Disclaimer: JQ and the gang don't belong to me, they belong to HB. I'm not making money, don't sue me.
The thoughts in this story are based on ones that led up to a near suicide attempt for me, so please don't make fun. I would like to hear non-flame opinions though. Thanks.=)
Thoughts to be thought
By Harmony Griswold
I stared out the window. Despite the darkness of the night, I could make out the figures of Jonny and his new girlfriend, Alecia, arms around each other as they stared at the moon. Disheartened, I turned away. It wasn't that I was jealous-I wasn't that, not really. I was lonely.
I had started dated Hadji several weeks ago, I really loved him-but he was detained with the pressing business of sultan in Bangalore and would not be home for quite a while. Everyone else close to me seemed to have someone, and weren't lonely in the least. Jonny had Alecia; dad was dating a blonde named Kathryn, even Dr. Quest had someone-a woman in her thrities named Cora. And I was alone.
I sat down on my bed with a sigh, and shoved a strand of long, red hair from my face. My left hand strayed to the hilt of a small dagger my father had bought me in Barcelona. I watched light glint off the sleek blade as I thought.
Thought about lonliness, and how I hated it. The sadness and hurt of being far from the one I love. The knowledge that I can't do anything about it.
The blade in my hand slipped slightly, cutting my finger. Red blood welled against my pale skin. I stared at it a moment, loving it. I put my finger in my mouth and tasted the saltiness of the cut.
My gaze returned to the dagger in my hand. I layed the tip of it between my breasts, and took a deep breath. I could end it all. The pain, lonliness, melencholy. I would never have to see anyone again, never have to worry when people are hurt, or about the problems of the world. A tear slipped from my eye. I didn't want to worry.
Without a further thought, I plunged the blade deep into my chest. There was a moment of pain, and I felt myself fall backward, spread out on my bed. Then a wave of warmth swept over me, my eyes closed and darkness swelled around me.