Choose, a death note fanfic

Standing here again
Fading out the quiet hum within me
The future's been set
I can't look back

Faint memories rush through me
I thought that I had said goodbye to this pain

I've forgotten my old ways
I've forgotten how I used to be and
How I promised that I'd never forget

I see now the shadow
Within myself as my tears are falling
Though I can't recall the memories
We shared, I won't forget you again

You think you know how the world works? You think that this material universe is all there is? What is real? What mysteries lie beyond the reach of your senses? At the root of existence, mind and matter meet. Thoughts shape reality. This universe is only one of an infinite number. Worlds without end. Some benevolent and life giving. Others filled with malice and hunger. Dark places where powers older than time lie ravenous... And waiting. Who are you in this vast multiverse?

It is never about her.

The rotten world keeps moving at a fast pace.

This is a story before Light and L.

I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
'Cause we don't want your broken parts
I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one will love you as you are

A bittersweet reality. A life of illusion.

She is just another normal girl with normal life and normal family.

Bored. Bullied. Lonely. Broken. Hurt. Hateful. Angry. Full of resentment.

But I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious

A fighter. A survivor.

The sun shines on the bleak horizon. It is just another day.

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I'm meant to be, this is me
Look out 'cause here I come
And I'm marching on to the beat I drum
I'm not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

A black notebook falls from the dark blue sky.

It lands near a dimly lit building.

Death note.

The human whose name is written in this notebook shall die.

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh

A chance presents itself to her from the dark blue sky.

A chance for vengeance. An opportunity for revenge. A power to change the world whether it is for the better or for the worse.

It is in her hands.

Another round of bullets hits my skin
Well, fire away 'cause today, I won't let the shame sink in
We are bursting through the barricades and
Reaching for the sun (we are warriors)
Yeah, that's what we've become (yeah, that's what we've become)

A chance to get out of the normalcy of life. An opportunity to turn the boring life into something exciting. A power to make her tormentors suffer. A power to kill them. A power to make them disappear forever from her life. A power to lead the world to either prosperity or ruin.

The absolute power that can make her does as she likes. The absolute power that can make her shapes the world as she likes. The absolute power to create the society as she likes.

The absolute power that corrupts absolutely.

I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious

Scary. Terrifying. Fear. Stress.

She suddenly feels the overwhelming weight of a great responsibility on her shoulders.

A feeling of hesitation washes over her.

A death god approaches her. He chuckles.

A human who uses the death note will not get to go to heaven or hell.

She is a coward.

The temptation licks at her skin.

She is a better person than that.

She smiles.

She returns the book to it's original owner.

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh
This is me

The death god is disappointed.

He holds the book towards her and presents her with one last chance.

The girl shakes her head and keeps her smile.

The death god's lips curl downwards.

A blank. A memory taken without consent.

The girl is confused.

Life continues.

And I know that I deserve your love
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'cause there's nothing I'm not worthy of
(Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh)
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
This is brave, this is proof
This is who I'm meant to be, this is me

It is just another day. It is just another normality.

She is just another normal girl with normal life and normal family.

Bored. Bullied. Lonely. Broken. Hurt. Hateful. Angry. Full of resentment.

A fighter. A survivor.

Look out 'cause here I come (look out 'cause here I come)
And I'm marching on to the beat I drum (marching on, marching, marching on)
I'm not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

Life. Death. Chance. Opportunity.

Power.

Absolute power.

She chooses to let go.

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I'm gonna send a flood
Gonna drown them out
Oh
This is me

It will surely get better someday.

Just keep fighting. Keep trying to find a way.

Let the truth sets you free.

We don't get to choose our time.Death is what gives life meaning. To know your days are numbered. Your time is short.

I remember that gentle touch, familiar face
I ask myself if this is right, is this is what I truly want
I am wondering do I want to know the past?

I realize the two halves of me
Though I walk the same path as before
And I know that my being remains unchanged

I step through the same door once again
And my soul is yearning for the same end, my one desire
The same voice calls out to me and yet, I can't answer

The me I was before today is still sleeping inside
I look up to the stars, and it overwhelms me now
Though it may conquer me, I won't let go