**I DO NOT OWN BLEACH OR KRIS ALLEN!**
I try to ignore the moonless sky above us as we lay among our field. You're asleep on my chest, oblivious to my heart's frantic warning. I have to go; I want to go. I wish I could disappear into this night's thin air. Tomorrow looms over me like an avalanche waiting for a whisper before raining down.
Yet I try to be perfect for a moment. For you, I can ignore tomorrow a moment longer before I shatter your-our-dream, our hope. I'm sorry that I am lying to you now. I'm sorry that all we dreamed of will come crashing around you as you see me exiled into the realm of betrayers. I will do it though. And when all this is over and I have survived, the smoke will clear and I will be holding up the sky that will always be our limit. I'm sorry for lying to you, but honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now. The lie is easier than telling the truth.
I love you,
Ichimaru Gin