I really don't no why I came up with a story like this. I guess I'm just tired of reading stories where the characters are sooooo perfect.I know allot of people feel the same . I'm just writing this to see where it does.
This stories is rated M, but seeing as ffn doesn't want sex scene on their site, I think I'm just going to take the scenes out and put the whole chapter on another site. But none will be coming up until later so we will just go with this for now hmmm.
This chapter is beta'd by Shiranui-Sensei. (B/N: If you guys notice any things I may have missed, please let me know. ^.^)
1+1=A time to forget
It wasn't until he left the hospital that everything seemed to become reality. He wasn't blind to what had happened, but being in the hospital staring at the wooden walls that dripped profusely made it seem unreal. He wanted it to be fake. At least then he would understand and live on, live until he could live no more.
But deep down he knew it wasn't fake, the pain he felt on his lower thighs made it all too real. The pain is what finally made it real after lying there so long. Why or even how he was saved in this broken old wooden hospital was more than he would understand, not that he wanted to anymore.
He finally understood not wanting to wake up in the morning felt. He didn't want to open his eyes and be in the hospital, this hospital in South America half dead and broken.
"Mr. Uzumaki, sir can you hear me." He couldn't, not really. The blast they said took some of his hearing with it, mostly in the left. He was lucky his ear wasn't blown clean off the doctor had said.
"Doc, you know your going to have to speak louder, and I told you to call me Naruto."
"Mr. Uz-I mean Naruto, there's a helicopter on its way to pick you up." Naruto sighed, he didn't know why they even bothered.
He knew a lot of people would call him a cowered thinking like this, that he should be grateful he's still alive. That he made it past the worst part and should keep on living. He knew they would be right. He also knew if it wasn't him he would say the same thing. But it was him, and he didn't care anymore, he didn't want to live like this. If that made him a cowered, he didn't care. He was fine with that.
"I know your feeling down right now, but you will get past this." The doctor always said it before he left, like the broken record he was. Naruto was tired of it and tired of the optimistic doctor.
Naruto heard the helicopter on its approach, he face stayed blank as they got him ready to leave. He didn't want to leave, he wanted to stay and die here like his team did.
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This hospital was no different, but it was sickeningly clean and this time he did have his own room, he didn't have to share like the last. But the doctor had the same optimism like the last, and that pissed Naruto off the most.
The pain was gone at least, this would be the perfect time to pretend this wasn't real. But he knew he couldn't do that, he knew the real truth to long to go back to pretending, and he had to finally admit it.
He, Naruto Uzumaki, lieutenant colonel in the black ops, the soldier that once held his head high after finally moving up in the food chain, that went though five years of specialized training to be the best of the best was now Naruto Uzumaki, a legless cripple, with over three hundred stitches all over his body, with half his hearing and ear gone.
"I worked so damn hard!" Naruto whispered harshly, holding back the angry tears that he's been holding back since this happened, it didn't matter how, he lived, and his team didn't. And he knew for the rest of his life he would wish he hadn't.
Naruto knew he would be out of the hospital today, and going back to living in his old ratty apartment, and had to now live off of the government. This wasn't a way to live; this wasn't the way he wanted to live.
They had a wheel chair waiting as Naruto looked around the room one more time. They had offered to call him a cab, but Naruto wouldn't hear it. Everyone might as well see now that he's a useless cripple there was no point in hiding it.
He had two options, the train or the bus...
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He was never the type to skip a class, but considering that the class was lunch, and he got to go home after he might as well. The day had been tiresome thanks to the pink leech Sakura. All in all she wasn't a bad or a mean person by any means. He just wished she would leave him alone and get the hint. He wasn't interested in talking, looking, hearing, or dating her.
"Sasukeee-kunn." Sasuke sighed as he started to walk faster. He hear the clicking of her heels gaining on him, knowing that she would find him any second Sasuke took off in a run.
He ran until the train station came into view. Thinking he finally made it Sasuke slowed down. He walked to the booth out of breath, just as he paid his money Sakura came running down the stairs.
"Dammit." Sasuke cursed running to whichever train was at the station. He quickly walked inside the train and took a seat.
"Sasuke-kun wait!" Sasuke snapped his head around seeing Sakura still running toward him. He had never seen someone so persistent. Things must have been looking up, because just before Sakura got to the train the doors closed and the train took off.
Sighing in relief Sasuke thanked his lucky stars. Finally catching his breath Sasuke looked around, the train was pretty empty except and mother and child, two young girls and a old man. Sasuke sat on the train looking out the window; he had a lot of stops to go before it would be his.
He didn't like taking the train, but it was better than asking Itachi to pick him up. He couldn't wait for his birthday to come to finally get his own car. Not having to ask for a ride from Itachi would be a big plus.
"Mommy where that man's legs?" The little girl across from him asked.
"Hush child. That was rude." The mother scolded moving the child to sit facing her.
Sasuke pulled his eyes from the window to see what the little girl was talking about. At the end of the train cart sat and man in a wheel chair, with sure enough, no legs. Having never seen a person without legs before, Sasuke couldn't help but stare.
The man had a long coat on that covered most of him, and it hung over the chair. If it wasn't for the fact that it didn't reach all the way down, Sasuke wouldn't have noticed the empty space where the man legs should be.
He most have gotten on at the last stop. Sasuke thought watching the man. The man didn't move much and he could hardly see the man's face, which was being covered by his wild blonde hair. The man finally picked up his head and looked Sasuke in the eye.
Sasuke pulled his eyes away feeling bad about staring. But before he did pull his eyes away, he saw the man's empty blue eyes the held death. He never saw eyes that blue and so empty before, he really felt bad for the guy, but Sasuke knew better than to pity people.
Sasuke stood for his stop seeing it coming up, when the train screeched to a stop Sasuke waited for the doors to open. Walking out of the train Sasuke noticed the man was wheeling himself out. Sasuke stopped and watched the man head for the door, the man tried opening it but couldn't. Sasuke hurried past the man going out the next door. He walked over to the door the man was having a problem with a opened it for him.
The man stopped and stared at Sasuke for a moment. The man whispered a quite 'thank you' before wheeling himself out the open door. Sasuke watched as the man continued rolling down the block, then followed behind. His house was the same way; he wasn't a stalker by any means.
It didn't take long for the man to roll to a stop in front of a run down apartment building. The man just stopped and Sasuke couldn't understand why. Until he noticed to that there was no ramp for the building.
Sasuke wasn't sure if he should ask the man if he needed or wanted help. Sasuke knew a lot of people didn't like the help of others; he himself is the same why. Putting that aside Sasuke knew he should at least ask.
"Umm, do you need help?" Sasuke finally asked walking up to the man.
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Naruto sighed, he just wanted to get into his apartment and lock himself away. But it seemed he couldn't even have that, he didn't understand how he had forgotten the building didn't have a ramp. Now stuck outside, Naruto sighed again and looked away from the building.
"Umm, do you need help?" Naruto's head snapped up in surprise, he turned to see who was talking to him.
It was the same boy from the train, the one he caught staring at him. Naruto knew he couldn't be mean to the boy after he went out his way to opening the door for him. He may have been a bitter suicidal person but he couldn't bring himself to be mean to people who did nothing to deserve it.
"I don't believe you can, there's no ramp and I can't be carried." The boy walked over and stood next to him, then grabbed the back of the wheel chair. Naruto sat and watched as he was pulled to the steps and spun around.
Naruto watched in amazement as the boy started pulling him up the stairs. It didn't take long to reach the top, the boy was very much tired as he let go. He moved to sit on the top step to catch his breath.
"Thanks um-." Naruto started.
"Sasuke." Sasuke finished for him.
"Yeah thanks Sasuke."
Naruto didn't want to bother Sasuke anymore then he already did, as he wheeled himself to the building, he was surprised to see Sasuke stand and follow him inside. They had allowed him to change apartments from the fifth floor to the first which he was grateful for.
Making his way to the door, he pulled out his keys from his coat. The door opened with a load screech that made Naruto flinch. The apartment was small and boxes littered the floor. He sighed for the hundred time day, wheeling himself further into his apartment.
The boy, Sasuke, walked in and stood next to him. He watched as Sasuke looked around the small ratty apartment before settling his eyes on him.
"Would you like me to help you unpack?" Naruto brought he scarred hand to his face, looking at all the boxes tiredly.
"I'm only unpacking my bed; I don't care about the rest of the stuff." Sasuke nodded, the bed was lying against the far wall. It was small and old. Sasuke also noticed that there was no box spring for the bed. That would mean that Naruto was going to lay on it on the floor.
Sasuke pulled the bed from the wall resting it on the floor. He then found a thin orange sheet on one of the boxes, using it to cover the bed with. He heard Naruto wheel himself over, then watched as Naruto pulled himself out of the chair and rolled onto the bed. Naruto didn't bother taking off his clothes or even his jacket.
"Thanks." Sasuke also noticed Naruto voice was raspy and tired, as if he had yelled his voice out.
"I know you're not going to want to unpack, so I'll come over sometime this week and help you." Sasuke pulled his backpack off his shoulder and opened it. He pulled out a piece of paper and a pen. He wrote down his number leaving the paper next to Naruto's bed.
"You know - just in case you need something or whatever." Sasuke said picking up his bag and shouldering it again. Sasuke made his was to the door, stepping out of the small apartment confused by his own actions today. As he was closing the door he looked back at Naruto who had he eyes closed.
Sasuke didn't no what made him do those things, but he didn't regret doing it. Sasuke pulled the door close and it locked.
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Sasuke sat at lunch with the only people in the school he could stand to be around; Neji, Lee, Shino, and Shikamaru. They didn't say much as they ate, most times they didn't. Sasuke picked at his food not being about to bring himself to eat it, Sasuke's mind started to wonder to Naruto. Did he eat today? Was he alright? Sasuke shook his head, pushing those thoughts away. He put his lunch back in the bag; he would give it to Naruto if he didn't eat when he went see him that day.
"Sasuke? Did you hear what I said?" Sasuke looked up to see Neji's lavender eyes looking down at him.
"No, what did you say?" Neji shook his head but continued.
"We were planning on going to hang out after school." Neji said again.
"Sorry I have plans I have to keep." Neji looked sadly at him. Sasuke knew Neji had a thing for him, he just didn't feel the same way. He made sure Neji knew so he wouldn't get his hopes up, it wouldn't be fair to his feelings.
"I see." Neji said going back to his food.
Sasuke thought things were getting awkward enough, so he picked up his stuff and wished his friends a good day before leaving. He'd been looking forward to seeing Naruto all week. He still didn't have his own car yet but since Itachi was going to be gone for a few weeks and didn't need his car, Sasuke took it upon himself to borrow it.
Unlike the train the car ride only took fifteen minutes to pull up to Naruto's building. Sasuke stood outside of the building pressing the small round buzzer. There was no answer. Sasuke wasn't sure if it was because Naruto wasn't there, or just not answering. Tsking Sasuke waited until someone who was coming out opened the door. Sasuke knew he was once again stuck. Naruto's door was locked so there would be no way to get in.
Looking closer Sasuke saw that the door wasn't in fact fully closed, so it couldn't be that the door was locked. Opening the door Sasuke made his way in, The apartment was dark as he made his way inside, he found Naruto to the same spot he left him in three days go. Moving close Sasuke caught the strong smell of urine.
Did he not move the whole time? Sasuke thought finally reaching Naruto. The jacket was off, but he still had one a thin white shirt and pants that were rolled up were his legs would be. Sasuke could see the bed was wet, shaking his head Sasuke looked where Naruto lay facing the wall. Sasuke looked around the small apartment for the things he would need. Wanting to become a doctor really helped him out right about now, and he had a lot of practice when Itachi used to get really sick to the point of being bedridden.
He found another sheet in one of the unopened boxes, next was a big blue and white t-shirt as well as grey pants. Making his was around the apartment to find the bathroom. Sasuke found it at the end of the house, at first thinking it was a closet. He came back around to Naruto, who hadn't moved.
"Look, Naruto you will get a nasty bed sore if you don't get clean." Naruto made no attempt to move or to respond to what Sasuke had said.
Realizing that Naruto wasn't going to do it himself, Sasuke had to do the only the only thing that came to mind. Rolling Naruto over to his front, Sasuke was surprised to find that Naruto did not resist, just lay there lifeless. Sasuke started to remove his shirt; it was really hard to do with Naruto's dead weight. Sasuke was surprised by the sheer number to scars on Naruto's body. Sasuke saw that Naruto's eyes were half closed but still watching him.
Then was the pants, Sasuke wasn't sure if he would. But that was the main part of his body that was wet with urine. Sasuke unbuttoned the wet pants, and then pulled them down along with the underwear in one shot. Sasuke tried not to look at Naruto's unclothed body, but he couldn't help but see Naruto's flaccid uncut manhood. If he thought the upper part of Naruto body was the only place that had most of the scars he would dead wrong. He legs had bad tissue damage and some of the bond was gone.
He used the water he got from the bathroom and put the dirty clothes into it. He wiped down Naruto's body while trying not to stare. Not wasting time Sasuke clothed Naruto and replaced his sheets.
"Why?" Asked Naruto, looking away from Sasuke.
"I don't know. I just thought it was the right thing to do." Was the reply. Naruto nodded still looking away.
"Oh and I brought you some food. I wasn't sure if you ate." Sasuke looked for his discarded backpack, pulling out a sandwich and handing it to Naruto.
"Why?" Naruto asked again, eating the sandwich slowly.
"I don't know." Sasuke whispered.
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Well that's the first chapter and I hoped you liked it.R&R