"What do you mean you are moving in with Will, Christina?"

"Look, Tris, I know you and I said we would live together when we finally got our own apartments but Will asked me if I wanted to share a place with him and I really want to. I'm not sure where our relationship is going but I want to give this a shot. Really, I thought you would be somewhat happy about this because now you have an excuse to move in with Four."

"Christina, we don't really have that kind of relationship and we haven't even talked about it. I was really looking forward to getting out of the dorms and moving in with you."

"Well, sorry to disappoint you. You know, Will and I don't have that kind of relationship either … yet. Hey, you never know. Besides, just because you live with someone doesn't mean you have to have sex. There are other ways to occupy your time together." The fact that Christina said this followed by a wink makes me madder than I had been before.

"Umm…that's not at all what I was talking about. I really don't want to hear about what you and Will do behind closed doors."

"Tris, don't be such a prude. Don't you want to get over this fear of yours sooner rather than later?"

"I think we are getting off topic here. So, am I officially without a roommate," I asked as I was getting increasingly more annoyed with her.

"Your intimacy issues are too on topic. Isn't that why you don't want to move in with Four? And yes, you are officially without me as a roommate."

"Look, I don't want to be roommates with Four because it seems a bit fast and strange. What am I supposed to do, just ask him if he wants to share his apartment but stipulate that sex will not be part of the arrangement?"

"You guys love each other right? I'm sure you will make it all work. I have to go. I didn't pack all of my stuff yesterday and I don't have much time today. Will I see you at the party later?

"Yeah, I will be there."

I watched as Christina left the cafeteria and sigh outwardly. What am I going to do now? Do I want to live with Tobias? I'm afraid that it will bring all of my/our issues to the forefront and they will constantly be getting in the way. Who am I kidding, they get in the way constantly now. Every time we even start to get close I panic and push away. I do want to deal with my fears but I don't know if this is the best way to do it. Well, I have to figure something out because I currently don't have a roommate or a place to live.

"Good morning," Tobias said as he sits at the table across from me. "What's wrong?"

"Hey. How are you? I was surprised when I didn't see you down here earlier."

"Yeah, I had to help finalize all the paperwork on the new members. You didn't tell me what's wrong though. Why are you avoiding my question, Tris," Tobias said while smirking and taking a bite out of his muffin.

"Christina told me that she and Will are going to share an apartment now that we are moving out of the dorms. We can start moving out today."

"I think I'm missing the part where that is a problem."

"It's not really a problem. It's just that Christina and I were planning on rooming together, that's all. So, now that she has switched things up, I'm left without my friend as a roommate." I stare down at my hands while I say this because I don't want to watch Tobias's reaction. I don't know why this feels so awkward.

"Tris? Tris, look at me."

I lift my head to look at Tobias. He regards me with an emotion in his eyes that I can't quite place. Is it hope, fear? I'm not sure.

"You could move in with me, if you wanted to."

I just stare at him. What do I say to that? I could tell him no, and then watch the disappointment written all over his face or maybe I would see relief. Why is he even suggesting it? Is he asking because he wants me to move in or because he thinks that's what I want and he doesn't want to hurt my feelings? If I do move in with him, will he expect things out of me? What if I can't get over my fear and be with him in the way he wants? Will he think it's a waste living with me? As the wheels in my head keep spinning, Tobias reaches out his hand and takes ahold of mine.

"Tris, what are you thinking about? It looks like you are having a war inside your head," he said with a sheepish grin on his face. "Talk to me."

I look at our entwined hands as I answer him. "I don't know. Do you want me to move in with you?" My voice is barely above a whisper.

I can see his shoulders shrug in response to my question. "I want whatever makes you happy. It's no big deal."

Something about the way he says this isn't convincing. Perhaps it's the way his voice seemed to tighten as he spoke or the way his shoulders went rigid when he was done. I hate that I am the cause of his uneasiness when it comes to any subject that relates back to my fear. "Now you aren't answering the question." I smile as I continue to talk after recalling how he caught me earlier in my omission of what was wrong. "Do you want me to move in with you?"

As he looks intently in my eyes, holding my hand, I brush circles on his hand with my thumb, willing him to tell me how he feels. He sighs and says, "yes, I want you to move in with me. I don't want to pressure you though." I can see his insecurity and apprehension as he continues his explanation in a quick succession. "This doesn't change anything, I promise. I won't pressure you into anything you don't want to do and if you aren't comfortable with it, we don't have to move in together. It really is no big deal." He smiles at this last statement realizing the absurdity of it. "It was nice when you stayed over before and I would like more of that. I want to get to know you better and be with you always."

My heart melted at this confession and in that moment, I couldn't imagine anywhere I would rather live than with Tobias. "Okay, let's do this."