Lol. Okay I didn't plan to write this, but it just hit me as I sat down to do my usual internet browsing, so I thought I should write it down. I will upload my next irrational fears story as soon as I finish it, shouldn't be long now 

Disclaimer: if I had the brains (and artistic skills) I would own bleach. But I don't. C'est la vie!

Dear diary,

He smiled at me today. It was so cute and I must have looked like I was going to pass out from joy because Ikkaku asked me if I was okay. It made so much of a difference to his usual cold manner, I mean, he's been friendlier since everything went on with the whole Aizen thing, and he keeps apologising to me which makes me really uncomfortable sometimes. I should be the one saying sorry, and I want to tell him to just shut up, but I never will, because I love his voice.

We all went out for lunch today, all us fuku-taicho, and I must have been really out of it. I was just sat there thinking about how nice (and scary) his smile is and I didn't even notice that kira had been stealing my food! The cheek of it, he ruined the symmetry of my lunch!

I found myself cleaning this morning. It was quite odd, I found that I was cleaning the table in my room, and even making my bed! Although, I'm going to have to go buy some new crockery, after Yumichika complained that it 'wasn't pretty enough' and he threw it out of the window! I was so pissed off after that, and I've been eating of paper ones since, which makes all your food taste gross and is harming the environment, seeing as you can't recycle them.

Oops, drawing on my table again… Taicho'll be pissed if I don't clean it… sigh, I want to tell him how I feel, but I've never been very good with words, and I couldn't live with myself, if he rejected me. After all, I'm just a 'Rukongai street rat', and it's not likely that he would ever return the feelings.

Well, work to do now, seeing as I didn't finish it earlier :s because I was too busy day dreaming (oops) about him(and me, a pointless fantasy, although, he was topless in it :p yum, oops drooling on my diary now).

Abarai Renji, 6th squad fuku-taicho

Well, that was odd for me to write. Lol.

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Oh and tell me if you want me to carry on writing for this story, 'kay?

Luvs ya, Hanabi-Chan xx