This one's been bugging me for a while. What was L thinking when he watched Light with the magazines? Hrmm?

Major thanks to Uniasus, for editing, and for pointing out that this story really doesn't make sense... but seeing as I'm incredibly lazy, instead of changing it, I'm just going to say it's AU. L and Light have met already, or L somehow knows enough about Light to feel jealous.

:)

I own nothing. And it's slash (Do I really write anything but?).

Jealousy.

After careful examination, I have finally identified this emotion; I am jealous of those women in the magazine, though it is unsettling to admit. I wish to be the one, and the only one, Light looks at. Which is a completely ridiculous thought that should not even be acknowledged. I should be concentrating on the Kira case and on interpreting Light's actions, watching and waiting carefully for him to slip up. If I give less than my full attention to the task, I could miss a vital clue.

Of course, my mind has always been impossible to control.

I realize that I need to talk to someone about these strange feelings. If they get in the way of the investigation, I could be a liability to the others. Unfortunately, the only person nearby is the boy's father. This hardly seems like a suitable topic for discussion, especially when the man is nearly having an aneurysm. He is as amazed as I am by Light's choice in reading material, and is currently asking me for my thoughts on the situation.

I find I cannot tear my gaze from the monitor but my mouth has begun to operate on it's own, responding to Soichiro's question, "This seems to be perfectly natural behavior for a 17 year old male. Normally, this would not be cause for worry, Yagami-san. However... It seems as though this is a scheme to make him seem like the average male. He's hiding something, and this is just a cover."

I do not point out that I am not a completely unbiased observer. If I was being truthful with myself, I would admit that what I have just said is simply what I want to believe. I want Light to be hiding something, as long as it means he is not interested in the scantily clad women in the photographs.

We aren't supposed to form emotional attachments in a case. We aren't supposed to make it personal, but I would rather Light be Kira than be attracted to those women.

And that is what frightens me.