A/N: Thank you again to everyone that like/favorited/reviewed the last story. It's really appreciated! I didn't get a ton of reviews, but I know enough people liked it if it was favorited!

I swear I'm writing out a story with the brothers finding out about Mikey's depression and helping him out. It's in the works, honest! This came to mind while I was reading a part of my story and I had to write it out.

The verb tense is a little all over the place, I know. This is Mikey writing this out while very emotionally strung out and the last thing he is thinking about is proper verb usage. He had enough putting it together so his brothers would understand how he felt. It's basically Mikey's suicide note to his family, so consider yourself warned!

I can't do this. I'm sorry. I can't pretend anymore. I can't be the happy turtle that you all expect me to be. I can't be brave like Leo. I can't be strong like Raph and I definitely can't be brilliant like Donnie.

So maybe it's better for everyone if I just...stopped being.

I tried...I tried so hard to make my talents, if you want to even call them that, be of use in this family and I failed. Cooking and heart aren't things that are of any use. You'll probably think "but who's going to do all the cooking? That was your thing Mikey!" One of you can learn to cook. And if you all suck that badly at it, just order pizzas more often. There. Problem solved.

Clearly, if I was able to answer that question within 10 seconds, it shows how utterly useless I am.

What would we do if Leo wasn't around to guide and take care of us?

What would we do if Raph wasn't around to fight off everyone and get us home safe?

What would we do if Donnie wasn't around to fix and build everything we have?

Those are the questions that are impossible to answer easily.

There wouldn't be anyone that could step up and replace any of you. All of you have things that are vital to the team, and vital to the family that if any of you were to go, everything would just fall apart.

I leave and all you have to do is find a new cook.

I'm sorry Donnie. I'm sorry that I kept asking you to make me all those cool toys and fix everything I broke. Your time is valuable and building stupid toys and rocket powered skateboards isn't something you should spend your time on, and I'm sorry that I wasted it on things like that. I'm sorry I was so selfish in taking up so much of your time.

But, it won't be a problem anymore. Your time won't be wasted anymore by me whining for something "fun" or by me going into your lab and breaking stuff. You'll finally be able to use your time for important and useful things to help everyone out.

By the way, the garbage truck really does look awesome, bro. I don't see where you have touch ups to do in that thing, but that's why your genius and I'm not, right? I'm not smart enough to see the things that need to be done and are incomplete. Stay awesome, Donnie.

I'm sorry Raphie. I'm sorry I'm not stronger. That I'm not bigger. That I'm not...that I'm not like you. I wish I was even just a tiny bit taller and bigger, maybe then you wouldn't have to worry about me all the time and stand with me to keep me safe. All your time was wasted on keeping your runt of a baby brother from getting killed. There I am being selfish again; wasting my big brother's time since he has to keep an eye on me to make sure that the little baby is protected because he's so small.

Your time won't be wasted anymore. You'll be able to do what you want, when you want and however you want to do it because you won't have the little runt around you that you have to keep an eye on and keep safe. You'll also finally have your own room and more space for your stuff.

But, I appreciate everything you've ever done for me. I know we fight sometimes and I get on your nerves a lot, but thank you for being there for me. You'll always be my hero.

Leo….I'm just so sorry. For being useless. For being in the way and ruining your plans…

For being so brainless.

You were right about me. All heart and no brains. That's exactly why, with me gone, you three can go on living like nothing's changed. I never had a brain enough to be able to do anything useful for the family, all I could do was play games and crack lame jokes. You three did practically everything around the house, so it won't even show that I'm not there. If anything, you'll have less things to pick up and clean because I'm not there to make the mess.

I'm sorry I make you worry when I don't listen. I'm sorry I can't sit still and always have to move. I'm sorry that I make you think I don't take things seriously.

I'm sorry that I disappoint you.

I wish I could have done something more around here to make you like me, but I have nothing. All I have is my heart and you hate it. Not that I blame you for hating it. It is pretty useless. You need people on your team that have strength and brains, not someone that jokes around all the time and destroys your plans.

You'll finally have the perfect team, Leo, and your missions will finally be successful. That's about the only useful thing I can do for you; give you a great team by not being in it. I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you. I tried. You say sometimes I don't try hard enough and this time, I really did try. I tried so hard. If that makes you like me even a little, then I'm ok with it.

Sensei….Master Splinter...papa. I think I probably disappointed you most of all. I'm sorry that your youngest child was such a failure. I wish I could have taken just a little bit of each of the guys for myself so it would have made me more needed here. But obviously, I can't do that.

You can focus your lessons on your three sons that can put your training to good use. I couldn't take training seriously enough to your liking sometimes. You didn't have to say anything to me, I could see the disappointment on your face when I cracked a joke during training when you wanted it to be serious.

I'm sorry I disturbed your training sessions, Sensei. Everyone was always so stern and serious that I just wanted to lighten everyone's mood and have them relax. I honestly apologize for my behaviour.

I'm also sorry that I was a failure as a son, papa. Your other children all do things that are important to the family and to themselves, while your baby does nothing. Leo trains, Donnie builds and Raph lifts weights to be stronger. I play video games and fly on a skateboard.

You clearly got the crappy leftovers with me, and I'm sorry I can't do more for you and for everyone.

All I can do is this. I guess the expression "thinning out the herd" might work here. The weak ones get picked off so that the strongest can keep going. I won't be taking up space anymore or eating all the food or wasting everyone's time, so I think that applies here the best.

Goodbye everyone. Please don't think that I don't love you by doing this. I just knew I had nothing to offer here anymore and didn't want to take up anymore space and time then I already have. You guys are going to kick some ass now without me holding you back and I'll be cheering you on from wherever I may end up after this.

I love you all,

Mikey

A/N #2: Mikey calling Splinter papa in the 2012 cartoon was both the cutest/saddest thing I've seen. I had to put Mikey calling him that here, I refuse to let that one go.

I've asked this before, but please review? I know I said above that I know people like it if they favorited, but I'm not sure if enough do to keep going with this, wherever it may lead.

Thanks for reading!