I hope you guys like this story! I know I've been slack with my other ones, and…. This is why! Love you all. This chapter is for Kimmo, most of them will be rofl. She makes me write it all! She said this sounds amazing when I told her about it at school, so take her word for it! I cried while writing it FYI (:
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"Goodbye Mum, I'll miss you every second of every day, and I will always shed tears for the times with you that have been stolen away from me. I'll always be your little girl Mummy; tripping over and hurting myself, laughing when you got angry with me; but most of all, I'll always have a heart full of love to give, I just really don't know where I'm going to give it" I whimpered. I stood down from the podium and sat in the front row of the church. I felt hollow; everything in my life was crumbling. I always thought that my Mummy would live forever; that she would protect me after Daddy died; but here I am, agonized and orphaned.

The ceremony finished and we headed back to my Aunt May's summer house for the wake. My Mum had died here while we were vacationing last week. We were supposed to stay the whole summer, but only three weeks in and she drowned at the beach. How was I supposed to carry on? I was only 16 and I didn't have any parents.
"I think you did wonderfully Bells" Aunt May smiled as I stood at her kitchen sink, staring at the beach through the window.
"I don't know what I'm going to do" I whispered and tears strolled down my face as I remembered finding my mother's blue body lying on the beach.
"No matter what you do, I'll always be here to help you along the way" she whispered and kissed my head before walking out to join the other guests.
"Bewwa?" I heard a small voice whisper and I turned to see my little brother Zach peeking through the kitchen door.
"Hey Zach, how are you" I sniffled, wiping my stray tears away.
"I'm okay. When's Mummy coming home?" he whispered innocently and my heart broke again. I'd told him that Mummy had gone to heaven, but he still thought she was going to come home. How do you tell a five year old that he'll never see his parents again?
"Mummy isn't coming home Zachy" I whispered and a tear strolled down his cheek. His bottom lip jutted out and trembled.
"But I want her to," he whimpered and tears strolled down his cheeks.
"I know Zach, so do I" I sobbed and dropped to the floor to hug him. He rushed into my arms and sobbed into the crook of my neck.
"I love you Bewwa" he whimpered and I closed my eyes, which let a few more tears escape. I hugged Zach closer to me and sniffled.
"I love you too Zach. Promise me something?" I asked and he pulled away to look at me.
"Ok" he whispered and I smiled a sad smile.
"Don't ever forget Mummy and Daddy okay?" I whispered and he nodded vigorously.

"Bella, Zach, are you both in here?" Uncle Tom asked from behind the kitchen door.
"Yes Uncle Tom" I whispered and he entered the room quietly.
"How are you kids?" he whispered sadly and my lips began to tremble once again.
"We've had better days Uncle Tom" I sobbed and then broke into a full round of hysterics. Uncle Tom threw his arms around Zach and I; and he rocked us back and forward.
"It's okay Kids, I'm here. I'll help you through this" he whispered. It was extremely hard to sit in the same room as Uncle Tom sometimes; the reason being that he was our Dad's identical twin brother.
"Daddy's not coming home either is he?" Zach whispered and I shook my head solemnly. Zach and I had a wonderful life until about three months ago. Our dad was diagnosed into terminal Hodgkin's Lymphoma; which is type of Leukemia and within weeks, he'd died. It was quick and luckily he didn't feel any pain; but he'd left us here and so had Mum, but I couldn't let that get to me.
"I'll go get your things" Uncle Tom whispered. We had to return to our house this afternoon and I wasn't ready to face it. I hadn't prepared myself to enter our empty home and I knew it would be nothing less than heartbreaking.
"Thanks Uncle Tom" I whimpered and helped Zach to his feet. Uncle Tom disappeared behind the double doors and returned ten minutes later.
"The car is all packed" he whispered gravely and I nodded numbly.

The drive back to Phoenix was an uneventful one. I spent most of the time sleeping away my sorrows and when I woke up, I saw the house that now held nothing but sadness for me.
"Zach wake up" I whispered, nudging him awake. His eyes fluttered open and he stared at the house.
"Do we have to go in?" he whispered. He turned to me for my answer and I nodded at him.
"It's our only physical memory of Mummy and Daddy" I whimpered and he nodded helplessly. How could God put a five year old kid in so much pain? How could he put our family through this? I hadn't even recovered from Dad yet and now I don't have my Mum either.
"Okay, let's go" he mumbled and got out of the car. He ran to the door and opened it.
"Zach hang on, come and get your things" I called and he called out of the house looking sadder then he had when he went in.
"What's the matter Zach?" I asked urgently.
"Mummy's not in the kitchen making brownies" he whimpered and then he burst into tears.
"I know Zach I know" I whimpered, picking Zach up and cradling his shaking frame in my arms. He threw his arms around my neck and sobbed into my shoulder.
"Promise you won't leave me Bewwa" he whispered and I sniffled painfully.
"I promise Zach" I promised and knew that one day, I would break that promise.

Our first week here had to be the hardest. Each night Zach woke up screaming for our parents and all I could do was comfort him while crying. I think Aunt May and Uncle Tom were getting worried about him. They lived with us now, in the guest room. I slept in my parents' bed for the first few nights, because I needed to feel their presence. When I woke up to Mum's cell phone ringing, my heart split in two.
"Hello?" I whimpered.
"Renee, thank god I caught you. I'm sorry for the late hour. I was wondering, what did Sam do with the Lambridge case files?" A chatty, executive voice babbled.
"I'm sorry this isn't Renee, this is Bella; her daughter" I whimpered and the voice abruptly stopped.
"Oh, can you please put Renee on?" the voice asked and I let out a cry of pain.
"No, I'm sorry. My Mum died last week" I whispered once I'd composed myself, but the words cut like a serrated knife.
"Oh, well, never mind then" the voice said sadly and hung up. I cried myself back to sleep that night and when I woke up, I put on some of my mother's clothes; they still smelled like her. After that I put on her perfume and some earrings Dad had gotten her.
"Bewwa, what are you doing?" I heard Zach whisper from the doorway. My head whipped over to him and I broke down on the floor in a crumpled, broken heap.
"Aunty May!" Zach screeched as he rushed out of the bedroom. Aunt May rushed in about two minutes later and saw me shaking with hysteria on the floor.
"Oh Bella" she whispered sadly and came to hug me.
"Aunt May, I-I-I w-w-want them b-b-back" I sobbed into her chest and she stroked my hair back.
"I know sweety, Shh" she whispered soothingly and soon I fell asleep with my head on her lap.

"I know you can do this" Aunt May said confidently. It was my first day back at school since Mum had died and I wasn't sure if I could go through with it.
"I don't know if I can" I whispered and looked at my feet. Aunt May put one hand on each of my shoulders and forced me to look her in the eye.
"You listen to me Isabella Marie Swan, you can do this. Your mother would be so proud at how strong you've been so far" she whispered and her voice cracked at the end.
"I haven't been that strong. I dressed up in her clothes, put on her perfume and jewelry; I don't think that resembled bravery" I mumbled and a tear slid down my cheek.
"No, that represents mourning" she sighed.
"I miss them" I whispered and she nodded.
"I do too Honey. Now come on or you'll be late" she said and the bus doors opened. Wow, creepy timing. I hugged her goodbye and then stepped onto the bus. I sat right up the back and plugged my earphones into my ears.
"… and she closed her eyes, found relief in a knife…" I sang sadly and when I looked up I noticed all eyes were on me.
"You want to take a picture?" I snapped and stomped off the bus once it'd stopped.
"Bella" I heard a familiar voice sigh. I turned to see Alice and Rosalie, my best friends walking towards me. My eyes instantly pricked and I broke down into tears.
"I'm s-s-sorry" I whimpered as Alice embraced me.
"Nonsense Bella" she said sternly and pulled back so Rosalie could hug me.
"I know what you're going through, so if you need anything, I'm there" Rose whispered. It was true; both her parents had died at the same time in a car accident three years ago. Her eyes were grave and her face was full of sadness when she pulled back to look at me.
"Hey, thanks. How have you guys been?' I whispered, trying to divert all the attention from myself.
"Rose and I have new boyfriends!" Alice cheered and I smiled at her enthusiasm. My cheeks hurt; I hadn't smiled in a while.
"Really?" I whispered incredulously.
Alice and Rose both nodded and then two boys walked over to where we were standing.
"Speak of the devils" Alice began and I giggled silently.
"And the devils shall appear" Rose finished and I snickered a little louder.
"Hey Rosie" the big boy said. He was huge, like, he reminded me of the incredible hulk; only he wasn't green. But somehow, reminded me of a giant teddy bear.
"Emmett, this is Bella" Rosalie smiled at him and his eyes were full of knowledge.
"Ah, Bella Swan. Nice to finally meet you" he chuckled and took me into a bone crushing hug.
"Can't… breath!" I said breathlessly. When I looked at Rose, she had one arm across her stomach and the other covering her face. It was highly amusing. I laughed and then it cut off into a sob.
"Emmett, we need to talk to Bella. I'll see you later okay?" Rose whispered and kissed his cheek. She took me by the arm and I heard Alice say goodbye to the blonde boy. I caught that his name was Jasper.
"What happened back there babe?" Rose whispered caringly and I sniffled.
"It feels wrong to laugh" I whimpered. She and Alice both took me into a large bear hug and soon we were all heading to our classes.

As I sat in biology, I felt dizzy. I swayed in my seat and then fainted onto the floor. Good thing that the desk next to me had always been empty.
"Isabella, can you open your eyes for me?" I heard the nurse whisper. I tried to obey, and soon my eyes fluttered open.
"W-w-what happened?" I whispered and I saw Rose breathe a sigh of relief.
"You fainted in biology sweetheart" the nurse said tenderly. I nodded and tried to get up from the bed, but when I did, my head spun again.
"Careful Isabella. You've been under a lot of stress lately, that's why you fainted" the nurse cautioned and I saw that Alice had been crying.
"What's wrong Alice?" I whispered and she sobbed brokenly.
"You were so pale, I thought I'd lost you" she whimpered and I waved her over.
"I won't leave as long as I can prevent that. Do you hear me Alice?" I said urgently and she nodded. When I looked around at the greater picture, I saw that Emmett and Jasper were in the room also.
Do you think Edward might…?" Jasper trailed off when he saw that I was looking at him.
"Definitely" Emmett smiled.
"Who's Edward?" I asked curiously and they stiffened.
"He's our other brother. He's touring with his band at the moment, so he won't be at school for a few weeks. I nodded, confused. Why did they bring him up if he wasn't even here?
"Why did you talk about him just then?" I whispered and Jasper nudged Emmett with his elbow.
"I… uh… I mean we… um, hey did you know that Edward's performing at a concert here next week?" Emmett stammered and I chuckled.
"Yeah, I'm sure that's what you said" I laughed and had that same guilty feeling again. I clutched my stomach and my laughter turned to sorrow once again.
"You should all come" Jasper whispered and he came over to me.
"I lost my parents last year, both of them, I know what you're going through, but believe me, a night out is fun" Jasper whispered into my ear and I nodded weakly.
"Sounds good" I mumbled incoherently.

"Well, well, well, if it isn't little miss Bella Swan?" I heard a familiar voice chuckled and I turned to see my best friend guy friend walking in my direction.
"Jacob, hey" I breathed as he pulled me into his embrace. Tears had already been sliding down my cheeks, but I wanted them to stop, so I shut my eyes and took a deep, unsteady breath.
"I've missed you like crazy" he whispered into my hair and I snuffled my face closer to his chest.
"Believe me, I have missed you too" I whimpered with a broken voice.
"My dad sends his regards by the way" he sighed and let go of me.
"No, please, hold me just for a little longer" I objected weakly. He nodded and held me tighter, engulfing me with his friendship.
"It's time for class now, do you want me to walk you?" he whispered and I nodded.
"Yes please Jake" I mumbled and he let go of me, but not completely. He wrapped his arm around my waste and walked with my curled into his side. When we stopped at my classroom, he kissed my forehead.
"I really did miss you honey" he mumbled and walked away.

The rest of the day past in a blur, I just wanted to get home and curl up in my parents bed, but Alice had other plans.
"You're staying at my house tonight!" she squealed and I reluctantly obliged.
"Welcome back here Bella" Alice's mum Mary smiled as soon as the three of us walked through the door.
"Thanks Mrs. Brandon" I smiled.
"You're welcome. Rosalie, Alice, I'm shocked. No Jasper and Emmett today?" Mrs. Brandon chuckled and Alice and Rose looked down at their feet.
"They don't come every day Mum" Alice wined and her Mum chuckled.
"Oh, no, 24/7 is hardly enough time" she joked, rolling her eyes and then she walked back into the kitchen.
"Bella, did you want some brownies?" she called form the kitchen and my heart broke in two.

My Mummy used to make me brownies…