Callie stood staring at the girl on the operating table. "This leg is shattered. How fast was the car going?"
Arizona quickly glanced at the girls leg before turning back to the girls abdomen. "At least 60. The police took the driver, they think he was drunk."
"Has anyone called her parents?"
Arizona wasn't really paying much attention to Callie. Since the whole Penny drama at Meredith's she tries to keep her distance. So she just keeps concentrating on her work. "I think they're on their way."
"This girl woke up this morning to go to school and now she's on our operating table. All I keep thinking is what if this was Sofia?" At this, Arizona's head snaps up to look at Callie.
"No, don't say that. Sofia is fine. She's healthy and she's safe at school."
"I know. I don't know why this case is affecting me so much. It's not like this is my first trauma."
Arizona gives Callie a sympathetic sigh. She work's in pediatrics, she knows how hard it is to operate on sick and injured kids all day, especially when you have one at home. "You know what? We'll put some music on. Most of the hard part is over. Let's just relax while we finish patching her up."
Arizona instructs one of the scrub nurses to play her ipod and hit shuffle.
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I'm the queen
Callie laughs and looks at Arizona when she hears the start of the song. "Our daughter got to you too then, huh?"
Arizona's face breaks into a huge smile and her eyes light up when she hears Callie laugh. That laugh never failed to make her heart flutter. "Oh god, yeah. I found myself rocking out to the jungle book in the car last week."
Callie laughs even harder and then tells the nurse to skip to the next song.
Driver roll up the partition please
I don't need you seeing Yoncé on her knees
Took 45 minutes to get all dressed up
We ain't even gonna make it to this club
"Now this is more like it!" Callie turns back to continue with the girls leg while she sings along with the song.
Now my mascara runnin', red lipstick smudged
Oh he so horny, yeah he want to fuck
He popped all my buttons and he ripped my blouse
He Monica Luwinski'd all on my gown
Arizona is in awe of the woman in front of her. Since the divorce she almost forgot how sexy Callie was. Her voice was incredible. But Callie is with Penny. She can't be thinking about her ex-wife like that anymore. Arizona joined in with Callie in attempt to focus on something else.
Whoa dere daddy, daddy didn't bring a towel
Oh, baby, baby we better slow it down
Took 45 minutes to get all dressed up
And we ain't even gonna make it to this club
The next hour of surgery continued the same way. Singing and laughing while they fixed the girls mangled body.
"I honestly can't remember the last time I laughed so much." The smiles on the two surgeons faces were enormous. Although no-one could see them behind the scrub masks it was obvious from the crinkles around their eyes.
Looking up, they both caught each others eyes. Brown and blue staring intently back at each other. A hint of sadness evident in both, despite the laughter they just shared.
Arizona was the first to look away. All she kept thinking about was Penny. Perfect pretty penny and Callie. Her Callie. Except she wasn't her Callie anymore. She hadn't been for a long time. Shaking the thought from her head she started to stitch up the patient and waited for the next song to start.
Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore
Arizona laughed. The song couldn't have described how she was feeling any better.
Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you.
As she sang along with the song, Arizona didn't realize she was the only one singing, or that everyone else in the operating room was staring intently at her.
Know that I am, even if I
Can't understand, I'll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We'll make it through
If happy is her, I'm happy for you
Callie stop working, solely focusing on Arizona. There was so much raw emotion in her voice. She was pouring her soul out through every word. For what? For Callie? Was this Arizona telling Callie that she was ok? It had been 2 years, surely she had moved on too.
Stone cold, stone cold Stone cold, baby Don't wanna be stone cold, stone
You're dancing with her, while I'm staring at my phone
Stone cold, stone cold
I was your amber, but now she's your shade of gold
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can't understand, I'll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We'll make it through
If happy is her, I'm happy for you
I wish I could mend this but here's my goodbye
Oh, I'm happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can't understand
If happy is her, If happy is her
I'm happy for you
As the last notes of the song faded out, Arizona finished her work and places all her equipment back on the tray. Not daring to look at Callie, she walked straight to the scrub room and wiped a tear from her cheek.
"What the hell was that!" Callie stormed into the scrub room after her. "Arizona!"
"What?! What Callie? Seriously, what did I do this time?"
"Don't try to play dumb with me. You know exactly what you just did, with the singing, and the crying and then running away."
"Look, just forget about it. It doesn't matter."
"It doesn't matter? You've got to be fucking kidding me! That's not what's going to happen, that's not what I'm going to do."
"Do whatever you want Callie. I don't care." Arizona turned towards the door, but stopped before she left. "You know what? That's the problem. I do care. It's been 2 years and I still care." Arizona turned and took a step towards Callie. "You gave up, you left. I get it, I do. You felt trapped, you were unhappy and that's the last thing I ever wanted, so you left. And I let you. But then what happened? You forgot about me? You moved on. Heather, Penny, god knows who else? You moved on and kept going while I stood still."
"What do you mean you stood still? What about the girls you dated?"
"I didn't date anyone Callie!"
A few seconds of silence pass between the 2 women. Both refusing to make eye contact.
"You didn't date anyone?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"I couldn't. I had you, I gave you everything, every fibre in my body was yours and I lost it. Lost you, and you took everything with you. I couldn't just 'move on'. It was your decision to leave. Not mine."
Callie looks into Arizona's eyes for the first time since she entered the scrub room. "So what? You'll just never date anyone ever again?"
"No, yes. I don't know. It's not your problem now anyway. I'll figure something out." Arizona turned around once again and headed for the door. "Callie?"
"Yeah?"
"I meant it. The song. If happy is her, then I'm happy for you." Callie stood dumfounded over what just happened as she watched Arizona walk out the door.
After a few minutes Callie eventually ran after Arizona. Arizona was no where in sight, but as long as she hadn't gotten paged then Callie knew exactly where she'd be.
"I swear they keep getting cuter."
Arizona's head snapped up, but she didn't look away from the babies.
"I'm always worried that if someone leaves me alone with them I might steal one." Callie tried humor to lighten the mood, but it didn't work. Callie stepped closer to Arizona. She let their elbows brush as she stood beside her and watched all the babies through the window. Minutes of silence ticked past, neither saying anything.
"How did you know I was here?"
"Because I know you."
"Don't." It was almost a whisper, but Callie still heard.
"Don't what?"
"Don't say things like that. I know you're just being nice and trying to make me feel better, but it's not your job anymore. You made that perfectly clear a long time ago." Arizona turns to leave, but Callie grabs her arm.
"I broke up with Penny." No one says a word, no one moves. Arizona just soaks up the words and Callie waits for a response.
"Why?"
"Because I miss you enough."