A/N: This would be my first fanfic so be nice(: constructive criticism is appreciated, reviews are loved, and flames will get your ass kicked by Rose. (Permission from Richelle Mead has already been requested.) Also just like every other fanfic writer we are here because we absolutely love the book that we are writing about and we don't want it to end with book six so if you do not like a person's fanfic or you think it stupid or lame stop reading it, no need to comment and state your opinion. Ohhkay sorry one of my favorite authors on here got ragged on so bad and it pissed me off! But I know none of you would do that (: anyways on with the story that I know ya'll are all dying to read! (Also intimate scene with rose and Dimitri did happen.)

Disclaimer: Me: Dear Santa, can I have ownership to the VA series?

Santa: No

Me: Damn

Chapter 1: no more pain

It was around lunch time when I heard someone outside my door. I didn't bother going to see who it was or what they were doing, I just sat on my bed and waited for them to leave. After a few minutes I heard someone sigh and hurry down the steps. I got up and opened the door to see two chicken sandwiches with some Fiji water and a dozen donuts with a single red Rose. No doubt the rose and donuts were from Adrian, and the more reasonable lunch was from Lissa, I took the tray and set in on my bed and started in on the donuts. With nothing to keep my mind from wandering as usual it went back to that horrid day.

I stopped hitting the bag and turned around, hoping it was just a misunderstanding and I just didn't hear him right.

"What did you say?" I spoke slowly as if to counteract the fast beating in my heart. He looked at me, his guardian mask put into place.

"I said I'm leaving Rose, I've decided to take up Tasha's offer." His words cut through me like ice, how could he do this to me? How could he do this to us? Was it all a lie, every kiss every touch was it just to fill his time until someone better came along, someone he could actually be with?

"Rose?" he gently touched my arm and brought me out of my shock.

"Don't touch me!' I hissed at him. "Don't you dare touch me!"

If he wasn't so much of a god in fighting I would've kicked his ass right there but I was still too much in shock to do anything but look at him.

"Roza, please understand- " That did it.

"Oh I understand perfectly your leaving me for that scar-faced whore!" His mask melted away and a look of rage took its place.

"Do NOT call her that, you can be pissed at me all you want but you will NOT take it out on Tasha!"

With that he walked out of the gym and the last thing I heard was him muttering something in Russian before he slammed the door shut. I stood there in that same spot for hours and when my feet could no longer hold me I crumpled to the floor. I began to cry hysterically as my heart continued to break. I knew that I would never be the same after this day.

When dinnertime had come around lissa and Adrian came looking for me and were scared shitless to find me curled in a ball crying. No one had ever seen me so broken like this and right then I didn't care. Adrian picked me up and carried me to my room, I buried my head into his shoulder and continued to cry, lissa became frantic asking me all sorts of questions but Adrian silenced her with a look. Once in my room I was set down on my bed and with only a few protests from lissa was actually left alone. When I heard the door shut I turned over and tried to get some sleep I was actually quite tired from all the crying and surprisingly in no time I found myself drifting to sleep.

At first my dream was of nothing in particular but soon I felt myself being pulled into another dream and prepared myself to be bombarded with questions. Adrian might have gotten Lissa off my back but that didn't mean he wasn't going to want answers. I looked around and saw myself in what looked like a tree fort on steroids and wondered how could a little kid want something this big in a tree, but it was Adrian we were talking about.

The walls were made of wood and there were odd shaped windows but the room was huge; little toys were all on the floor and pictures of superheroes laced the walls, I looked over to see Adrian and Lissa sitting across from me. Lissa's concern was written all over her face and it killed me to make her have to worry about me I was supposed to protect her.

And then it dawned on me, "Why are you here Lissa?" she looked at me with a hurt expression but it quickly vanished and was replaced with a defiant one.

"I want answers too Rose."I knew there was no way out of this they were going to find out eventually so I took a deep breath and started from the beginning, most of the time Lissa looked hurt because she was just now hearing about it but I didn't stop until the end and by then I was back in tears and so was Lissa, as for Adrian he looked as if he was going to track Dimitri down and kill him, himself.

"Don't worry about it Rose soon you'll forget all about him and when he comes back he will realize what he missed." I smiled at Adrian's attempt to make me feel better but I didn't think I would ever forget about the love of my life.

I stopped mid donut, could it really be that simple? Remembering back to what Adrian said, I began to count the weeks since he left. Six weeks that was it, he has only been gone for six weeks and it already felt like an eternity. I recently read online that it took about ten months or longer to get over heartbreak –I know, how lame right looking that crap on the internet but I was depressed okay, – There was no way in hell that I was going to wait that long now that I might not even have to but did I really want this? The answer was as simple as it could get. Yes, I did.

I jumped out of bed and grabbed some decent clothes it had been a while since I had been in public, as Alberta was giving me my school work and I woke up every night to go train to avoid seeing anyone –hey I might definitely be having some issues right now but I'll be damned if I was going to let myself get behind in training and let some sorry son of a flicker be Lissa's guardian– but hopefully that was going to change soon. I got dressed and ran out the door, I sprinted past a group of novices that looked at me with shocked expressions no one besides Alberta, Lissa and Adrian knew what was going on -I'm pretty sure Christian and Eddie did too- everyone else thought I was either pregnant or had flesh eating disease. I had to laugh at how ridiculous the rumors were and was a little satisfied to let them see me without a belly and my skin intact. I kept running until I reached his door, through the bond I knew Lissa was still with him so I picked up the pace I wanted them both there when I gave my request.

I knocked on the door –more like pounded– until Adrian opened up.

"Rose, what's wrong?" He asked concern in his eyes.

I let out a harsh laugh, "For the first time over a month something is right."

I pushed myself inside and saw Lissa, Christian, Eddie, and Alberta sitting in Adrian's living room. Weird, I thought for sure it was only Adrian and Lissa here; I guess I wasn't paying as much attention to the bond as I had thought.

"What is everyone doing here?"

I glanced around the room to notice that everyone had either found something very interesting in the floor or the ceiling; I still had no clue what was going on, only when I felt a rush of guilt and a single thought that got free of Lissa's block did I truly knew what was going on and I was furious.

"You guys are planning an intervention?"

Alberta looked up and gave me a sad smile. My anger dissipated I didn't know until now how my absence had messed everyone up even Christian who acted as if I was a thorn in his side looked upset by my lack of appearance.

"We just want you to be happy again Rose." Adrian spoke from behind me.

Lissa stood up and took my hand in hers, "I hate seeing you like this, we all do." She gestured everyone in the room.

"Yeah, Rose novice classes are really boring without you in them even Stan seems to miss you." I had to laugh at that, Stan was probably having a field day with me out of the picture. Only Eddie would think to say something like that probably trying to cheer me up.

Lissa gave Christian a sharp look and he was talking before he knew what he was going to say. That boy was so whipped.

"Uh, yeah I miss having someone to fight with."

"Christian, in order for there to be a fight it would actually have to involve me trying to beat you." I smirked and he glared at me.

Satisfied I looked to Adrian and Lissa. "Okay I get the whole we want you back Rose, but I'd like to know how exactly you were going to do it."

Everyone looked to Alberta and she gave me a sheepish smile. "Well I was going to start looking into getting a new mentor for you today and… well Lissa was going to help me pick him out."

Everyone looked at me for a reaction but I didn't really have one I pulled my guardian mask up when she started talking and I was glad that I did. I didn't want a new mentor I wanted Dimitri. I couldn't believe that they were trying to set me up with a new mentor, one I haven't even met yet just so I could get over Dimitri but that was where they're plan was flawed I wasn't going to get over Dimitri anytime soon I didn't even think I would ever, which brought me back to my original plan.

"You think it's that easy? Like it's a sure thing that I will fall for whomever you all decide to replace D-Dimitri?" My voice cracked as I said his name but no one acted like they noticed and I continued, "I don't want a guy for a mentor actually since we're speaking of new mentors I'd like you to be my mentor Alberta."

Everyone looked at me with shocked expressions and Alberta spoke quickly, "you don't want me as a mentor, Rose I'm not as qualified as Dimitri was to be your mentor."

I gave her a confused look, "How are you not?"

"What she means is that she doesn't have the patience to deal with your stubbornness, tardiness, and all around hotheaded temper." Christian spoke with a smirk plastered on his face.

I decided I would mess with him a little bit and just see how much my absence did affect him. I forced tears to come out of my eyes –which wasn't that hard since I'd been shedding a lot lately– and I looked to the ground. "I u-under-s-stand, never mind t-then."

I turned to leave and before I could even make a full turn I was Christian's arms –weird– and he was apologizing like crazy. Hmm I guess I found my answer, no matter how much we fought Christian and I were very similar and even though on a regular day I'd never admit it. Through Lissa he became a good friend of mine and if something was ever to happen I'd die for him as much as I would for Lissa. I was about to tell him I was kidding when he started talking about Dimitri.

"–I know he hurt you but were going to fix this, Rose and I don't care how we do it. If it means that we can go back to the way everything used to be then I'll gladly jump on a bus and attempt to kick his ass and yes I say attempt because I know I'll be needing Lissa's healing once I come back."

I took this as my opportunity to ask what I had been meaning to ask them, "Ya'll would do anything to help me?"

I knew this was a set up and it probably wouldn't work but I had to try everything. It would be a long shot for this to work but I needed my friends on board.

"Yes of course we would, you know that Rose." Lissa speaking for everyone, I saw as everyone nodded their head and I scraped up what little courage I had left to ask them.

"Alright then, Adrian, I want you to erase Dimitri from my memory." Everyone took at collective gasp at once. Really, no one saw that coming?

"I can't do that Rose, and I know you don't really want that either. We'll find some other way to fix this I promise." He said trying to reassure me but that wasn't the answer I was looking for if didn't have Dimitri –and I didn't. I didn't want to remember him at all.

"I'm serious Adrian; I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I can't sleep, eat or shower without feeling this hole that he ripped into my heart. Everything is a constant reminder of him and it kills me and the worst part is every day when I wake up I have to remember that he didn't choose me. I hate feeling this fragile I should be worrying about training or stupid gossip. Not trying to put back the pieces of my broken heart, please Adrian I need you to do this!"

"What happens when you try to remember who mentored you and you come at a blank? You'll get suspicious and then end up finding out that we tampered with your mind, you'll kill us." Eddie spoke calm and rationally. It was true I hadn't thought of that but an earlier conversation came to mind and I spoke without hesitation.

"Say that Alberta mentored me but she can no longer do it due to a busy schedule so find me another one and Lissa, you can help look if you want to."

"I still don't think we should do this." Lissa stated, "Doesn't it say that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?"

" Yes, but it also say's 'the pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.'" Adrian declared looking a little loony if I wasn't so determined to get Dimitri off my mind for good I might have said something but i felt as if I was about to get my way so I didn't stray off the subject.

"So Adrian will you do it… for me?" I added that last part in hoping he wouldn't be able to resist.

"Of course little dhampir anything for you." He took my chin in his hands and he looked deep into my eyes.

"You will no longer remember Dimitri Belikov as your mentor, he never went to retrieve you and Lissa and you two never fell in love. When you hear someone speak of him you will only think of the great stories of him killing Strigoi and if you do see him again you will treat him like a stranger. When you came back to St. Vladimir's you were mentored by Alberta but now you are going to get a new mentor because of Alberta's crazy schedule."

Lissa looked me and began compulsion too. "Also when you return to school it was because you just got over a horrible cold. When someone asks you were you have been that is what you'll say."

I blinked my eyes a couple of times, where was I? I looked around the room; Lissa, Christian, Eddie, Alberta, and Adrian were staring at me nervously.

"What am I doing here and why are all of you staring at me like that?" They gave one another anxious glances, and it was a few minutes before Alberta spoke up.

"We are all here to watch a movie." She said, and the others nodded hastily in agreement, why were they acting so weird?

"Okay, well not to be rude but Alberta, I see you enough before and after classes why are you here?"

Alberta laughed and everyone in the room seemed to relax a little. "You're the one who invited me Rose."

Hmm that's odd I don't remember inviting her. "It must be this bloody cold, I'm glad it's almost over." With that everyone laughed, and I sat down next to Adrian.

He pulled me into his side and wrapped an arm around me. "I'm glad your back little Dhampir."

I knew what he meant, I don't know why but it felt like forever since I'd been with my friends. But whatever the reason I was glad I was back. No cold could hold Rose Hathaway down for long.

A/N: Sorry guys but I had to stop it there. But don't worry I'll update in a few days. Anyways what did ya'll think did I catch your interest or was it just blah… I've never let anyone read my stories so this is kind a new for me. Also I know my grammar is atrocious and that is why I am hoping someone would team up with me and be my beta! Whoever is up for the challenge just let me know.

List of demands: I'm holding chapter 2 hostage until 15 reviews are received into my virtual hands. Mwahahahaha! Make it 20 and the hostage might make it to you unharmed. (Hahaha okay so I'm a review hog kill me) though this is only my first fanfic I've read them for a year now and I can't wait to see what all ya'll have to say(;

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