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Let Me Go

Tony knew things would end badly between them. They couldn't go well in any form when he was sent to spy on her as a way to get to her father. He hated to lie to her, but they needed any information they could get on Jeanne's father. And as he lay there next to her, he couldn't help but feel the guilt overwhelming him.

One more kiss could be the last thing

But one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And you're not something I deserve

Tony felt Jeanne move against him, curling herself into his warmth. It was killing him, leading the double life. It all seemed too real. And he couldn't seem to get her out of his thoughts, even when he should be working, or even when he needed to be sleeping.

In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

He wanted to tell her the truth, to get everything out in the open, but he knew that Jeanne would never fully understand him without knowing the truth. He wished that he didn't have to be on the assignment, or that Jeanne would let him go, so he could end it. He prayed she would let him go.

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Let me go

Tony looked at the clock, creeping towards three am and he still wasn't sleeping. He wanted to hope that things could go well between him and Jeanne, but he know it was a futile hope. He needed to stop, to get out. It was bad, really, really bad. He needed to not be in love with his 'target'. He needed to be more like Gibbs, and protect himself.

I dream ahead to what I hope for

And I turn my back on loving you

How can this love be a good thing

When I know what I'm going through

His thoughts turned back to Jeanne. Her hair fell softly over her bare shoulder. He loved the way she looked at him, her green eyes sparkling with mischief and adoration. Or the way, with subtle manipulations, she could get him to do anything she wanted.

In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

He glanced at the clock again, knowing that he should be sleeping, but unable to push aside the thoughts running wild in his mind. He hated himself even more in that moment for letting Jeanne, a brilliant and beautiful woman, fall in love with a lie.

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

You love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Just let me go

Let me go

He eased himself away from her sleeping form and over to the window. He stared out into the early morning darkness and contemplated leaving her then and there. But he couldn't bring himself to actually leave without trying to explain why. He knew things would fall apart. He sighed and crawled back into bed next to her and tried to sleep. Things would end soon enough and cause them both heartache, so he wasn't going to rush them, no matter how much the guilt was pressing in on him.

And no matter how hard I try

I cant escape these things inside I know

I know

When all the pieces fall apart

You will be the only one who knows

Who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

Just let me go

And you love me but you don't

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't know who I am

And you love me but you don't

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't know me.