So, this is basically if Bella chose not to forgive Edward after what he did in New Moon. Starts in Bella's room after Italy...

Italics part is owned by Stephanie Meyer, as is Twilight.

I opened my eyes again-and Edward was still there, his perfect face just inches away from mine.

"Did I frighten you?" His low voice was anxious.

"Um..." was all I could muster up.

"Bella, I think we'd both find it appropriate to talk... About our... Situation?"

"Well, I..." I sighed, then spoke so quietly I barley heard it, though I knew he did, "I don't think there's anything to talk about."

"So, everything is alright? We're alright?"

"I, um..."

"Bella, I just want you to forgive me. I didn't mean a word I said in the forest! It was all lies! Of course I love you, I-"

"Edward! Please! Let me talk!" I snapped.

"But Bella, I-"

"No, Edward. I need to say this." I cleared my throat as if I were to begin a speech in school. I even said, "Okay... Well..." I sighed. "Edward, you can't understand how much you hurt me. You never will, and-"

"No, Bella, I DO understand, and I'm so so so sorry. Everything you felt, I-"

"Edward-"

"I felt it too, and I-"

"Edward!"

"I will never forgive myself, and-"

"EDWARD, I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF FOR GOD'S SAKE!"

He stopped talking, and his eyes widened. Only then did his mouth close, "I know that..." he mumbled.

"I know you know the facts, second hand from Alice, but I need to tell you everything from my point of view, and I need you to not interrupt. Can you do that for me?"

He nodded.

"For the longest time after you left, I was so so so so deeply depressed. All I did was stare at the wall most of the time. But then, a few months after you left, I started hanging around Jacob Black. He... He healed me, Edward. He really did. But then, Victoria came into town. And, well... Jacob's kind of... a werewolf... and-" Edward opened his mouth to object, "No. No interruptions. You promised. Anyway, Jake's a werewolf and he and his pack have been hunting Victoria because she's after me, because you killed James- a mate for a mate. So they've been hunting her, so that meant less time around Jake, and every second I wasn't with him, the wound you left in my heart has been slowly peeling open. And one day... One day I just couldn't take it anymore! Every time I went against your wishes and did something dangerous, I... I saw you. Heard you. Remembered what you were like when you were mad. So, I decided I just couldn't do it anymore. I was putting everyone else's lives on the line for my own. And really? What's one broken soul worth to a bunch of good, kind-hearted souls? I drove up to La Push, and stopped at the cliffs. I walked to the highest one and... And I just jumped. It was so exhilarating, the fall. But when my skin hit the ice cold water, it felt like a thousand knives going through me at once. And the current... The current was so strong... It was turning into a hurricane, as I later found out. Just as I was about to let the oblivion take me, I saw you. I mean I REALLY saw you. Every little detail of your face. That's when I knew I was going to die. And I passed out. I awoke on the beach. Jake was giving me CPR. He had saved me. And for the first time in a long time, I felt safe, warm, happy, and just... good. I-... I felt loved, Edward." I sighed and took a breath. "I guess what I'm trying to tell you is, as much as I'll always love you in a way, I could never forgive you for what you did. If Jacob hadn't been there to save me, your little attempt at my well-being could've- WOULD'VE- killed me. And... And I can't forgive you for that... I'm sorry."

"But Bella... Bella, I-... I love you." He looked like if he could've cried, he would've been.

"I know, but Edward... I did what you wanted me to. I moved on. And... And I love Jacob now. I really do... At least, I know I can. it may take some time, but I know that soon enough, my heart will belong to Jacob. I guess what I'm trying to say is... I don't love you anymore, Edward... I don't want you."

Sorry it's like, hella short. lol I just wanted to get what was going on down. the following chapters will be better. I promise.

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Plz no Team Edward flames. this is a bella/jacob story.