This is my first one-shot ^.^ so please tell me if i did well or what i should fix!
Fear. Pain. And loneliness.
That's all his small world consists of.
And I'm powerless to do anything about it.
It hurts.
It hurts to know I can't take his pain away, put his fears to rest, or even simply be there for him.
All I can do is watch.
Watch as he cries himself to sleep.
Wonders if his parents ever loved him like the third knows we did or if he's just protecting him from some horrible truth that we abandoned him at the hospital for being born the monster many believe him to be but I know he isn't.
No matter how much I will it, my phantom lullabies will never reach his ears; nor will my whispers of reassurance that i-we love him so much.
How is this a peaceful after life?
Am I in some sort of hell? Put here to suffer for an indefinite amount of time?
As terrible as this may sound…sometimes I just can't help but hate you Minato…
It's only for fleeting moments but still…
Sometimes I can't stop myself from thinking you took the cowards way out, choosing spend an eternity in the shinigami's stomach where your ignorant to the kind of life you left our son to live.
I didn't want to make him a jinchuriki, but you put the village before your own family.
…not that you were wrong, it's the duty of every kage.
But I still sometimes I can't help but resent you for it.
It makes me angry to know that even without him knowing your his father he admires you, while he doesn't have the slightest clue as to what I look like; he doesn't even know my name.
I can't make my anticipation for the day that our son finds out what you-his father!-did to him, disappear.
I'm sorry minato…
Aren't I selfish?