Ode to Bella
How I wish you knew; how everything you do makes me feel. I wish you knew that you're now the reason for my existence. Your beautiful smile amazes me; you're the shiny glint in your eyes captures me from the moment I look into them
How I wish you knew; that my wife can never please me anymore. That I imagine holding you wherever I go; that I imagine you calling my name every moment of the day. I wish you knew that I love you so completely
How I wish you cared; about me the way I do you. I wish you understood the pain I feel when I see you with Edward. I wish you knew how I smell his jacket after he has been with you.
How I wish I wasn't jealous of your boyfriend. How I wish I didn't feel so angry when he announced that he is going to yours. I hate the way I'm hiding things from my family; but I can never tell them how I feel for you.
But Bella how could you ever love an ancient monster like me
Love always
C x