Destiny…of Fate?
By: Eternal Darkness
Summary: An AU, set after 02, but completely disregarding the ending. Sort of a 'what-if' fic from Daisuke's POV. Basically, the job of the DD's isn't over, and there's a lot of chaos and endless fighting against more and more enemies and new bad guys. Daisuke is sick of it, and thinks about their roles as Destined and rather it's a blessing or a curse…
A/N: just another little thing. A few people noticed I didn't include Fate/Destiny under my other fic: Crest's Reflections (go read and review it! I'll worship you if you do!), and with good reason…I planned on turning it into a fic! ^_^ It has nothing really to do with the actual Crest, well not really anyway, but that's where it was inspired from. And this turned out a bit more depressing than I had planned, and actually went in a totally different direction than I was thinking of originally _
Side notes: just so you know, destiny and fate are the same things, but if you wanna get reeeeealy technical, they're not in a few ways. (At least according to my dictionary and thesaurus) but you'll see all that eventually. Also, I have a habit of writing thought in a poemish format (helps me write better), so hope it doesn't confuse people.
Disclaimer: sorry, I still don't own Digimon! I offered them $38(and three cents ^^), my little brother, my pretty indigo swirled pen, and my collection of Digimon plushies (all three of them!), but they turned me away! Can you believe that?! I'll keep trying though! XD One day Digimon will be mine! Watch out yaoi haters and homophobes! * Evil laughter * I do own Shikyomon, even if it was only mentioned briefly. Btw: according to my friend, 'shikyo' is a Japanese word for death, so don't blame me if it's wrong!
Enough notes! On with the fic!
Destiny…
Such an important sounding word
It makes you feel special
Chosen
Which I…we…are really
Chosen out of thousands
Of equally liable kids
But as nice
As the words sounds
It's also a little depressing
Destiny…
It makes it sound like
No matter what happens
We have to keep going
Because we have no choice
Because it's our responsibility
Because we're the only ones that can
Because we have to
Because the consequences of failing
Are just too large to even think about
Fate…
Another word for destiny
And the same meaning
But maybe it's just me
But Fate just seems a bit…
Morbid
Like whatever happens
Can't be changed
Because it was predetermined
It almost like no matter what we do
Nothing will ever change
That we'll just keep fighting
Forever
Because we're the DigiDestined
And the only ones who can stop the evils
But is that really our Fate?
It really seems like that sometimes…
At times
I hate being Chosen
The consequences of it can be too much
And sometimes
The rewards aren't always that great
More like necessary for our survival
As well as two worlds
That's an awfully huge burden to bear
But I think it keeps us going at times
Not for the adrenaline rush and fear in battle
Or for another evolution for our partners
Not even for the relief of finally defeating
A powerful enemy
But for the hope that this battle
Will be the last
That our Destiny is over
Two worlds…
Our Destiny determines
The Fate of both of them
If we screw up
Who will be there to take our place?
While it's nice to think that we're
Irreplaceable
It wouldn't be so great for everyone else
If we ever failed
If the Digital world is parallel to our own
Who knows how many other dimensions
Could suffer because of us…
Our Destiny is to save two worlds
Our Fate seems to be to do this over
And over again
The only way to stop it
Would be to just give up
But when both worlds suffer
We can't just pretend that
We aren't involved
The guilt would be too much
After all
How could we sit there
Listening to people wish that they could
Do something
Anything
To stop the chaos
When we have that power
And let it go to waste?
Destiny…
It's my Destiny to lead this small team
No matter how much they doubt me
My decisions have already cost us
Though I keep telling myself
That it was preordained by Fate
That it would happen
No matter what I chose
Miyako…
Iori…
Jyou…
Sora…
Yamato…
Taichi…
Too many lives gone already
And the battle for both worlds
Is far from over…
I try to think that it is my Destiny
That this couldn't be changed
That without Imperialdramon
The only Mega left
And without me
That the others will be able to pull through
Somehow…
I know they will
But…
I also doubt it
But hey, I am the keeper of Miracles right?
What's the point of having it
If I don't believe myself?
Right now I wonder if being Chosen
Is more of a curse than an honor
But if the others could face their Fates
So can I
I've never been afraid
Of death before
Why start now that it's inevitable?
I stand here now facing the creature
That's already killed so many
And maybe many more…
Unless it's stopped
Shikyomon…
Ironic name really
Wonder if it named itself?
Funny how the mind wanders
In a situation like this
But I guess there's no point on focusing
Imperialdramon is gone…
Veemon is dead now…
But Wormmon got lucky
The others are all unconscious and safe
Behind the barrier generated by my Digimentals
But I already now there's not enough power to save myself as well…
And seeing as I'm the only one awake
I'm its target anyway
Maybe it's better this way
Someone more capable can lead…
Like Takeru
Or maybe even Mimi
I bet she'd do a better job than I ever did
I won't have to worry about making anymore mistakes
Or leading anymore battles
Or constantly worrying about failing…
My Destiny ends here…
Guess it's finally time to meet the Fate
I was so worried about all this time…
~Owari~
That's it! ^^ R&R please! And yes, I know it was a bit confusing (or was it?) but if you have any questions, put them in the review, or e-mail (which I'm more likely to see and reply to quickly). And yes, poor Daisuke is dead T_T