Dear Diamond,

I watched her get married yesterday. And even after all this time - after finding out she was pregnant and watching her have a beautiful son...Even after I got married myself and even now as I carry my husband's child - I couldn't prepare myself for how much it hurt.

I keep telling myself that this was how it was supposed to turn out, for I was never meant to fall in love with her.

She just made it so easy, I didn't even know I was falling.

I remember on my wedding day trying to picture how beautiful she'd be walking down that aisle right after me. I know it was my wedding day to Ryan, and he is a great man. But I couldn't stop my mind from wondering what kind of dress she'd wear...how she would style her beautiful, golden, blonde hair...

Seeing her walk down that aisle yesterday... Wow, she was more beautiful than I could have imagined. For a moment, time stood still and I couldn't breathe as I watched her take each graceful step...

Reality didn't hit me until my husband's hand rested on the side of my baby bump. I looked down at his muscular hands and couldn't help but long for her gentle touch...

It was then that I looked up and saw she had made it to the end of the aisle; that her perfect, small and soft hands were now linked with his and not mine.

The moment I heard her say the words "I do", I felt like someone was strangling me. I couldn't breathe. She officially belonged to Taylor; Something I knew would happen since the day I found out she was pregnant over two years ago.

I knew it was bound to happen...They were high school sweethearts and her eyes always lit up when she talked about him...

But that of course didn't stop me from dreaming. Dreaming that maybe she'd realize she loved me back.

I thought I gave up on that dream the day I married Ryan. I vowed to be a good wife to him and so far I've kept my promise. I distanced myself from her, no matter how much it killed me.I told myself it was for the best. I put her happiness before my own.

But yesterday I realized I still had some lingering hope that we'd run into each others arms and run away into the sunset together. All that hope officially died when Taylor slid that ring on her delicate finger and kissed his bride.

I remembered for a moment...What it was like to have her lips pressed against mine so softly...

I didn't even realize I was crying until Ryan whispered in my ear, asking me if I was okay...

I could try to play it off as baby hormones and the fact that weddings were just emotional. And though I did the one thing I said I'd never do..I lied to my husband...I couldn't lie to myself.. For I was crying because my heart was breaking.

I wiped my tears as I crawled into bed to lay next to my husband...Who wasn't the blonde haired and the blue eyed woman I've secretly loved for years. And I made a promise to myself... That as long as he holds me... This is a secret I promise to keep..

I fell asleep after twirling around that diamond ring on my left finger; the one that he placed there the day I said "I do".

I fell asleep and into a dream where I could feel Heather's body laying next to mine.

I slept a little longer last night, for I knew that when I woke up...She would be gone.

~I promised to never do what I've done...I've lied to someone...Dear diamond ~

xoxo-Naya

AN: This was something that ran through my head at 2am lol. I'm not normally a Heya shipper (other than their friendship), and I am extremely happy for both Heather and Naya in their marriages and babies XD. I don't believe anything like this actually did happen, this is just a work of fanfiction.

Shout out to my bestie and my new beta JMonte XD