I wish I own this anime...But no such luck... Please excuse me for my lousy grammar and comment me if you like... Enjoy the story...LavixKanda...

Time is like a weightless burden

I don't remember how long exactly it had been since I left something called heart behind. It was left behind quite unwillingly but somehow, brain always gets its way and wins. Always.

I travel around the world to witness history and events, listen to stories and gain knowledge. That is my one and only job and I have to do it well. My master taught me many things. I can speak, read and write in languages more then the ten fingers in my hands. I can read a four hundred page book in slightly more then two hours. I memorize everything I see, not to mention everything I read and hear. I never forget. It used to be a good thing, but now with all my heart, I wish I could forget.

My name is Lavi. I'm the Junior Bookman.

I ran and ran and ran but why am I still here?

I think it was five years ago, I came to this place called Black Order. Somehow I could control and use Innocence, I became an exorcist. I was only about thirteen that time. There was only one reason why my master and I came and that is to witness history.

This guy named Lavi, which is the 49th me is a cheerful guy who is always up to mischief. He is sweet and kind and loved by everyone. Well, almost.

The first mission I got was with this guy. Not just any guy but a beautiful guy who is easily mistaken as a girl. He has long silky black hair that was tied up in a high pony tail and straight bangs that lay just below his eyebrows, cold deep sapphire blue eyes and skin as pale and smooth like milk. Just like a pretty doll. You might think he's the perfect guy, like a doll should but think again. He was and still is the most cold hearted person I've ever met in my life.

"Che"

That was the word he greeted me with when we first met. It took me the rest of my life to figure out what language that was but I never found out.

"Hi miss, my name is Lavi." I remembered I held out my hand to shake his but all I received was dangerous eyes glint back at me angrily.

"Miss?" he spat at my face, frowning.

Oo-kay. I don't understand.

"Oh, are you married then or you prefer to be called madam?" I asked sliding further away from him in the seat of the moving train.

In a mere second, before I even have the time to blink my eye, a shiny long samurai sword was pointing dangerously at me. My heart nearly failed as I tried to make my brain function and do something before I get killed by this dangerously beautiful creature.

"I'm not a woman." He muttered under his breathe angrily.

Oh.

I sat there gapping like a retarded gold fish as he sank back to his seat opposite me and sheath his sword. Then he turned his beautiful face to the window and looked out, totally pissed off.

He was a man. A very strong one too and his personality and behavior amuses me. I stopped gapping and grinned at him.

He eyes narrowed and frowned deeper.

"What are you smiling at." He asked clearly annoyed.

"You of course." I grinned wider.

"Che" he rolled his eyes and turned back starring out his window.

"Baka Usagi." He cursed under his breathe.

Say what?

And hence, the start of my stupid rabbit career.

The mission was the most terrible week of my life. Not only I was stuck with this insanely beautiful, anti-social guy, he called me "baka usagi" every time he talks to me. Which wasn't often though but enough to make me feel depress. Which part of me looks like a rabbit anyway?

When we were finally on our way back to Black Order, this amusing guy sat opposite me as usual starring out the window.

"What's so interesting out there?" I asked trying to break the silence for a bit.

No reply.

"What's your name?" I tried again, smiling my famous fake smile at him.

He turned to look at me.

"Don't use that smile on me, it doesn't work.' He said his face empty.

Ouch. He can tell.

I laughed. "So, what is your name?" I asked again.

"Che, none of your business."

"Aww, don't be mean. I told you mine so tell me yours." I pouted at him.

He looked at me with disgust.

"I didn't even ask."

Another ouch.

"Why are you cold? Your words are hurting my poor fragile heart." I said without thinking, acting hurt.

He growled. Yeah, he really did growled.

"Stay away from me."

No mistake, he was indeed the most cold hearted person in the world.

"What's so great about his name anyway, I was just trying to be friendly-"I sulk and started muttering darkly to myself then lay my body down on the long cushioned bench with my back to him.

"I just want to be a friend, not a fiend but he's so cold-"I continued finding it more and more interesting when I heard another growl from his direction.

"I thought I was a nice guy, but he in particular dislike me and-"

"Would you shut up already?" he finally yelled after a whole ten minutes listening to me muttering darkly to myself with my back facing him.

I turned around, acting surprised.

"I wasn't even talking to you." I said innocently and I wished I had never said those words.

In a split second, Mugen (the name of his sword) was at my throat pressing dangerously against my skin.

Shit.

The raven haired guy looked at me with such annoyance and hatred; I just sat there and once again gap at him.

"Come on, put that thing away. I was only joking." I said nervously inching away, only to be pressed down harder.

I put my hands up to surrender

"Okay, okay, I'll shut up, just put that thing away." My voice was shaky.

After a long minute, he growled one last time at my face then sank back to his seat, the sword still in his hand looking shiny and threatening.

I let out a breathe that I didn't realized I was holding.

Peace was restored and we sat in silence for a long time, me humming a little tune to myself from time to time.

A pair of deep icy blue eyes tore its gaze from the window to look at me and mumbled something.

"What? I didn't get that." I said grinning at him.

"Che"

Oh, that again.

"I said," he looked annoyed. "My name is Kanda."

"Kanda? Kanda what?" I asked automatically.

"Yuu Kanda." He replied shortly.

"Oh!" I hooted. "Yuu-chan! What a nice name."

"Don't call me by my given name, you idiot." He glared at me angrily.

"But Yuu-chan sounds so nice." I wailed dramatically.

The train slowed down to a crawl. We had arrived at our destination, the Black Order.

Suddenly, he shouted really loud in frustration making me jump. He stood up abruptly and got off the train.

"Yuu-chan! Wait!" I called after him but he stalked off angrily leaving me behind. Even his back looked angry. I chuckled to myself, what an interesting guy.

His name is Yuu Kanda. We were thirteen and he is my best friend.

I'm just like a clown who hides his feelings but eyes betray.

I can't remember when it started. I began to eat lunch with this cold-hearted creature.

He always asks me to go away yet again and again I return. Just like a faithful dog.

"Man, you're so stubborn." I told him one day while eyeing him eating his soba slowly.

"Look who's talking." He replied coldly. His hair always looked tidy in the high pony tail of his. Sometimes, my hands itch to touch those long dark silk but I don't want to risk my life, at least, not yet.

I stared at him, my chin propped up in my hand.

How can someone so cold look so beautiful?

"You're starring holes through me." he grumbled without looking up from his food.

I laughed.

"Yuu-chan actually notices me." I sang happily.

He looked up at me, a dangerous glint in his eyes but did not say anything. On days like that, Yuu actually let me to be close to him, even if it's just for a tiny bit.

Everything is nothing when nothing is everything.

I saw myself. I was twelve. I was running, as hard as I can. As a bookman, I was paying my price.

Souls of the dead were right behind me, chasing me. I run and run and run 'till me legs gave off beneath me and I fell into a deep pool of mud and blood.

I was scared; I tried to blink away the tears that were blurring my vision. I turned around, the souls were getting close. I have to get away fast.

With all my strength, I tried to pull myself up but fail. Again and again I try but my legs felt like it doesn't belong to me anymore. Soon all the souls were close. I saw their bodies were all twisted in weird angles that no human being is capable of doing.

They grabbed my legs and started pulling. Panic rise and fear ripped my soul open. I opened my mouth to scream but there was no sound. It's only me against the world.

Breathe caught my throat, my eyes fluttered open to see pitch black all around me. I was breathing hard like I had just finished running five laps in the field. I looked down and my hands, all the mud and blood gone.

The souls were no longer tugging my feet. I looked around at the black space and saw grey shapes that looked like my desk, then my closet.

I let out a breathe. It was only a dream.

My forehead was covered with cold sweat and my hands were cold and wouldn't stop shivering.

I lay there for a long time, afraid to close my eyes again. Slowly, I got off my bed. In the darkness, I walked towards the door and let myself out to the cold and silent corridor.

My feet made no sound against the stone floor as I made my way towards the last door at the end of the corridor.

You lift my mask to take a look at the real me and ask me to stop hiding.

I knocked softly on the thick wooden door. My hands were still shaking and it wouldn't stop. I wonder if he heard me.

After a few minutes of waiting, I knocked again. Louder this time and the sound echoed through the empty corridors reminding me the hollow cried of the souls.

Please open the door.

I heard light footsteps slowly made its way to the door then paused.

I waited.

The door creaked open. An angel with long black hair that fall loosely around him looked at me with his cold deep sapphire blue eyes.

His perfect features gazed at me for awhile then he frowned.

"Its 2 am in the morning, Lavi." He stated quietly.

I smiled, more like tried to. I can't go back to my room; the dreams would hunt me again.

"I know it's late but can I come in for just awhile?"

"No," he said without even considering.

"Aww, Yuu-chan. Don't be mean now." I pouted at him.

"Che, go back to your room Lavi, it's late." He said and started to close the door.

Desperate, I held the door.

"Come on Yuu-chan, I mean no harm." I said, more like pleading. He looked at me with no emotion on his face.

"What is wrong with you?" he asked looking annoyed.

"I don't know." I answered truthfully.

He sighed then looked at me.

"Go find Allen or somebody else, they would be happy to have you."

Have you ever thought that I don't want to with them but you?

He narrowed his eyes and caught my hands shaking then growled and shut the door.

I stared at the wooden door for a long time.

"I came here because I want to find you, not them." I said softly without thinking.

After a long minute, I turned away feeling totally devastated. Slowly, I made my way back to my room. Then suddenly I heard a door slam open. I turned around surprised to see him standing outside his room in his blue and white stripped pajamas and white slippers.

I frowned.

He growled.

"You can come in if you want to." He finally said grudgingly.

Really?

I turned and smiled then ran up to him and gave him a hug.

"AHH! Baka Usagi!" he yelled trying to shake me off.

"Shh" I put my finger on my lips.

"Don't wake the neighbors up." I smiled at him.

He looked at me, catching my eyes. Sapphire blue eyes saw right through me.

"Don't act happy around me." he said coldly.

He can see.

My smile fell as he continued to watch me coldly. Abruptly, he turned around and walked right back into his room. He held the door waiting for me. I followed after a few moments.

Yuu-chan's room contains nothing that reflexes his personality. There was only a closet, a dresser, a head to toe mirror, a study desk and his bed.

And oh, I almost forgot. His precious hour glass that contains lovely pink lotus petals was set on his empty desk.

After I closed the door behind me, I found myself being pressed against the cold hard wall by him.

His eyes once again glint dangerously in the darkness.

"You better have a good explanation for making me awake in the middle of the night and it's all your fault that I'm so stupid right now for letting a stupid rabbit into my room." He said coldly, his voice low.

I looked back at him in the eye. I was tired of acting too, so I did not smile.

After a long time of starring, he finally looked away and took a step back and sighed. He covered his face with his hand as though he was tired.

My lips tugged into a sad smile.

His beautiful long hair cascade around him prettily and shone softly under the pale moonlight from the window. His pale milky skin framed by straight nose, rosy lips and eyes the shade of the dark evening sky.

Somewhere along the way, my heart came back to me.

We stood there awkwardly 'till he finally went over to his bed and pulled his sheets over his head, acting as though I didn't exist anymore.

Typical Yuu-chan.

I saw his hair spread messily on his pillow, like someone had just accidentally spilled ink there. I smiled.

After a few minutes, he suddenly jumped out of his bed and saw me hadn't move and inch from the spot where he left me.

"You can take the bed." He said shortly and grabbed a pillow then set it down on the floor.

"Yuu-chan actually cares for me." I said happily but sincerely.

"But its okay, I can take the floor, no problem at all."

"No." he snapped and lay down, part of his hair fell off the pillow to the floor.

I sighed and walked to the bed and lay down. Everything smelled like Yuu, even the thick blanket.

I watched him there on the floor, the pale moonlight shining on him from the window.

It's really rare that he would be so nice to me. He would usually kick me out without a second thought. Well, he did actually but he pulled me back. Yuu never fails to amaze me.

I feel cold even under this thick blanket. I bet he's cold too.

"Yuu-chan." I called softly.

No reply.

"Yuu-chan."

No reply.

"Yuu-chan." I called again.

He groaned under his breathe.

"What?" his voice sounded muffled in the pillow.

"It's cold down there."

"Leave me alone." He said, his back still facing me.

From the bed, I saw him shivered. Only slightly though. I sighed.

"Why are you so stubborn all the time?" I asked getting off the bed quietly and walked towards him.

"Che, look who's talk- ah!" I held his arm then hoist him up. He was lighter then I expected.

"What are you doing? You lousy rabbit." He grumbled, surprised by my action. We stood there and starred at each other, my hand still on his arm.

My heart missed a beat.

I hope you guys enjoyed it so far, I think it's a little boring at first but keep reading!! Next chapter coming right up..