Author's note: I saw TFA, I got feels and this happened. Sorry. Enjoy and please let me know what you think ^^

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FOR I HAVE SINNED

Forgive me, mother, for I have sinned. I sent my son away, and I will never get him back. I thought it was the right thing to do, but I was wrong. He needed guidance and I wasn't with him. What kind of mother abandons her son? You would have fought to stay by our side and I should have too, and to hell with Jedi training and Jedi rules. I trusted my brother and I let them go. I should have trusted my instinct and kept them by my side, safe. Now I have lost them all: my brother, my son and my husband and I have lost myself as well. I was a motherless child, though you were always with me, I could feel it. Now I am a childless mother and maybe I deserved it.
Forgive me, mother, for I want to hate my son with all my might.
Forgive me, my love, for I blamed you, and now your death is on my hands.

Forgive me, father, for I have sinned. I thought I could be the Jedi this new world needed, one you would have been proud of, but I failed. I brought sorrow to my family, and eventually death as well, instead of the hope I had promised. I compromised the balance in the Force and I cannot restore it without you. I am not the hero, the legend people think, I'm not a Jedi worthy of that name. Perhaps I never was. I made a mistake and I ran, as far and as fast as I could and left nothing but darkness in my wake. I don't think I can ever atone for that.
Forgive me, father, for I became the man you hated and now my nephew walks the same path you did, but he isn't you and I do not have the strength to bring him back on my own.
Forgive me, sister, for I led your son on a road I swore I'd let no one ever walk again.

Forgive me, mother, for I have sinned. I have betrayed my family, I have betrayed you all and everything I thought I believed in for a path that I can hardly see anymore, let alone walk on. I wanted to become a legend, a myth, more powerful even than your father, but I failed. I am nothing. I'm not a son, I'm not a nephew, I'm not a Jedi nor a Sith. I have sacrificed everything and got nothing in return. What power I obtained is not enough anymore. It was all for nothing.
I ask for your forgiveness, mother - no, I beg for it, but I know I don't deserve it. There is so much blood on my hands, but I've never cared, not until now. I cannot wash it away, I cannot pretend it's not there. And now it's too late to do anything to change it.
They say the Force is strong in our family, but so is the pull of the Dark Side. And I have fallen, like your father before me, but I am not the chosen one and I cannot come back.
Forgive me, mother, I lost.
Forgive me, father, for I thought your death would free me and show me the way, but it shrouded me in darkness instead.