Lonely thoughts
Disclaimer: Don't own digimon, and don't own the poem 'nobody'.
Summary: Matt's thoughts when lost in that dark cave in one of the episodes of digimon 01
A/n: I'm a truly horrible writer... So I want to thank Dawn Aurilain for lending me her poem, and for beta-reading this, and getting out most of the mistakes, all mistakes left are solely mine, though.
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A nobody isn't hard to be,
Even if you want to be someone.
It's not like anyone would care if I would just curl up and die.
Tai wouldn't, that's for sure: he hates me as it is. And T.K.? Well, he'll still have Tai, so it won't be such a disaster for him either. Tai would make a better big brother anyway.
Nobody will pay attention,
Nobody will see.
And my parents? I doubt mom would care. She probably doesn't love me anyway. I mean, she didn't want to take care of me, did she? And dad is always so busy- maybe he won't even notice when I'm gone.
It would probably be better if I'd just end it.
Nobody cares,
Nobody loves.
But maybe they would care... Tai and T.K., and my parents... And my friends... Izzy and Joe, and the others...
Ah, who am I kidding? I was just a burden to them anyway.
Nobody's good,
Nobody's right.
I should probably just give up. They don't need me, they can fight the Dark Masters perfectly well without me.
Nobody stays with you,
All day and all night.
I mean, they've done a good job until now. What? Only one Dark Master left or something? And Tai got two out of three on his own.
Nobody will respond to you,
Nobody will answer,
Nobody will help you.
"Matt?"
"What is it?"
Why would someone want to talk to me? Why would I want for someone to talk to me? Just leave me alone... Just let me be. No one cares anyway.
Nobody cares,
Nobody loves.
"There are lots of people who care about you, Matt. I certainly do."
What? No, that has to be a lie... Why would I even bother to listen?
Nobody gives,
And won't ask anything back.
"Ouch! Gabumon! What are you doing?"
"I'm sorry Matt. But you have to listen to me! There's no reason to get all depressed! There are lots of people who care about you! Your parents do, and your brother does. I know they love you, and you should no so too."
Nobody will comfort you,
Nobody will cheer you up.
"But..."
"You have the crest of friendship for a reason. You have friends who care about you!
And if you lost all faith in them, you can at least always be sure that I care about you."
"Gabumon... You're a great friend, you know that?"
Have you ever realized,
what a lovely person nobody is?
End
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Gabumon probably said something completely different to Matt, but it's been a long time since I last saw that episode, and I really couldn't remember.
Well, please tell me what you think.