I Never Meant To.

This was it finally I would be no more. I did something stupid. I made a mess of every thing again already. I never meant to, I only wanted to help. North was getting ready for Christmas but his hat was mssing and I went to get it. I accidentaly collided into a Yeti carrying some boxes full of toys for the sleigh and I tripped him. The toys fell and broke on the floor, only a few hours before North's leave too. I never meant to, I only wanted to help.

The Guardians came crashing into the corridor and instantly Bunny thought the worst, he thought I did it on purpose... Thought that I betrayed them... Again.

"Oi ya little show pony. Quit making North's job harder than it already is. Get outta here until North comes back so ya dont make a bigger mess than you already have. Your no better than Pitch."

I never meant to, but I guess that its true that I make a mess of everything. The others didn't try to deny it, except for an unnoticed Sandy. I did as Bunny said and got out of there barely covering my tears through the closest window and off to Antartica.

Looking towards the structure Pitch and I made back in Easter I realised that this was all just one big overlived dream. I broke off an icicle from the structure and carved into my left arm 'Im sorry I never meant to' and proceeded to jam the icicle into my chest, hoping that the nightmare sand will kill me. At least now I wont be a burden, now I wont a mess of things, the Guardians will be free of me.

And now I sit here waiting to die out. Can you imagine me- the Guardian of fun- committing suicide, but I felt no pain, in fact for the first time in three hundred years I felt warm. I guess I should have thought things through first. I mean what about Jamie and my other believers. I never meant to hurt them and I know they will be... But its too late now.

I just felt as if I didn't belong, its been less than a year since the battle with Pitch and nothing really improved, sure I had believers but things were still the same. I barely saw the Guardans and when I did, it never went well.

With Bunny we only argued.

Tooth only seemed to care for my teeth.

Sandy sent me to sleep because of his dreamsand.

And North became busy with Christmas.

My vision finally became blurry after what seemed like hours and it was then I saw one of Bunny's holes pop up in the ground. My only thought being that he has come to shout at me more...

"Crickey Frostbite... Jack? Jack can you hear me?"

I used the last of my strength to show him my arm and hoped that I managed to tell him one last thing 'Im sorry for every thing, keep the children safe' but I'll never know as in that second my worl officially went black... Forever.