Keep in mind that this story is done from my point of view. That is, from an OC's point of view. This is my take on how Sui-Feng felt and thought and what she did when Yoruichi left. I have a lot of feels for this one, so I hope you like it too. I accept criticism, but flamers are just useless to me.
WARNING: Contains mild swearing, angst and has a lesbian theme. If you don't like that sort of thing, don't read it.
You left her there. You ran and you left her with almost nothing. She would have followed you, had you asked. Would have went with you without so much as a backward glance. You had to have known that she would have followed you to the ends of the earth - all you had to do was ask.
But you didn't.
And she was left alone to wallow in her sorrow and confusion for a hundred years. She believed that you - her center, her entire universe - had betrayed her. That you lied to her and that you used her like a toy. Can you imagine the kind of scar that leaves? Do you have any idea what you've done to her?
A weaker person would have shattered under the pressure to be smarter, stronger - faster. A smaller heart would have burst with the feelings of hurt, betrayal, loneliness and the - whywhywhy?! - but she was strong. She was stronger than you ever thought she was and she persevered - she survived and picked up the pieces of her life as best as she could.
Yet you mock her, battle her all the while thinking that she was okay, that she was doing just fine on her own.
No.
She was not okay, she most definitely was not fine. Her life went up in flames the moment you disappeared without a word. She didn't even have time to properly grieve for the empty spot in her heart before she had to step in and pick up the pieces of the scattered division you left behind.
And god she was just so lost and alone and all she could think was: I can' t do this I can't - why did she leave I thought she loved me whywhywhywhy
Then she tried to forget. She tried to forget your joyful laughs, tried to erase the way you smelled like honey and fresh grass, the way your mouth would curve at the edges in a sweet smile that was for her eyes and for her eyes only.
But everywhere she looked she saw an afterimage of you. Every time she used flash step, she would remember your proud smile and every move she made in battle echoed a little bit of you.
She worked herself to the ground in order to please her superiors. For years the only thing she thought and did was traintraintraintrain. It kept her mind occupied but it failed to please her aching heart.
After 50 years of forgetting and training nearly half of her heart was gone. And all throughout this, she had to become the ideal captain, the one her entire division looked to for orders and guidance and advice and she couldn't do this anymore.
Then, when she was at the bottom of her sorrow, when she couldn't breathe from the pressure of being everything you should have been - she stopped and she realized that you just didn't care.
That you wouldn't come at the last second just as she was shattering to help her come back in one piece. She realized that she had to go on by herself, that she had to pick herself back up or else no one would.
And she raged at the thought that her god, her captain, friend and goddamn lover didn't care about her and was out hiding and slithering around the human world like a fucking snake.
And she would not stand for it. She would not be the plaything that you discarded like a boring well used toy. She would not be victim to your machinations. She will not continue to wallow in sorrow like some fucking weakling.
The hate obliterated everything except the drive to become strong - stronger than you ever were. The absolute loathing she developed just for you had tainted every memory she had of you, it ruined any lingering love she still held onto.
After this, she began to train like she never had before. She changed her fighting style so that it wouldn't resemble yours in the slightest. She followed the rules to a fucking T, she went to every meeting, she did all the goddamn paperwork, she trained her squad - all for the sake of becoming better, all so she could be better than you.
She did all of it in the hopes that the pain and longing in her heart would disappear along with her weaknesses. She'd hoped that by becoming better, she would rise up above you and forget what she'd been trying to for a long time.
She had to forget how much she loved and needed you or she would go insane.
Now do you realize what you've done? How much you've destroyed simply by not asking a simple question,
"Will you come with me, Suì-Fēng?"
Honestly, I think you screwed up royally. You're just lucky that Suì-Fēng was a genuinely strong person and that she could survive that and more. But for your sake, I hope you realize the damage you've done.
But no matter. My opinion will hardly mean anything now will it? When all is said and done, it isn't any of my business, is it?
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