I looked down at our joined hands. For as long as I can remember, it's been this way between us. We've always just fit, slotted together like two perfectly formed puzzle pieces.
Pinkies linked we entered the school, like Moses parting the red sea of students, en route to our lockers. I glanced at the other WHMS students as we continued our path, as usual no one dared approach us, two of the most powerful seniors in this place.
Coming to a stop, I looked to my right at her. She was smiling, though that was nothing out of the ordinary. It's her eyes that have always captivated me, she steals my attention in an instant, flashing those oceans my way.
"Sanny" she says, breaking me from my reverie.
"Sorry B, need a hand?" I responded, embarrassed to have been caught lingering in her eyes.
Without waiting for any coherent response, I lent over and popped open her locker, scooped out her books and passed them over, I then did the same for myself. Ready for the day, we strode to our first glee session of the day, yes the first or two today - who knew a singing club needed such regular meetings!
Passing students left and right, I couldn't help but notice how many we're looking at her, lust evident in their teenage eyes. It's not like it had to be this way, but they couldn't know how much I wanted her to be mine. But they don't, because I still can't do it, I'm just not right for her, she could do better than anything I can offer her.
We took our usual seats in the back of the choir room, immersed in the chattering of those around us. Some turned to Britt to chat, as ever the radiant beauty lit up the room from where she sat, bringing that ray of sunshine she so often does into others lives.
Captivated though I was, I couldn't help but notice a pair of eyes looking my way from the row in front. Quinn. She knew, well, she knew something was up. Unfortunately it wasn't in the girl's nature to just let things drop.
"S" Quinn says.
"Q" I respond in kind, irked.
"We need to talk, now, bathroom." She said, leaving the room. It wasn't a request, so much as an order.
I sighed, looked to my right to see Britt still chatting away, pushed myself out of the solid, red plastic chair and sauntered my way to the closest bathroom, lord knows if I'm being summoned by her I'm going to take my sweet time getting there.
"Why am I here Q" I said as I entered the otherwise empty room " if you weren't head cheerleader I wouldn't be here"
"Whatever Santana" I know she isn't one to be intimated. " what's up with you and Britt, have you sorted yourself out yet?"
"What are you talking about Quinn" I knew what she was insinuating, but I couldn't let down my guard so easily, it's never easy.
"S, it's been going on for so long, we're half way through our senior year. It's now or never, I get it, it's hard" I scoffed, like she would know its hard. "But it's your happiness, and more importantly her happiness at stake. You love her S, be with her already"
That struck home, right in the heart. Britt's happiness Is the thing I've spent the larger portion of my life concerned with. "Quinn" i said, solemnly "I can't, I'm not what she deserves, she deserves a knight in shining armour to come in and sweep her off her feet, not some bitch"
"It's you S, she doesn't want anyone else. You're a bitch, to everyone but her. Who protects her when when others pick on her? Who helps her when she needs someone? Who has always supported her? S, it's you, it's always been you!" Quinn replied, exasperated.
Apparently I'd underestimated what Quinn knew, I felt vulnerable and exposed, so turning on my heel, I hightailed it out of the bathroom and back to the choir room.
Pausing in the door way I looked over at her. She seemed to notice my presence, and I watched as that smile, the one she reserves for me, her best friend, etched its way onto her beautiful face.
Its not controllable, I've tried believe me, I can't help it, I never have been able to, I'm completely in love with this girl.
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