Chapter 1
It had turned out that my Dad was completely and totally LOADED and I proceeded to have cash to burn if I wanted to. I didn't want to take advantage of my Dad, though, even though he had most certainly taken advantage of me when I was young.
We had a large house in the country and we had horses. Horses! I got to ride my horse, Ixion (yes, I love FFX) all over the rice fields my father owned.
He hired a psychiatrist to help me with the whole suicide thing and we became a real family. As soon as I finish my schooling and go to college, he says he'll make me vice president of his company, Kinzoku Incorperated.
Of course, all of this meant a drastic change to my wardrobe. My cotton t-shirts and baggy jeans were mostly replaced with dress shirts, blazers, and slacks. I had considered getting my ear pierced, but all of the other Weiss guys had had their ears pierced and I wanted to do something unique. You'll have to wait to find out what I did! ^_~
I've been e-mailing Omi and I've been talking to Yoji on the phone, but it seems as though Aya's avoiding me or something.
I haven't seen any of them in about a year. I've finally finished my high school education though, so I get a chance to see the soon. I was planning a surprise visit this weekend if Dad'll let me.
I love my Dad so much. He's so different than what I remember. There's not a drop of alcohol in our entire house, he goes to sleep and wakes up at decent hours, and he's never stressed out any more. It seems as though all he wants to do is be with me. We visit Mom's grave together every Sunday. I can finally go there without crying, but it took me a while.
I actually feel like a real human-being now. I'm not lost or alone or dirty. I don't hate myself any more. Dr. Hasaka, my psychiatrist said that for someone to love me, I must first love myself. As lame as that sounds, I think it's true and that's why I want to see Aya. Now that actually believe I'm worth more than the cost of my shoelaces (which are actually pretty expensive), maybe he will, too.
It's pathetic, I know, but even after the way he treated me and the way he's avoiding me, I still love him.
Maybe now that I'm not a total head-case, he can love me back.
It had turned out that my Dad was completely and totally LOADED and I proceeded to have cash to burn if I wanted to. I didn't want to take advantage of my Dad, though, even though he had most certainly taken advantage of me when I was young.
We had a large house in the country and we had horses. Horses! I got to ride my horse, Ixion (yes, I love FFX) all over the rice fields my father owned.
He hired a psychiatrist to help me with the whole suicide thing and we became a real family. As soon as I finish my schooling and go to college, he says he'll make me vice president of his company, Kinzoku Incorperated.
Of course, all of this meant a drastic change to my wardrobe. My cotton t-shirts and baggy jeans were mostly replaced with dress shirts, blazers, and slacks. I had considered getting my ear pierced, but all of the other Weiss guys had had their ears pierced and I wanted to do something unique. You'll have to wait to find out what I did! ^_~
I've been e-mailing Omi and I've been talking to Yoji on the phone, but it seems as though Aya's avoiding me or something.
I haven't seen any of them in about a year. I've finally finished my high school education though, so I get a chance to see the soon. I was planning a surprise visit this weekend if Dad'll let me.
I love my Dad so much. He's so different than what I remember. There's not a drop of alcohol in our entire house, he goes to sleep and wakes up at decent hours, and he's never stressed out any more. It seems as though all he wants to do is be with me. We visit Mom's grave together every Sunday. I can finally go there without crying, but it took me a while.
I actually feel like a real human-being now. I'm not lost or alone or dirty. I don't hate myself any more. Dr. Hasaka, my psychiatrist said that for someone to love me, I must first love myself. As lame as that sounds, I think it's true and that's why I want to see Aya. Now that actually believe I'm worth more than the cost of my shoelaces (which are actually pretty expensive), maybe he will, too.
It's pathetic, I know, but even after the way he treated me and the way he's avoiding me, I still love him.
Maybe now that I'm not a total head-case, he can love me back.