Disclaimer: I don't own anyone! Damn, I'm already sick of saying this…
A/N: I'm dedicating this story and chapter to her, the one who was with me all these years, Jaime Alexia. This is one of the many songs I wrote about her. This song's entitled "We're", it was written somewhere in mid 2005.
We Were Sisters
We're good friends we're sisters
We knew each other since pre-school, shared everything with each other, and were with each other through all our phases in life. No matter what happened, our first reaction was to tell each other.
We just can't tell how we're related
Our dads came from the same village, we have the same surname. We could be long lost cousins for goodness sake!
We could, we should
Maybe we should have gone for a DNA test.
But now we're so confused
But now so many things have been happening recently. I don't think I even know you anymore.
You leak out my secrets
Anything I told you, you would tell others. In a matter of weeks, the whole country would know about it. I would become the laughingstock.
You say sorry all the time
When I hear about it, you would apologise. You would try to rub it off.
But do you mean it?
I don't see the sincerity at all. I see aloofness in your eyes. I can tell that you wish to be doing something else, to be doing something else other than apologising. You would never look me in the eye.
Or is it just a habit to make me feel good?
When I accept your apology, I don't know if you would have thought that you got away scot-free. No one knows what you're thinking in that twisted mind of yours anymore.
We go out, we have fun
We used to meet up everyday to crash the mall, make a fool of ourselves or to just watch guys flirt with us.
We let out our energy
I can still remember once where we totally messed up a MOS burger branch. When the manager came over to reprimand us, we ran 4 miles all the way back to my house.
We burst out in laughter all the time!
When we finally reached my gate, we couldn't stop panting. Mostly due to the fact that we were laughing our asses off.
I hate you, I love you
I miss the old times when we did not have any betrayal. I still wish that you would come back to me, to be by my side in whatever I did.
I just can't decide now what to do, with you
I wish to rewind time so that all these problems wouldn't happen.
As now I'm so confused.
I don't know if I should trust you anymore. You changed so much. So wouldn't even think about my feelings anymore.
You make me love you
You messed with my thinking. You made me accept you. You made me believe you. You made me think that I needed you.
You make me hate you all the time
You betrayed me. You hurt my feelings. You toyed with me. You ignored me and cast me aside.
Why now? Why? How?
All these years, I knew you would do this someday. But why now? Why not earlier? Why during the time when I needed you the most?
You tamper with my feelings so much
You still expect me to believe and trust you? All these years of betrayal and hurt, you still want to toy with me?
My heart, it is broken
I can't believe you or trust you anymore. I'm hurt too much.
It's torn up into pieces
I can't bring myself to believe other people anymore. I've had too many fallbacks. I cannot stand this anymore. I'm hurting on the inside.
Salve it up
Do something, anything, please. I cannot bear to see these happen. I can't lose you. Not now.
Do you really mean me well?
Don't say you were doing this all for me. I cannot feel the love you used to give. Whenever I was in trouble or feeling down, you used to be there.
I hate you, I love you
I cannot let our bond end just like that. I still love you my sister. But now I cannot ignore the fact of your betrayal.
I just can't decide now what to do, with you
Tell me what to do. Tell me what to say. Tell me what to feel.
As now I'm so confused
Tell me how to live. I can't remember a time when we weren't together. I don't know how to live without you in my life anymore.
I hate you, I love you
If you were to return to me now, I wouldn't know what to do. I wouldn't know what to feel.
I just can't decide now what to do, with you
A part of me tells me to hate you, to never want anything to do with you again. But the rest of me says otherwise.
As now I'm so confused
But the rest of me tell me that I still love you. It reminds me that all humans make mistakes. It reminds me of the good times we shared together. I wish I could get rid of the part of me that tells me to forgive. The good side of me, the real side of me.