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Cars are passing by the road with a higher speed than it was supposed in this kind of street. The cars came out from the big tunnel, lights still on, making old newspapers in the floor get life for a moment and fly.

Beside the end of the tunnel, a man with glasses in his hand is crying silent as the cars make his hair move. Sobs were scaping from his mouth as the pain inside magnifies. As he looks up, all his desperation is visible for the people walking in the street, but this is New York, and anybody cares for some unknown man's tears.

Ragged sobs turn into a slow flow of tears as he finally get up from the trash can where he was seated. There is no way out from this situation, there is no magic exit for this pain, just more pain ahead in the future, a life he won't be able to live. A future he don't need to live.

He closes his eyes as, slowly, start to walk ahead. Step by step, as more tears keep running through his face. Even with his eyes closed he can see the lights of some cars speeding through the road. He's at the edge now. One more step and everything will be over. One more step and all his problems will dessapear with his life.

He breathes one more time before taking that last step. He closes his eyes harder, waiting for the next car to take all his pain away.

A big shriek.

A car honks.

And suddenly, all goes black.

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Another day in the same routine. Get up from bed, take a shower, get dressed, go to work, get lunch, back to work, go to back home, sleep and back again. Danny was in a seriously need for some changes in his life. Andrew was still asleep in the bed, not even a bomb would be able to get him out of his peaceful sleep. Danny'd give anything to stay with him in bed, but work was calling and he needed to get up now.

Whistling a tune accord to the music from the radio in the bathroom, he started to do the same things he was used to do everyday. After the shower he took the keys and his jacket and went out to the street. Andrew and Danny had been living together for three months. They decided to share an apartment after Andrew was fired from his last job. Danny understood that, he was an artist, not a waiter. Those three months passed really faster for them. They have ups and downs, bu at least Danny is happy because he's close to his lover.

When he came into the crimelab the first thing he saw was a very bright smile from Stella, his superior, but also one of the few people he could talk to about everything. She was the only one in the lab that knew Danny was sharing more than just a flat with Andrew.

"Good morning Stel"

"Good morning to you too, Danny. I see you're happy today. No troubles in paradise?" Stella greeted him too as both were going to the briefing room, where Aiden was already waiting for Mac to tell them their new cases. "Have you heard about the new rookies in homicide? They say a few of them are very good looking, maybe we are lucky and some of them end up working wth us, Danny. That's it God, give me one more reason to come back tomorrow."

"That's bullshit, Stella, and you know it. You'd come back to work tomorrow even if you were the one paying. You're in love with your work. Well, your work and some inspector we all know..." laughed Danny.

As Mac came in and cases were asignated, Stella and Danny resigned to lab work, until a call made them left for a new case, located near Central Park. At the crime scene, a new homicide detective was already waiting for them.

"What do we have here" asked Stella, very professional, as she checked the new detective with the protection of her new shades.

"Male, 34. His name is Richard Winlow. The waitress from the restaurant in the corner was going to work when she stepped on the blood. She's over there, with the paramedics" said and signaled a girl, no more than 20 years old, who was seated in the back of a medical bus. "Poor chick got a nerve collapse, seems like this is the first time she sees someone dead." He chuckled and sighed. "Oh, I'm Don Flack. New in this precint. It looks like I'll be the link between homicide and CSI, so we'll see each other a lot"

"Hi, I'm Stella Bonasera, and this is Danny Messer. We are CSIs." said as she offered her hand for a shake. Danny did the same and noticed the strenght and kindness of his shake. This new detective looked friendly, not like the last one.

"Do you mind if we go back to work? I'd like to go back to the crimelab ASAP." He really didn't wanted to finish the conversation with his new partner, he just wanted to get all evidence as possible to get to his and Andrew's apartment, not soo far from here. Stella will cover him, she always do it.

"Yeah, sure" said Flack as he moved to talk to the witness. Stella looked at Danny, as if she knew Danny's plan and chuckled.

"He's going to think you are rude, Danny. You need to be more open to the people, and more so if they're going to be around you" said Stella as she started taking photos. "Aaand also there is the fact that he's cute. And I think he looked at you, so..."

"Don't go there, Stel, you know I'm off the market."

"You know I don't want to interfere in your love life, but, I think maybe Andrew is a bit possesive over you. I don't really wanted to say anything, but if you..."

"You said it, you don't want to interfere in my 'private' life. He's not possesive, he just want to know that I'm fine. Our job is not a very easy or safe one, and he likes to know after all I have to see, handle and do, I'm still fine"

"Yeah, Danny. Sorry about that. I'm just worried about you, I don't want to see you hurt" said Stella as she took the evidence bags and put them in the back of the car.

"Will you cover me, Stel? I'd like to say hello to Andrew, we're just 5 minutes from our apartment. I'd love to have a lunch with him, it's been ages since the last time we could have a nice lunch together."

"Of course, Danny. Just come back after lunch. Mac may suspect something if you are late." Stella then get into the car and left for the crime lab. The new homicide detective approached Danny.

"You're not leaving with your partner?" Danny looked at him. Stella was right, he was really cute.

"Nah. I'm going to have some lunch"

"If you want to, we could go together to get something to eat and know each other a bit better. We're going to work together after all." Flack flashed Danny one of his best smiles, and Danny smiled back.

"Rain-check on that, I already have plans for now, but we could go out some other day"

"Yeah, of course. No problem." Flack looked at Danny while he leave the crime scene. "See ya around, Messer"

"See ya Flack". Great. Now he just agreed to have lunch with another man. Andrew won't be happy if he know this. Better then not to tell him about the new detective.

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The walk to his apartment was really short. Less than five minutes after leaving the crime scene Danny was already entering the apartment, and instead of calling for his lover, he decided to make as little noise as possible and surprise him. The entire flat was silent, Danny even though maybe his lover left for some research, or maybe to get inspiration from somewhere. He was starting to get used to be left alone for a couple of days until he find something that motivates him to draw something.

He went to the fridge, to get something to eat, when a little sound made him leave the kitchen. Some sounds were coming from the bedroom, something like whispers. The bedroom was on the other side from the apartment, maybe that's why he didn't heard anything until now. He should be making some paintings, very concentrated as he uses to be.

More noises start to flow as he gets near the bedroom door. He's starting to feel sick. Those are not the noises someone should be doing while he's working, not even if he's pinting with a grat passion. Those are noises he never expected to hear without him inside that room. Danny stops by the door and, with his heart in a fist, slowly makes the door to open. Not even in a million of years he could have been ready to see what he finds once he have the guts to look inside.

Outside the room he had a direct vision to the back of the bed. It was unmade, as he left it when he left for work. Andrew was still in bed, but he was on his knees, his groin against some guy's buttocks, his cock deep buried in some guy's ass. The other guy was four legged on the bed, while Andrew had his hand around this man's cock. They didn't realized Danny was under the doorframe, they keep on moaning and whispering, all while Andrew keep on trusting himself deeper and deeper inside that stranger. Danny felt the world around him dissapear as he heard his lover call the other guy 'babe', something he hadn't called him in a long time. Danny felt all his strenght leave his body as he start to walk backward, not being able to stop looking the scene in front of him. He hits the wall behind him, making not many noise, but enough to make Andrew look behind him and confront a very pale Danny.

Andrew looked surprised for a second, just before he smiled and, without taking his eyes off Danny, started to trust even harder into the other man's ass, making him to take his knees up the bed. Andrew also begun to stroke the man's cock even faster, making him to scream, almost to crack for the need of release. The whimpers became as erratic as Andrew's trust as both men came while Danny looked at his lover's face.

As Andrew turned his head to kiss the other man, Danny got enough strenght to get away from the hall and the apartment, running all the way until he found himself outside in the street. He needed to get away from there, he needed to breathe, he needed to be somewhere far from here, so he begun to walk against some people that passed him, no matter where it leads.

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Three hours later, Danny gets into the crime lab building. His face is still pale, and some of the people gathered in the hall look at him. Danny gets into the elevator and pushed for the 35 floor. Inside the cab, Danny tries to breathe, trying to make the air in his lungs expade enough to recompose his broken heart. As the doors open, an angry Mac welcomes him.

"Where the hell were you? You are here to work, you are suppossed to be doing exactly that, not taking free time everytime you want to!!" yelled Mac. "Where the hell have you been? What kind of excuse do you have for this?"

"I'm sorry Mac, This won't happen again." Danny's voice was very low.

"I'm tired of this behaviour, Danny. Today you take three hours for lunch break, while all the people in this lab have to take a sandwich from the machine because we're outnumbered. Yesterday you get a phone call during a case and leave the scene to talk, other day you leave some evidence out of security because you had to leave... This isn't just today, Danny, this is starting to affect the group and the lab. One more thing and you're fired. Do you understand?"

Danny looked down, unable to say anything. Mac was right, he was starting to be a burden for everybody. "I understand, Mac."

"I don't want to do this, you are leaving me no other options" With that Mac left the hallway and entered his office, looking at the young man one more time from behind his cristal door.

Danny sighed and went to trace, where Stella was alredy looking some evidence in the microscope. When she saw Danny she looked at him with an angry face. "What the hell were you doing, Danny? You were supposed to walk in here as soon as you finished with your lunch. Yo can't tell me you were eating all the three hours."

"I..." Danny seated in one of the chairs arounf the big table. "I'm not in the mood to talk, Stella. Please, I don't think I can handle this from you too."

"You... Don't tell me this is all about that boyfriend you have."

"I don't know if I have it anymore, Stel. Please, don't start on it again. I can't right now." Danny was almost crying, although Stella didn't seem to realize.

"Do you know Mac was yelling at me because I left you at the crime scene, even after I told you not to be out for too long? No, you don't know the kind of yells I had to stand just because you decided to stay a little longer with your loved boyfriend! And that's not all, I had to examine the evidence alone because you were too busy to come back to work! Very well done, Danny."

"That's not what happened, Stella, let me explain"

"You know what, I've had enogh of you and your while little lies for a while." with that Stella stood up and left the room, leaving behind a broken and shattered Danny who, in a few hours, had lost his lover and his best friend.

That's the end of this chapter. If you like it, let me know