Lost Thoughts
Summary: Anger is just a form of disguise for your fear, used to hide your insecurities. There's always light at the end of every tunnel, for the Sohmas Tohru is the light at the end. Can she help Yuki when his dark past catches up with him? (Not quite sure about the pairings.)
Chapter 1
The old year ended as a new one approached. This is a time for changes, the best time to make new goals for the year to come, the chance for anybody who wants a new beginning. The sky darkened as cotton like snowflakes fell from the slowly greying clouds. The cold December wind wrapped around any brave soul who dared to set a foot outside of their warm shelter. Of course being the last day of the year, it's the time for the annual cleaning. Today was a busy day for Tohru, and the Sohmas under the same roof. Let's just say, cleaning is not exactly men's strong points. That would be an understatement for Kyo and Yuki, who were wrecking the house more than they were actually cleaning. As for Shigure, he went on an errand to the main house, or as he says, but probably just an excuse used to get away from the cleaning duty going on inside the house. On the second thought, he probably just wanted to get away from his editor. That pitiful girl probably spends most of her hard earned cash on therapy, which at the looks of it aren't exactly helping.
"Sensei!" screamed the poor editor having gotten stuck with Shigure, with tears rolling down her face she ran around the house trying to look for him, ignoring Yuki, Tohru, and Kyo's protests about him not being there, "Sensei!" she screamed one last time before she had finally given up after searching the whole house. Mii kneeled down on the floor of the living room, saying bad things she wanted to happen to Shigure as she played with the patterns on her skirt.
"Mii-san?" asked Tohru, taking a break from her cleaning after 3 long hours, kneeling down beside her, "would you like to have something to drink or something to eat while you are waiting for Shigure-san to get back?"
"Huh?" she seemed taken back from Tohru's generous offer, but after regaining herself from her shock, she answered, "that would be great, thank you."
"Hai," she replied happily in her usual cheerful tone. A bright smile crept upon her face as she got up and left for the kitchen, where she found Kyo drinking from a carton of milk and Yuki sitting at the kitchen table reading a book. She tried her best to enter quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone, but failed to do so as she accidentally knocked a pencil off of the table, (which she was not sure what it was doing there in the first place), catching all of their attention. "Gome-na-sai!" she apologized, bowing furiously, "I didn't mean to disturb you, I'm just here getting a cup of tea for Mii-san. Gome-na-sai!"
"Dai jo bu Honda-san," replied Yuki, gazing softly at her as he lowered his book, "she's still here?"
"Hai," she answered, filling a teapot with steaming hot water, "she's waiting for Shigure-san to get back, so I offered her something to drink."
"Doesn't she ever give up?" commented the agitated Kyo, putting the half empty milk carton back into the fridge, "she's pitiful!"
"I think she already has enough problem in her life without Shigure's constant torture," stated Yuki, sighing as he turned his attention back onto his book, "He still acts like a 5 year old kid."
"I've seen kids that age more mature than him!" snarled Kyo going through the kitchen door.
"I think Shigure-san is an interesting character," replied Tohru thoughtfully, putting a finger under her chin, making Kyo stop on his tracks and Yuki look up from his book, "it would be no fun in life if everybody acted the same way. Think how boring the house would be without Shigure-san or what it would be like with two Yuki-kun or two Kyo-kun in the house."
"I already had enough with one Baka Neko in the house, let alone two," snapped Yuki in a calm fashion.
Kyo glared at him, while hissing with cat ears and a bushy brown tail sticking up, "why would I want two Kouso Nezumi! I don't need two pretty boys in one house! I can hardly put up with one!"
"Who are you calling a pretty boy!" questioned Yuki in a stern tone, glaring at him dangerously, his book lying down on the table completely forgotten, "I'll make you eat your words!"
"You want a fight! I'll give you a fight!" exclaimed Kyo, raising a fist, his eyes flashed darkly filled with hatred.
"Kyo-kun, Yuki-kun," Tohru looked helplessly between the two of them, trying to be the peacemaker once more, "please… I shouldn't have brought it up. Gome-na-sai!"
Both turned their attention back on to her, their argument completely forgotten. "Stop blaming things on your self! If you keep going on like this, you'll turn into Ritsu," stated Kyo, before storming out of the room, like he was going to a few minutes before, leaving the speechless Tohru staring after him.
"It's not your fault Honda-san," explained Yuki, looking up at her once more with a soft expression, "It's our nature to not get along. There isn't anything anybody can do about it."
"Hai," she responded once more, turning her attention back onto the tea she was trying to make, "but it would be great, if Yuki-kun and Kyo-kun can become friends one day. I'll be grateful."
'I'll never know why she cares so much more about others than herself,' Yuki thought to himself as he forced his thoughts back onto the book he was reading.
"Ta-da-ima!" the clear voice of Shigure rang through the entire house; Mii quickly cornered him and dragged him into his study. Fake tears ran down his face, as they disappeared from sight, having the sliding door closed behind.
"About time he got back," commented Kyo, staring at the closed door before heading upstairs.
'He was away awfully long…' Tohru wondered to herself, 'where could have Shigure-san been?'
"He was at the main house," answered Yuki coming up from the back, "probably talking with Hatori. I don't see any other reason of him being there."
Tohru looked shocked, unaware that she was speaking her thoughts out loud until Yuki answered her question. All she managed was a nod to tell Yuki that she had acknowledged his answers.
Another hour quickly passed, as Mii left with the manuscript. It was then; he got to talk to them about his visit for the first time since he got back. "He's ordering all of us back to the main house for the New Years," he finally told them after they've all settled around the table. They gasped at him in shock, upon hearing the news.
"I'm not going back!" Kyo yelled, jumping up from his seat at the table, "he can't force us to go back!"
"He can," Shigure, replied, his eyes half closed, "he has complete rights, you should know that quite well."
"I'm not leaving Honda-san alone for New Years," stated Yuki uneasily, knowing what Shigure saying was quite true, since they own him their lives. They were forced into listening to him and obeying him because of the curse.
"I'll be fine!" Tohru tried to reassure them sensing the uneasiness going around the room.
"I never said Tohru-kun would have to stay here for the New Years," Shigure replied a matter-of-factly, "Kagura or Kisa would be happy to take you in for three days."
Kyo and Yuki opened their mouths to protest but stopped, seeing the happy gloat on Tohru's face. Truthfully, they were worried about her safety afraid that Akito would try to do something funny, but upon seeing her happy face. There was nothing they could've done. They couldn't bring themselves to ruin it for her. Both just sighed in defeat, as they settled back down into their seats.
The walk to the main house was unusually silent, even Tohru couldn't cheer up the unusually quite bunch, and had given up after too many failed attempts. The sky wasn't completely dark yet; a hint of light could still be seen through the white mask of snow. The road was slippery, completely covered with frozen snow. A careless person could easily slip and fall flat onto the ground. The December evening was cold, probably the coldest winter any of them had ever experienced, (they should try to live in Calgary… it was freezing there, but I liked the place all the same. Gotta love snow!) The large gate of the Sohma Complex could be made into view. The place stood as dead and isolated as ever, even haunted, having buried with snow and the lighting from the sunset.
Shigure pushed the gate open as they quickly made their way inside. Tohru gazed up at the main house, it always amazed her how large a house can get. A young girl sitting on the frame of a window caught her attention. She couldn't clearly make out her face, probably due to the fact that she had her knees up supporting the sketchbook she was drawing on or the fact that she had her face turned toward the direction of the sunset. Either way, all she managed to make was light coloured skin and dark coloured hair reflection the red lights coming from the down falling sun.
"If you want somebody's attention Tohru-kun, you're suppose to call their name," mocked Shigure, looking up at the girl, following the direction of her gaze, "Yo! Ami-chan! Hello!" he waved his hand in a teasing manner at the girl, as she gazed down. "Shigure-san," she said in a quite soft tone before giving him a welcome smile.
"You better get away from the window soon or you'll catch a cold!" he called out to the younger girl, "and be careful, it's slippery. The cold weather froze the outer frames of the window. We wouldn't want you to fall off twice, would we?" he questioned her teasingly, as she smiled in return.
"You better get inside, the party's going to start soon. Mostly everybody's already there," her voice could only be made barely louder than a whisper, as Shigure nodded in acknowledgement.
"We'll see you later," he waved once more before opening the door leading them into the main house.
Summary: Anger is just a form of disguise for your fear, used to hide your insecurities. There's always light at the end of every tunnel, for the Sohmas Tohru is the light at the end. Can she help Yuki when his dark past catches up with him? (Not quite sure about the pairings.)
Chapter 1
The old year ended as a new one approached. This is a time for changes, the best time to make new goals for the year to come, the chance for anybody who wants a new beginning. The sky darkened as cotton like snowflakes fell from the slowly greying clouds. The cold December wind wrapped around any brave soul who dared to set a foot outside of their warm shelter. Of course being the last day of the year, it's the time for the annual cleaning. Today was a busy day for Tohru, and the Sohmas under the same roof. Let's just say, cleaning is not exactly men's strong points. That would be an understatement for Kyo and Yuki, who were wrecking the house more than they were actually cleaning. As for Shigure, he went on an errand to the main house, or as he says, but probably just an excuse used to get away from the cleaning duty going on inside the house. On the second thought, he probably just wanted to get away from his editor. That pitiful girl probably spends most of her hard earned cash on therapy, which at the looks of it aren't exactly helping.
"Sensei!" screamed the poor editor having gotten stuck with Shigure, with tears rolling down her face she ran around the house trying to look for him, ignoring Yuki, Tohru, and Kyo's protests about him not being there, "Sensei!" she screamed one last time before she had finally given up after searching the whole house. Mii kneeled down on the floor of the living room, saying bad things she wanted to happen to Shigure as she played with the patterns on her skirt.
"Mii-san?" asked Tohru, taking a break from her cleaning after 3 long hours, kneeling down beside her, "would you like to have something to drink or something to eat while you are waiting for Shigure-san to get back?"
"Huh?" she seemed taken back from Tohru's generous offer, but after regaining herself from her shock, she answered, "that would be great, thank you."
"Hai," she replied happily in her usual cheerful tone. A bright smile crept upon her face as she got up and left for the kitchen, where she found Kyo drinking from a carton of milk and Yuki sitting at the kitchen table reading a book. She tried her best to enter quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone, but failed to do so as she accidentally knocked a pencil off of the table, (which she was not sure what it was doing there in the first place), catching all of their attention. "Gome-na-sai!" she apologized, bowing furiously, "I didn't mean to disturb you, I'm just here getting a cup of tea for Mii-san. Gome-na-sai!"
"Dai jo bu Honda-san," replied Yuki, gazing softly at her as he lowered his book, "she's still here?"
"Hai," she answered, filling a teapot with steaming hot water, "she's waiting for Shigure-san to get back, so I offered her something to drink."
"Doesn't she ever give up?" commented the agitated Kyo, putting the half empty milk carton back into the fridge, "she's pitiful!"
"I think she already has enough problem in her life without Shigure's constant torture," stated Yuki, sighing as he turned his attention back onto his book, "He still acts like a 5 year old kid."
"I've seen kids that age more mature than him!" snarled Kyo going through the kitchen door.
"I think Shigure-san is an interesting character," replied Tohru thoughtfully, putting a finger under her chin, making Kyo stop on his tracks and Yuki look up from his book, "it would be no fun in life if everybody acted the same way. Think how boring the house would be without Shigure-san or what it would be like with two Yuki-kun or two Kyo-kun in the house."
"I already had enough with one Baka Neko in the house, let alone two," snapped Yuki in a calm fashion.
Kyo glared at him, while hissing with cat ears and a bushy brown tail sticking up, "why would I want two Kouso Nezumi! I don't need two pretty boys in one house! I can hardly put up with one!"
"Who are you calling a pretty boy!" questioned Yuki in a stern tone, glaring at him dangerously, his book lying down on the table completely forgotten, "I'll make you eat your words!"
"You want a fight! I'll give you a fight!" exclaimed Kyo, raising a fist, his eyes flashed darkly filled with hatred.
"Kyo-kun, Yuki-kun," Tohru looked helplessly between the two of them, trying to be the peacemaker once more, "please… I shouldn't have brought it up. Gome-na-sai!"
Both turned their attention back on to her, their argument completely forgotten. "Stop blaming things on your self! If you keep going on like this, you'll turn into Ritsu," stated Kyo, before storming out of the room, like he was going to a few minutes before, leaving the speechless Tohru staring after him.
"It's not your fault Honda-san," explained Yuki, looking up at her once more with a soft expression, "It's our nature to not get along. There isn't anything anybody can do about it."
"Hai," she responded once more, turning her attention back onto the tea she was trying to make, "but it would be great, if Yuki-kun and Kyo-kun can become friends one day. I'll be grateful."
'I'll never know why she cares so much more about others than herself,' Yuki thought to himself as he forced his thoughts back onto the book he was reading.
"Ta-da-ima!" the clear voice of Shigure rang through the entire house; Mii quickly cornered him and dragged him into his study. Fake tears ran down his face, as they disappeared from sight, having the sliding door closed behind.
"About time he got back," commented Kyo, staring at the closed door before heading upstairs.
'He was away awfully long…' Tohru wondered to herself, 'where could have Shigure-san been?'
"He was at the main house," answered Yuki coming up from the back, "probably talking with Hatori. I don't see any other reason of him being there."
Tohru looked shocked, unaware that she was speaking her thoughts out loud until Yuki answered her question. All she managed was a nod to tell Yuki that she had acknowledged his answers.
Another hour quickly passed, as Mii left with the manuscript. It was then; he got to talk to them about his visit for the first time since he got back. "He's ordering all of us back to the main house for the New Years," he finally told them after they've all settled around the table. They gasped at him in shock, upon hearing the news.
"I'm not going back!" Kyo yelled, jumping up from his seat at the table, "he can't force us to go back!"
"He can," Shigure, replied, his eyes half closed, "he has complete rights, you should know that quite well."
"I'm not leaving Honda-san alone for New Years," stated Yuki uneasily, knowing what Shigure saying was quite true, since they own him their lives. They were forced into listening to him and obeying him because of the curse.
"I'll be fine!" Tohru tried to reassure them sensing the uneasiness going around the room.
"I never said Tohru-kun would have to stay here for the New Years," Shigure replied a matter-of-factly, "Kagura or Kisa would be happy to take you in for three days."
Kyo and Yuki opened their mouths to protest but stopped, seeing the happy gloat on Tohru's face. Truthfully, they were worried about her safety afraid that Akito would try to do something funny, but upon seeing her happy face. There was nothing they could've done. They couldn't bring themselves to ruin it for her. Both just sighed in defeat, as they settled back down into their seats.
The walk to the main house was unusually silent, even Tohru couldn't cheer up the unusually quite bunch, and had given up after too many failed attempts. The sky wasn't completely dark yet; a hint of light could still be seen through the white mask of snow. The road was slippery, completely covered with frozen snow. A careless person could easily slip and fall flat onto the ground. The December evening was cold, probably the coldest winter any of them had ever experienced, (they should try to live in Calgary… it was freezing there, but I liked the place all the same. Gotta love snow!) The large gate of the Sohma Complex could be made into view. The place stood as dead and isolated as ever, even haunted, having buried with snow and the lighting from the sunset.
Shigure pushed the gate open as they quickly made their way inside. Tohru gazed up at the main house, it always amazed her how large a house can get. A young girl sitting on the frame of a window caught her attention. She couldn't clearly make out her face, probably due to the fact that she had her knees up supporting the sketchbook she was drawing on or the fact that she had her face turned toward the direction of the sunset. Either way, all she managed to make was light coloured skin and dark coloured hair reflection the red lights coming from the down falling sun.
"If you want somebody's attention Tohru-kun, you're suppose to call their name," mocked Shigure, looking up at the girl, following the direction of her gaze, "Yo! Ami-chan! Hello!" he waved his hand in a teasing manner at the girl, as she gazed down. "Shigure-san," she said in a quite soft tone before giving him a welcome smile.
"You better get away from the window soon or you'll catch a cold!" he called out to the younger girl, "and be careful, it's slippery. The cold weather froze the outer frames of the window. We wouldn't want you to fall off twice, would we?" he questioned her teasingly, as she smiled in return.
"You better get inside, the party's going to start soon. Mostly everybody's already there," her voice could only be made barely louder than a whisper, as Shigure nodded in acknowledgement.
"We'll see you later," he waved once more before opening the door leading them into the main house.