Chapter 1

A letter to Luke from Annabeth

My dear friend Luke,

You have officially broken me. You stole my heart and ripped it in half and then you watched as it shattered into a million pieces. When Thalia told me she liked you I thought nothing of it. She told me it was just a small crush and I was happy for her, I mean, what kind of best friend would I be if I wasn't happy for her? I mean she hadn't liked someone in a year. So I supported the small crush even though it was on my boyfriend. Yes that's you Luke. I must have been pretty stupid at the time, because I'm the one that fed the fire that was sparked between you two, I encouraged it. When you told me you liked Thalia instead of me, it broke me, that's when my heart was ripped into two. I felt so oblivious, of course I noticed the little bits of flirting that you guys shared but I brushed it off. Then you told me that and it ruined me. Was I really that stupid? Was I really in such a love sick daze that I couldn't see it coming?

When you broke up with me is when the shattering began. You left me for Thalia, and that small crush you had turned into a nine on a scale of one to ten. From a zero to a three to a nine in less than a week. I felt betrayed and oblivious. I should have seen it coming. I mean you flirted with her every time you thought I wasn't looking, every time my back was turned. Once we were broken up I tried to stay your friend, I really did, but you constantly talked about Thalia while we texted... and more pieces broke off of my shattering heart.

Then we got back together and it seemed as if everything was going to turn out fine. We laughed, and flirted with each other, and hugged, and kissed, and had an amazing time together. I guess I was just too happy to see the truth that was hiding behind your eyes. Then you told me a week later that it was all out of pity, that you didn't really like me. Then my heart completely shattered.

I felt terrible for myself. I kept wondering what I did wrong and what I could do to win you back. But without meaning to, Thalia already had you wrapped around her pale finger.

When you asked Thalia to be your girlfriend my shattered heart was burning, the little people inside my chest tried desperately to put of the fire made up of sorrow and rage. But the only thing that could put out that fire was us. Us being together again and it not being out of pity or you using me to get over Thalia.

But oh my darling Luke, no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get over you. I still love you and wish you would love me back, but I know that now you are in love with my best friend, Thalia Grace.

As much as I wish I could be mad at my best friend, I just can't. I cannot blame her for my own stupidity and obliviousness. She can't control her feelings. And I can't seem to decode mine or yours with logic. Because one of the few things in life that cannot be decoded by using logic, is feelings.

For a daughter of Athena, I'm not all that smart. I know it isn't intelligent to still like you but I can't help it. I feel very confused about my feelings for you. Whenever I think about what you did to me I seriously want to punch you in the face and stab you with my dagger and watch you slowly bleed out. But then I think about the old you, not the douche you've turned into and I fall in love with you all over again. When I see you my heart does a little dance and when you look at me I get butterflies. But all that stops when I remember that you don't love me anymore, and that you are no longer MY LUKE. But I still have hope that MY Luke, the old one that I fell in love with is trapped inside your body, and desperately trying to escape.

I wish I could tell you this all myself, but I can't. I can't express my feelings aloud. But I will never get over you. Its probably silly, writing this to you but, it helps ease the pain. And my dear Luke, I hope you realized how stupid you were to let me go. Because as much as I want to I'm never going back.

-Annabeth-