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The night was hallow, and eerie as I sat in my apartment like always. I faked my life, anyway that's what it felt like. It's been five years and no return, and often I still wonder what there like, and wonder where my green eyed girl went and how she's dealing with this drama.
for those empty years, so uncool. I haven't been outside much and people come to help, but they don't really ease it, I don't know what it is I just don't feel anything anymore, like my heart and brain has been isolated in a cage, and the key is Maka,Lola and Dakota.
i still remember, Lola's tiny little eyes on her tiny body, as she smiled with shark like teeth so little, so dangerous yet belonged to such an innocent girl. And the little rascal Dakota. For some reason I only laugh when I think of them and I did, then only to end up crying.
i lay on the coach and laugh, until Maka comes into my vision, and the next thing I'm crying in my hands. I'm selfish for not anyone wanting to see me this way, but only Maka to see me this way.
...
i sit in an aeroplane and look at my beautiful kids in the night, only seen by the light of the moon, that looked so closely like Dakotas hair. Lola teeth gleaming, lying on her brothers shoulder, and Dakota just asleep on mine too. My head turned back to the window and I couldn't help but wonder how we ended up here.
all that's happened is a lost job, and people bullying Lola because... We we don't actually know. And Dakota stepping in ending in a fight, and right now a bandaid lay on his cheek, a little yellow patch on his brown, light skin and his eyes closed sleepily.
he was so much like his dad and me, Dakota did what he wanted and once he decided he would. My determination, and scandalous like his father. Lola I don't know about her, she's emotional and I touch with her self like me, but doesn't cry like her dad and it takes a lot to break her.
i stroked Dakota lox of hair, and hummed a melody. It was out of tune, like the life we left behind and the one we found. My hair was to my bottom now, and still had it in pigtails only for it to make me look younger still, Lola had pigtails too, but a layer of hair still met her mid back below the pigtails.
the thing that confused me the most is how there twins but don't look alike. Yet there so close, it seems like Dakotas a little puppy dog and protects Lola at all costs. And Lola loves her brother and looks up to him, it's quiet adorable and cute.
"I chose the name because it means protector" soul said.
" I chose the name lol, because she seems so innocent and the name reminds me of a flower"
remembering that it seems we new them before they were even born. But how could that be? Soul stayed by my side only by the last three months, but I guess that enough to make an effect. Looking at them grow the remind me of the time I was Souls partner.
Soul I didn't search for help but he gave it to me anyway like the sun. And it looks the same with Lola, she rains and Dakotas there to dry it away, I don't know how Dakota benefits though. I actually asked after he ended up with a bruised hand.
" Some one has to be the man of the family, right Lola" Lola nods.
iI guess he really wants to meet his dad, because I kept a photo and gave it to him he loves it to, he has it in his hand now, scrunched in his hand but souls face staring at me. I took the picture when he wasn't looking, and called his name so he could look, so you see him staring blankly, shoulders slumped and casual.
Dakota walks like that to, I have told them about what he did, and Dakota was disappointed but he still wants to meet him. But deep Down I know he wouldn't know what to say or do, Lola would probably be scared. And I watched as Souls photo glared at me like daggers through my eyes and into my Soul
I wonder if he remembers it's there birthday tomorrow?
and it's only 11:35
...
I what he'd the clock tick on the wall, and stood staring I'm forgetting something I already missed to of my birthdays, but I still had an eighteenth. The strippers were fine but in the end I missed Maka, and felt dirty because I new she would hate it.
then my phone beeped and I walked over to it. Swaying like a drunk and slobbish grabbed it to look. It said.
check the date.
I checked to see if it was a reminder but to know avail, so I hobbled over to the calendar, spine and shoulders slouched. And stared my eyes boringly at the calendar it's May the fifteenth.
May the fifteenth
"MAY THE FIFTEENTH!" I shouted it was the only word. I said the whole day.
its there birthday, I stared in amazement. There five today, and I won't be there. I wonder if they lived to there name I hope Maka hasn't put Dakota in those uncool clothing. The. I had a flash back
" hey soul!" Shouted Blackstar.
i was babysitting the kids while Maka went out in hell knows what. Lola was crawling around and is soon one in a few weeks along with her brother, then she sits turns and looks at Blackstar and cocks her head Dakota was in my arms and started laughing at blackstar.
" Who's that Dakota?" I asked.
" Blatar" he bubbled out smiling at me then Blackstar.
then Blackstar picks Lola up a bit to roughly, and hold her in the hair of over his head while she looks down towards his face. Then lowers his lips to her belly and give her a blue berry making a farting noise, and when he lowers he back to face level she's looking around to find out what it was. Without the slightest idea.
" What was that! What did uncle Blackstar do" he said in his snarky voice.
"faring" she said trying to say 'farting'
" there called blue berries" he said.
"berbu" she says, then Blackstar sets her on the coach as she sits with he hands inside her crossed legs.
" How you going man" we fist punch.
" Not bad, yourself?" I ask.
" Nah not to bad"
" hows Tsubaki coming along?"
" Good, and we came up with a name for the three" he smiles.
" Come on tell us then"
" the girls gonna be starling, the boy Cori, and white star"
" after your dad?"
" Yep, hope his proud"
" well you did it right" I mumbled. He gave me a sympathies look.
" You to ain't together yet" I shook my head
"it will get better"
" yeah I hope"
" Blackstar"
mumbled a voice so cute and innocent our heads wipe over to Lola. She wa facing us looking in curious eyes till her lips broke into a smile and she said " Blackstar" we stood stunned that's her first word, and she clapped and said his name once more. And like that Blackstar had picked her up and gently hugged her crying (anime style)
" did you hear soul! She said my name"
" yep it her first word too"
then I had an Idea, I wen to the counter in the kitchen and pulled my phone off it and woke out the kitchen. Wait. I looked back to find Dakota on the table eating a packet of chips I left open, he stuffed them into his mouth, the food in his fist scrunched then slapped against his mouth as he ate. And when he saw me his eyes widened.
" Eh?!" He said quickly, then we stared at each other till he laughed and grabbed his feet and fell to his back and rolled over, I saw him about to fall and caught him, somehow. Over protective. Cool.
" How did you get up there?" I asked he laughed and I carried him inside
" what ya doing man?" Asked Blackstar Lola on his lap, he's been coming over to get experience with kids to help Tsubaki or something.
" Getting a video of her saying it" I flipped the lid of my phone kneeled down Dakota in my lap, staring at the phone like its magic, and I dodged his hands trying to reach it. And when we got it on I crossed my legs and got comfortable. You could see Blackstar on the coach with Lola in his lap, with her sleepy calm eyes, brightening slightly.
" Who's that?" I asked playfully.
" Blackstar!" She said sleepy. And I ended it.
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it's now eleven forty five, and I'm growing more anxious at exactly midnight I'm suppose to land, and carry them with the help of Crona, he has been great with patty and said they don't want to have kids till is late, they want to live and I said they were Smart. My teenage life ended.
did you send the text? I texted to Crona. For some reason I really wanted him to know I wanted to see him, like he could extinguish the burning very time I think about how I lost him, and regretted it since. But now I don't know what I regret I felt sick with excitement, everyone was asleep except me, just like a frigid movie.
yep. He texted back I felt a slight happiness but I could barely tell by the fight in my chest, u want soul back so bad it hurt, and thats what delaying me from doing so. I'm afraid but don't want to go to soul again I miss him but i can't tell if it's love or just the fact I'm have his kids with me.
" Mummy" said Dakota, she had a cute voice, and when she sung I think she would be a good singer for nightcore music, she listens to it all the time she loves music.
" Where almost there go back to sleep" I ordered gently, she nodded slightly before falling back to a deep sleep.
i stared at the moon wondering if Dakota will wake up and ask questions, he doesn't interrogate only if he's angry and he has a reason so his like me hot tempered in some ways, or rages when his angry. But his never been angry with his family. He likes to build things and art to, I saw him build an impressive sandcastle when he was four.
i think that Lola should be a singer but I don think she will, she's fragile on the outside, but she is stronger on the inside. I'm scared about soul hating me, and how he will react to Dakota and Lola, or more to the point how they will react to them. And I still haven't forgotten the court cases mama and papa went through.
my heart wrenched at the thought of my lost mother, and my mind hazy and my eyes swelled with tears. No. I need to stop I need to be strong like her for once, so I clenched my fist to squeeze away the pain even if it was still there.
i think moving back would be a good thing, getting away from the bullies, and the nasty fights Dakota got into for his sister and my friends, and it will do good for them to meet there dad. You see I kept in contact with Crona and patty said she found a abandoned building up for sail, and it cost a thousand dollars.
lucky for me I had the money, we sold the house to feed ourselves, in hope of doing domething with the building. Patty suggested a pub, because her and Crona usually go to work stay at kids and patty has been taking good care of him. He seems happy, and I envy him for that, so I decided to take party's advice with the pub.
then as we approached I heard it the bell.
that signalled midnight, and we stopped.
and I was home.
...?...?...
i stopped crying at the bells that echoed in a distance, but seemed to ring in my ears as if I stood right near the,. And I wished desperately as always, that they might return, and cling to hope still like a scared kid in a tree I might get a glimpse at my long lost kin. As I strode to the window.
the wind washed through my hair like normal, but refused to touch my face like normal now. And this is so uncool. But I still wonder what's normal about me now, a screw up father, and a screwed up weapon, and a screwed up boyfriend, and for some reason that word boyfriend sounded mest up to think I'm a father.
i wonder if they ask about me as I stared out the window, I caught a glimpse even though I stared at nothing. Of a plane landing somewhere, it hit me like a slap and I took it as a sight that maybe, just maybe there on that plane now. I yearned to be haopy to know there alive to know something about them, like a flower reaching for the sun.
like water in a drought, like a person without love like I aleready am. I wish I could be there for them, but for some reason tonight was different, and I had the utmost feeling, a feeling I couldn't name. So uncool. And I new that one day they will come back because, I still know so ehwhere that Maka still loves me.
and I will always love her, and when the bell finally silenced it's self. I felt I wasn't alone, and that I closed my eye's and had a picture of Maka next to me, and Dakota and Lola in our arms.
" Happy birthday Dakota and Lola" Maka and soul said in union, and they didn't even know it.
but they will soon
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