12 years, 10 months, 4 days
Journaling is stupid. I'm only doing it because it's required.
12 years, 10 months, 8 days
Hiyori talked to me because of the journaling project. Note: Journal more.
12 years, 10 months, 9 days
That's how long I've been alive, so that every day I can cheer to myself that I've struggled through another twenty four hours of mankind's stupidity. Like how they assign journaling projects.
12 years, 10 months, 11 days
Hiyori is dead.
12 years, 11 months, 22 days
Met a weirdo named Momo today. Bumped into her at a park and wound up getting dragged all over the place. She's blonde and old and an airhead. Hiyori was better.
12 years, 11 months, 25 days
Momo found me. Don't know how. Got forced into karaoke. Help.
12 years, 11 months, 26 days
Momo asked why I'm so depressed. I'm not depressed. No matter what the therapist says.
12 years, 11 months, 30 days
Therapist found journal, gave it back but knows what to look for to find it at later date. Never writing again.
13 years.
Therapist has wonderful timing. Got new journal for birthday. First entry in celebration of 13 years of survival among idiots. Maybe I'll doodle in the margins.
13 years, 3 days
Why am I still keeping a journal? Don't have an assignment anymore. Got lifted when Hiyori died. Teacher pitied me. Wanted to see her in red.
13 years, 5 days
Met a ghost yesterday, all dressed up in white. Rejected vocaloid. Sleepy voice. Hand went right through me. Hm.
13 years, 6 days
Starting to sink in- I met a ghost.
13 years, 7 days
Ghost exists. Talked with it. Name is Konoha. Does Hiyori have a ghost?
13 years, 8 days
She doesn't.
13 years, 11 days
Only people with lots of regrets get ghosts. Hiyori was too little for lots of regrets. No, not too little. I'd be a ghost.
13 years, 12 days
Konoha regrets leaving his best friends. I think one was more than a best friend. Not sure which.
13 years, 14 days
Parents can't see Konoha, apparently. Was forced to sit through an extra therapy session to deny that I had ever said anything about him. Therapist can't see him either.
13 years, 19 days
Konoha is everywhere. I go to school, he follows. I go home, he does too. I sleep, he waits for me to wake up. Does that mean he's my friend?
13 years, 20 days
I'm friends with a ghost. Must be doubly sure that therapist never finds this.
13 years, 22 days
Feeling awful. Sniffly. Konoha tries to help, but he just passes through everything, so it's not that useful.
13 years, 23 days
Still awful.
13 years, 24 days
Still awful.
13 years, 25 days
Still awful, but sitting inside of Konoha. Sounds really freaky, but it's warm, so I'm not complaining.
13 years, 26 days
Still awful, but getting better.
13 years, 27 days
Almost normal. Staying home for 24 hour post-fever requirement. Konoha likes cartoons.
13 years, 28 days
Went back to school. Couldn't concentrate. Konoha trying to pick up a marker to write on the whiteboard. Hilarious.
13 years, 30 days
Konoha succeeded in writing his name today. A bit freaked out. Class went nuts. Trying to get him to write in journal. Scribbles in the margins are his.
13 years, 1 month, 1 day
Konoha being droopy. Won't answer when I ask why.
13 years, 1 month, 4 days
One of his old friends died. She's stuck haunting the hospital for a week. He's upset that his other friend is all alone now. Other friend was definitely more than friend.
13 years, 1 month, 5 days
Against better judgement, snuck into hospital and met dead friend. Dead friend called Konoha 'Haruka.' Konoha called her Takane, but she said she was Ene. Am confused, but going along with it.
13 years, 1 month, 6 days
Talked more with Takene. Calling her Takene because I haven't figured out which name is right yet. Prickly person. Reminds me of Hiyori. Hiyori still better.
13 years, 1 month, 7 days
Have been found again by Momo and am struggling to write and be hauled around the city simultaneously.
Update: Have met Momo's friends, Kido and Mary. Kido is scary. Mary is squeaky. Did not hide behind Momo.
Update: Have accidentally missed therapy session. Sent to room because parents flipped. Konoha missing.
13 years, 1 month, 8 days
Am grounded. Konoha is back. Not talking to me. Trying to get story. Hold on.
Update: No progress. Watching cartoon.
13 years 1 month, 9 days
Other Friend Who Was More Than Friend has committed suicide and left no ghost. Going with Konoha to hospital after school to sit with Takane and grieve.
Update: Never made it to hospital. Stopped at the door by Mom and grounding was enforced.
13 years, 1 month, 11 days
Grounding lifted. Konoha still moping. Making trip to hospital.
Update: Hospital was miserable. Takene's week is up, though, so she can go places now. Hope to God she doesn't come here.
13 years, 1 month, 12 days
Have reason to believe Momo has planted a tracking device on my person. Am ensuring Konoha comes along on this. Note: Momo seems different.
13 years, 1 month, 13 days
Konoha marginally less droopy. Counts as progress.
13 years, 1 month, 14 days
Met two more of Momo's friends. Seto, aka Froggy, and Kano, aka Froggy's Boyfriend. Everyone Momo knows is weird. Momo still acting strange, but Momo's friends work effectively as Konoha Therapy.
13 years, 1 month, 15 days
Whoa.
13 years, 1 month, 16 days
Momo is Other Friend Who Was More Than Friend's sister. Explains droopiness. Wish Konoha had mentioned sooner. Can commiserate with Momo now. Much better than spilling to therapist. Not that I tell her anything true anyway. Calls herself Child Psychologist, but that's crap. No understanding of how I work.
13 years, 1 month, 17 days
Konoha still weepy, but talking more. Am observing Momo more closely and noticing tears that don't fall. Will endeavor not to notice anymore, because it makes me want to cry too.
Note: Keeping journal secret from therapist is now extremely high priority. Would remove previous information, but have written in pen and scribble-outs would ruin the paper.
13 years, 1 month, 18 days
Going out for ice cream and bringing Konoha along.
Update: tried to hold his hand. Shockingly, worked. Could make his hand solid enough to hold. Still invisible, though. Got strange looks. Didn't care.
13 years, 1 month, 19 days
Slipped up and mentioned Takene to therapist. Save me.
13 years, 1 month, 20 days
Therapist on the warpath. Help.
13 years, 1 month, 21 days
Have decided that journaling is no longer worth the risk of recorded emotions being discovered. Will have Konoha hide journal. He can pick things up now, apparently.
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21 years, 6 months, 4 days
Remember this old thing. Was pretty messed up as a kid, wasn't I? All tsun and no dere. Whatever. Suppose this deserves a proper finish, since I'm probably going to lose it or toss it or something.
Dredged this up while packing to move out of parents' house. Konoha hid it under the bed. Figures. Amazing it was never found in 8 years, but life is life.
Konoha still here. Hasn't really changed with time. Relationship has changed, though. A lot. Being in love with a ghost is weird.
Must now burn this journal.
Konoha moving with me. Still not sure why I can see him, but theory involves destiny and love. Will not repeat it due to sap factor.
Am moving close to Froggy and Froggy's me be fairly close to Momo as well. Wish me more luck.
My love to Hiyori, wherever she is.
My love to Konoha, here now.
Journal of Hibiya Amamiya- End
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Sorry about the abrupt ending. I couldn't seem to think of what else to put XP
Gift for Sal The Happs Dude.