Dear Journal,
I saw her today.
I smiled at her, and she smiled back.
I asked about her day.
I can't look at her without crying.
I gave her a hug.
I miss her.
I really do.
I said goodbye to her for the last time.
I went home and cried.
I want her back.
But I can't have her.
I'd pick her over any girl.
But I still lost her.
Sasayan looked at his last words. He cried some more.
It's been a year since he last saw her, Natsume-chan. Asako. But things were different now that they were in college. This was no high school fling.
He missed her. He missed her laugh, her smile, her cuteness, he even missed her stupidity. He missed the way she would marvel over Haru and Shizuku, or the way she would cry over small this. He missed the small sparks of interest she showed towards him. Hell, he even missed getting jealous over Mitsuyoshi.
But most of all, he missed her. But by the time he realized, it was too late.
ささやん~なつめ~ささやん~なつめ~ささやん~なたうめ
Natsume really did miss Sasayan.
She missed the way he could easily make friends, and how jealous she got over that. She missed their friendship, and how he would pick up her phone calls at 3 in the morning. She missed the fact that he pushed her like no one else had. She missed the fact that he didn't go easy on her because she was cute. She even missed how cute he looked when he got jealous.
She missed everything about him. Even the small things that no one noticed, or had bothered to point out. She missed him. Sasayan-kun. Sohei.
Natsume-chan sighed, as she opened her diary, writing about him one last time.
Dear Diary,
I saw him today.
He smiled, so I smiled back.
I asked him about his new girlfriend.
He can't even look at me.
He game me a friendly hug.
He told me he missed me. He didn't mean it.
He didn't.
I said goodbye to him for the last time.
I went home and cried.
I want him back.
But I can't have him.
He has a girlfriend.
But I still love him.