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Patiently
It was all in the eyes. One moment there was a spark and then nothing. Why did he cover his eyes again? Why did he have to put a lens in front of the world? Why could he not let his feeling show to the one that mattered the most to him? Why? Merlin sobbed silently as the tears that he had hidden so long threatened to fall. He left the room as there was no point being there. No one would ever understand his feelings. No one ever cared. So he decided to go to the forest.
The trek to the lake took a long time and he was glad that here at least he could cry in peace. He could not show his feelings to anyone. Who would understand?
The secrets the lies that he had bottled down for so long were now a blur, wanting release but could not get. Every time something happened he wondered if that would be the last thing he ever did.
His destiny was so certain, but the path was strange. No one could show him the way that he had to find out for himself. Sometimes he thought that the dragon was wrong, there was in reality no destiny, and it was just a joke. But when he saw Arthur, he knows that destiny was the reason he was here. Then why did it hurt so much? Why did it matter that Arthur did not care for him, treated him just like the servant he though Merlin was
"A day will come when I will be able to tell him that I am not a fool" Merlin thought and turned to wait patiently for that day.