I was never really into that saying
"Take a leap of faith"
Leaping requires someone to catch you, and what happens when there's no one to catch you? You end up with broken bones and a mouthful of rocks. And a whole lot of pain.
I also wasn't into second chances. If someone messed up bad enough for me to not trust them again, then they'd never change.
But she was different. She took so many leaps of faith I was surprised she hadn't lost all her teeth. She gave so many seconds chances because she truly believed people could change. She was something untouchable to me, because she was so pure and innocent and good and I was so manipulative and cruel and evil. And even though I never thought I could, because I had convinced myself love was impossible for me, I loved her. I loved her so much. I loved her to the point where I thought I could change. Become someone she deserved. Someone who wouldn't taint her pure innocence with malice and evil. But I couldn't. And as much as we loved each other we were self destructive. Doomed from the start. Not meant to be. I guess villains never get a happy ending do they?