Autor's Note/Disclaminer
I do not own BBC's Sherlock. Also, please note that English writing is not my mother's tongue. I live in UK and I speaks in BSL (British Signing Language). If you see any errors, wrong spelling or inaccurate grammar, please do not hesitant to message me. I would be happy to change it and learn in new way of correct English grammar. I am still learning.
On the other note, please point it out if you finds in Sherlock and John's speaking patterns are inaccurate. Believe me, Sherlock is the harder for me to understand him. I never understand anything about police/detective stuffs. So I made him as simplified speaking pattern.
Thank you for your help. Enjoy this fanfiction.
A slightly warning
This fanfiction will talk about Sherlock's Major depressive disorder, Borderline personality disorder (includes self-harm), Schizophrenia and Emotional disorders and John tries his best to support him and understand him as much as he can.
This fiction will affects your disorders when you read it. For example, when you read Sherlock's self-harm, you might say to yourself: "Oh, that's me!" then it gives you a sadness thought about it. This is not my responsibility to stop you there to leads yourself in this situation but I also have an responsibility to given it out a warning to you, for your life's sake. I ask you please to stop there to read it continue and have a break and think of positive, for example, listen to positive music or talk to people. I always have a break from writing because I am also depressed, so I need a time off and leave it and will continue a new story in the few weeks later or even a month. Please forgive me if it affects you when you read it.
Why I write this story?
Before you ask me any questions regarding this story, I have decided to tell you why I have to write this story. Well, first I created two stories of It is gonna be alright and Copying with the Life , basically, it is about when John died, Sherlock has moved on and see how he was cope with it, through his distressed and depression, and in the end he has a positive future. I have not thought about Sherlock's future yet, however, I was thinking about creating a squeal story. About before John died in the Army and had a long and difficult adventure with Sherlock. This will be series of story, not completed, because I feel people have the right to know what's happened to their adventures a way before John's death. And I cannot write after John's death, through 5 years, of what's happened to Sherlock. It will be even more depressing and sadness. You will know what's happened. Just think; drugs, abuses himself, etc. So I have to dismiss this story. Believe me, it is not even a nice story either. Anyway, I thought about Sherlock and John's lives adventures. Then, I created Sherlock as gloomy characteristics and John as supportive characteristics. To me, if Sherlock were in bad situation, John would be a best figure to help him out, as a doctor. Although, when I was watching the offical BBC's Sherlock series, I could see John can be a bit irreverent when it comes to Sherlock's bad attitude. I never seen Sherlock as depressed there yet, so I would not know about John's reaction by this. I created a new character in John as supportive. Sometimes I know John can be difficult to understand Sherlock because of Sherlock's unknown disorder that I could not figure it out yet, I mean, from BBC's. So I made this story. Not just the fun, but for understanding of what it means for the serious dangerous disorders. I also study these kinds of disorders.