt like if I didn't get all these true emotions out, then I'd just lose my temper even more. I feel hot tears build up in my eyes and begin to drip out. "It's hard. I'm always trying to control it. But it never works! It'll never work! I' just gonna live the rest of my life suffering because of something that I can't control! I just... wish it could all stop." By this point, my vision is blinded by the tears.

"You wish what could stop?" He asked.

"Everything! The pain! The anger! The emotions! The bad thoughts! Knowing that I'll never be good enough! Being hated! Leo always doing better! Everything! I can't take it anymore! Just make it stop!" Wow, it all just came out. Tears are falling faster than the speed of light. It's pathetic how easy it is to make me cry. No one knew because I'd just always hidden it behind a wall of anger, stopping them enough to stay in until I was alone.

"You're not as angry as you seem, are you?" Mondo asked. "It's just a cover up. Covering up everything that lies on the inside. Because you think that all these emotions make you weak, don't you?" I stay silent. I don't know what to say to that. Mondo Gecko, the slacker. Mondo Gecko, the weakest one in the Mutanimals since Pigeon Pete. Mondo Gecko, the one that could be called stupider than both Casey and Mikey. Being so smart, being able to look on the inside better than anyone else I know, Mondo Gecko, finding out all of my secrets. I mean, I know I just told him. But, something tells me that he knew before this. That he knew the second he met me.

"You know, you aren't as stupid as you seem, either." I say, trying to get his attention off of everything that just happened. "You should probably go back to the Mutanimals now."

"Yeah, I guess you're right." He said. "But, can you go with me? I'm afraid that they'll be mad and they'd probably be less mean if there's someone as tough as you."

"Yeah they probably would." I say. "Alright, I'll go with you."

So, what did you guys think? I thought of this a long time ago, so I decided to put my thoughts on paper. Or, a computer, technically...