Disclaimer: Rurouni Kenshin and Himura Kenshin belong to Nobuhiro Watsuki. I am merely using the main character and theme of the show in a twisted poem of mine. Ketsurui is my original character though.
A/N: Hello all. I don't have much to say so I'll make this quick. This is related to my story "Blood Bonds from the Past" If you have not read it, it will not affect the story if you do go read it. And if you have, to inform you, I am going to revise that story someday, and for now, I'm afraid it's going to have to be put on hold for a while. But I WILL get around to it, don't worry. And it'll be better than before. Ok, well, just some warnings and then the poem.
Warning(s): This poem contains yaoi, the dark subject of underage rape, incest, angst, and mentions of violence. You have been warned…
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Big Brother
I stare ahead into the vortex
Trembling, I gaze ahead, my small frame shaking
A kaleidoscope of shadows
Dance across the walls
Their evil faces sending me smiles
Full of wicked gleams
My young heart begins to pound
The beat battering against my ribcage
A silhouetted form moves across the distance
The shadows stop moving
Blending in with the space
When my mind registered the persons' identity
I was grateful for the wall separating us
For I feared I would lose all control
And scream out until my voice died
If my heart didn't first
Big Brother
I used to trust you, look up to you so much
Worry about you, and now, after only one night
It all crumbled like a dying flower
For what you did, could never be forgiven
Even by the softest god of mercy
You touched me
You hurt me
You allowed your hands to roam in banned areas
Your fingers to caress the skin beneath you
Even soft, they felt like flaming candles
Burning at my flesh, trying to eat away
Your lips followed your hands
And moved to more extreme measures
Big brother, why did you hurt me?
I thought you loved me, you said you cared
You called me your little angel
But you touched me in a devilish way
Fulfilling your hearts dirty wish
To seek forbidden pleasures
You mingled with fate
You twisted my life around
And the worst part is
I couldn't stop you
Because I was too weak
Physically and mentally
You tricked me, and forced me down
Making me cry out in agony
From the pain and shock
Ketsurui…
As I look across the gap
I see your face, full of regret and sorrow
Your silence pleading with me
Begging with me, to forgive you
To convince me you love me
That I'm still your little angel
But one cannot be an angel
When they are too dirty inside
After their innocence is stolen away
In the harshest of ways
You reach for me
Struggling to break the barrier
Hoping for me to come
But I cannot big brother
For you have wounded me too bad
The blood that spilled
Was in the form of teardrops
The scar not suggesting to heal
Oh Ketsurui, how could you do such a thing?
I will never think of you the same again
I bid you farewell big brother
And hope you can make up for your sin
For even though you hurt me
And lied to me
I still do not wish to see you in hell
For I guess blood
No matter how thinned
Is still there
Big brother…
I mouth a farewell
Tears in my eyes, anxious to escape
Still in shock
After you took my trusting heart
Along with my purity
I turn and slowly fade away
Your pain making
A bump of guilt
Settle in my heart
But the rest is relieved
For I have escaped
And you can no longer hurt me
For if you try, I will hold my sword
Ready and poised, to attack
And kill, no matter who it is
In order to defend myself
For I never want to be
In a situation
Like you put me through
You cry out my name
Forcing yourself against the shield
Wanting to come to me
To comfort me
To help me of my pain
But that is no longer possible
So I disappear from the darkness
Into a world of dim light
Where hope is scarce, but there
While you are left behind
I go on, doing what I can
To rid my heart of the sorrow
And improve my strength
In body and mind
If I ever see you again
I will find a way
To make you pay
For what you did to me
Without having to bring up
More pain then there is
So as I leave this world
I have but one last thing
To say to you
Good-bye, Big Brother
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