AN: Here's just a short one shot, I hope you enjoy!
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Little do you know
How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I'm still haunted by the memories
Little do you know
I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece
Little do you know
I need a little more time
Every time she closes her eyes, she see it. The smoke, the fire, Giovani falling to the ground. His lifeless eyes boring into her soul. She hears his son's screams, a constant lull in the back of her head. Reminding her of that day in Iran. The day she saved the world, but her own world crumbled to pieces. The scream gets louder sometimes. She fights it, try's to push it back down. She really does try, but days like these, the scream fights back. It takes over her, and all she can hear is the scream. That's why she lays here, next to her sleeping husband, trying to reconcile with the unbelievable amounts of pain she feels; Asking herself over and over again, "How did I get into this mess?"
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know
I need a little more time
She hasn't told him yet. About the scream, or about what really happened. Yes, Henry knew parts of the story, how Fred had died on top of her. Small details like timing. But she hadn't yet revealed her what she saw, how it felt, and the constant pain she was going through. She lays there, trying to forgive him. Why had he let her go? Why didn't he convince her otherwise? Deep down she knows why. He knows her too well. He knows her need for a better world, and what she is willing to put on the line. But she can't get to that understanding. The pain is the top layer of her reconciliation with what happened. And that layer is too thick to even get through. She's fighting, but she needs more time. She'll tell him eventually.
I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain, I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid, I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay so lay your head on me
The pain is unbelievable. He knows that. He knows her. She puts on a mask, at work, in front of the kids. But he can see through it. He knows her well. He's always known her well. There is so much pain. He can see it feel it when he lays next to her. He wants to help her, so badly. He wants her to open up, to share the pain. She won't, she needs time. He loves her so much. All he wants to do is help her. So he lays next to her. Hoping she finds comfort in just that.
Little do you know
I know you're hurt while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece
Little do you know
I'll love you till the sun dies
He lays there. He knows she's awake. She has been since she got home from Iran. She wanders around at night, looking for things to do, things to distract herself from the horrific images. He can see her slowly withering away. She lays next to him, and all he wants to do is reach out. He regrets it so much, he can't. Why did he ever let her go? Why didn't he push back even more? The burden has fallen on his shoulders now. To put her back together. He's up for the challenge. He'll help put her together, he'll spend as much time as needed. But he's so tired.
Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I've never felt the pain, just wait
I love you like I've never been afraid, just wait
Our love is here and here to stay so lay your head on me
I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain, I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid, I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay so lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me
'Cause little do you know
I love you till the sun dies
It will take a while until they are able to share. They both know that. But right now, they lay next to each other, quietly processing. And right now, that's all they need. They'll stay like that until the sun rises. And hopefully soon, they'll be able to confide in each other, and maybe share some of the pain.
AN: THANK YOU FOR READING!
Let me know if I should change anything... always open to constructive criticism.