Title: these are
Character/s: Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes
Summary: Glimpses, steps and half-steps. (in 22 sentences) —Steve/Bucky—
AN: General whatthefckery, a sort of disposal until I can write something else.
these are
glimpses.
« arsenous elation »
1.
At the end of it all, you wonder.
2.
Before the winter that took him, he teaches you a lesson. The world will take things from you if don't know how to keep 'em.
You smile and say, Of course, Buck. Whatever you say.
3.
And you think, looking at his face that is smooth from forgetting (unlike yours that crumples from remembering): you are an old wound and you are the salve(-ation).
4.
Your arms tremble as you and the world rush past the spot where you lost him.
The wind has replaced his screaming, and it tells you to watch, watch, watch—keep watching.
5.
You stare at him as he laughs that open laugh of his, caught between the next breath and the words unsaid in your mouth.
6.
That night, you hold yourself tighter where you lay, mouth aching, stomach curling in on itself.
His quiet words line the shadows of the tent, now voiceless.
7.
See? I told you so.
8.
In your dreams, you travel back to Brooklyn.
There is music where there wasn't before, and his young face now holds something you can't understand.
9.
"If you're going to live, live it dancing, so come on Stevie."
10.
After eternity.
You stand in the middle of the crowded street now, looking at him after eternity; this time, your mind tells you, this time tell him—
11.
He is wrong, you now realize, because this, this isn't right.
12.
It is a strange thing, looking at the face of a dead man.
Stranger still that your heart sinks at the sight of a long-loved one.
13.
It will take you five more years to find him, ten years to be able to hold him, and forever to unlove him.
14.
Any moment now, you are sure.
But instead of Death, you find warm arms wrapping around you, the steady voice saying, Breathe Stevie, Don't leave me Stevie.
15.
You fight and claw for redemption, for a chance to prove to him, shove to his face, you only lose what you cling to.