I just stood then and thought why me? I kept denying it before and now i can't. She's gone. I watch as Christina holds Tris' dead body. All I can think is she can't be gone. I remember Caleb's words. "She told me to tell you she didn't want to leave you." I fall to my knees in despair. I try not to cry. "Why did you have to leave," I ask feeling a tear fall. I hug her body. "Please come back," I plead. How was I going to live without her? I start sobbing. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. Caleb tries to put a hand on my shoulder. "Get away, she is dead because of you!" I yell at him holding Tris body tighter. He immediately backs away. Christina tries to pul me away. "No," I sob hoping she will just wake up. "Tris you have to wake up. What will I do without you? Please, you can't leave me. Your the only thing I have!" I yell. I hold her close and mumur soft words. "You have to leave Four, she's dead. I look up. I've been here for eight hours now. Right in front of me is my mom. "Wha-What do yo..you want," I stutter trying not to sob. "Tobias she is dead. You can't leave like this you have to move on," she tells me. I look down at Tris. Her pale face looks so beautiful. Like she is in a deep sleep. "I can't she was my only reason to live," I tell her. "Life for her then," she replies. I nod and stand up still crying. I lift her small body up. I follow my mom out. If only I could have saved her. If only she wouldn't have died. If only.