White On White Trilogy: Jen's Story Chapter 1, a jag fanfic

TITLE: White On White Trilogy: Jen's Story

AUTHOR: Vid Z.

PAIRING: Harm/Jen

TIMELINE: FWAFS and the events after it going differently.

WARNINGS: pure fluff, some may not like Mac, but she's being fully IN-CHARACTER according to everything she'd done on the show.

DISCLAIMER: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc of the TV show JAG are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author of this fic. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.

AUTHOR'S NOTES: the last part of White On White Trilogy, this time with Jen. As some may already know, the White On White Trilogy is based on how good Harm and Meg/Jen/Loren's uniforms would look hanging in the closet together, if Harm was married to one of these women. Hence White On White Trilogy... Harm's summer whites next to his wife's. Let's face it, Mac's khakis would clash terribly with Harm's whites, which is just symbolic for how much her personality clashes with Harm's. Brrrr. The reason why I am writing Harm with three different wives is because I love all three pairings and just couldn't decided on which woman to have as Harm's wife so I decided to write a different version for each of these ladies.

SUMMARY: Jen's version of the trilogy. A Harm/Jen twist on FWAFS and the coin toss.

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Jen was hurrying to get ready, she had a doctor's appointment in just over and hour.

She opened the door and quickly scanned through the contents of the closet, when she came upon something from her past.

She fingered gently the rough material, admiring how the white color shone brightly in the light.

Tender fingers caressed the chevrons on the sleeves of the small jacket, then slipped over a small divide of air to the larger one.

The sight of her old summer whites hanging together with Harm's current summer whites filled her with an emotion she couldn't describe. Literally. There were just so many strange, different emotions swirling through her that she just couldn't pinpoint them.

A sad smile tilted her lips as she thought about the last 2 and a half difficult years.

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Falling, however temporarily, under the spell of the slimy LT was one of the things Jen most regretted in her life.

She didn't know why it happened, but it was probably just a subconscious thing trying to move on from the man she'd been in love with for the past 3,5 years, a man she knew she could never have.

That was also the reason why she'd asked LtCol Mackenzie if she could go with her to San Diego.

Thankfully she had overheard the LT's disrespectful words to the LtCol and that worked like a bucket of ice-cold water in the face, waking her up to finally see the man for who he was. A womanizing, disrespectful, manipulative little worm of a person. A disgrace to the uniform, to the gender and to the species.

It had made her think her desire to go to San Diego through thoroughly and she'd finally realized why she'd done it and was ashamed of herself.

Telling the LtCol that she'd changed her mind wasn't that hard, though later on as she thought about it, it had occured to her that the LtCol believed she'd changed her mind because Vukovich (Jen had spent one tour just off the Croatian coast and knew that the correct and original pronounciation of the LT's last name was 'ch' and not 'k'. It's a Serbian last name and was probably changed by the immigration officers who were unfamiliar with the Slavic alphabet and added letters and sounds) would not be going to SD. But Jen didn't care what Mac believed were her motivations.

What was hard, a lot harder than anything imaginable, was to face the man she knew she'd hurt by asking another and ask him what was in her heart, if she could go with him to London.

When she'd opened the topic she'd caught Harm off-guard and thus he couldn't prevent his emotions showing on his face.

She could clearly read hurt, betrayal, puzzlement and wariness in his expressive eyes and it made her hang her head in sorrow, knowing she was the cause for it.

They'd built a good, solid friendship ever since they'd become neighbors, that year and a half ago, became friends who confided into each other and were there for each other unconditionally.

She'd even been sure that they'd been becoming more than friends, their exchanges becoming more intimate, not physically, but in the way they talked to each other, leaning closer together, speaking with softer, lower voices.

Then Pia showed up and the true strength of their bond was tested and exposed. Harm had helped Jen through every step of that difficult time, standing by her side, supporting her and believing in her, just as she'd done while he was Mattie's guardian. They pulled through together, though they hadn't managed to apprehend Pia.

That true closeness, that had been revealed, had thrown Jen into panic and the next few months were divided between things being as they'd been and Jen distancing herself from Harm. Which hadn't been hard, since he'd been absent a lot of the time, conducting investigations and using his talent and training by conducting Combat Air Patrols.

And then Mattie's plane went down and things were back to how they'd been. They immediately stood by each other, waiting for the young girl to wake up, supporting each other through their times of fear and grief. She was the one who comforted him, holding him in his arms as he cried silent tears of frustration, fear and apprehension. She was the one who held his hand when his former best friend hung up on him after she'd commented on him sounding funny just because she'd wanted to get back to the party and LT Vukovich.

Then Mattie came to and the whole situation went out of control again.

Just days later Harm was promoted and transferred to London and she'd hurt him by chosing Mac over him.

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