I felt so confused. I felt like an idiot. And I felt guilt sick in the pit of my stomach.

First, Edward had me confused and feeling like a total idiot around him. He acts like a jerk, than he's nice, saves my life under crazy un-possibly real terms, (that have me rethinking what is and what is not real) acts really friendly, then when I want to ask him about how he saved my life, he acts even worse then a jerk! And as if I wasn't confused enough!, when he starts speaking to me again, he confuses me even more! I have no clue what he means when he talks! He talks all sophisticated, what is he?, British?! No offense, I just mean they talk really smart like. Which is a compliment if you think about it. Is it that he talks weird or is just me that doesn't comprehend what he says. Am I really that stupid?

What did he mean when he said it be better if we weren't friends? I never said I was his friend by the way!

I was keeping my promise by not saying anything about what I saw. And I've been ignoring him, trying to forget about him, will I guess I wasn't trying to hard since I kept sneaking peaks at him and still wondering what he is.

Maybe he notices how I stare at him everyday and thinks…will, probably knows that I like him and because of that we cant even be friends! How embarrassing…once again I feel like an idiot.

But then why does he stare at me? Does he hate me because I know something Im not suppose to? Or does he think im a pathetic loser? Or maybe Im just imagining that he is staring at me. I never told anybody anything, so does he still not trust me? And if he knows Im pathetically in love with him and then knows im with Mike and I still stare at him…what would he think? Could he possibly think that the only reason that im with Mike is to make him jealous? He probably laughs at me. I hope not. And poor Mike…

I feel so guilty, I get stomach aches when I see poor Mike. And then when I think about the reason I got with him is because I felt bad for him when he had a crush on me. I finally said yes to him out of guilt. And is our relationship just fake? Am I making him think I like him when I don't? I do love Mike, but I'm not sure exactly if it might not be the way he likes me. And if I broke up with me it would only make him sad. And cause me more guilt I wouldn't know what to do to make things right.

These are the reasons I feel like an idiot, evil, and confused. I cant think of many good solutions without feeling selfish.

Charlie got a job offer not far from here to be their town sheriff since there last one went missing. He asked how I felt about moving. I thought it was almost perfect. I have a reason to brake up with Mike and he has a reason to move on. And I can get over Edward and get away from the embarrassment I feel when im around him.

But I would still feel guilty to Mike and it would be like running away from him. Suddenly I feel a sharp stab in my heart when I thought of not seeing Edward again, that I had to clutch my chest.

I thought about that and just thought its just a silly teenage crush that I will get over sooner or later and then it felts like someone sharpened the blade.

And I know Charlie would really miss it here and I know probably doesn't one to leave these memories behind of me when i was little and mom was still here, in this house.

But I will tell Charlie yes for us to move, besides he'll make more money because their willing to pay more since they have a problem with people going missing. And it'll help get rid of his gloomy memories when René left him and all this years he lived with out us all by himself in this lonely big house.

He been doing the same routine all this years, till I came to live with him. Going to work everyday, coming back to this empty house with not many good memories and it mocking him when he never gets a call from me or mom.

And he doesn't have many friends, only the people he works with if you can really call them friends, there only friends because they are co-workers. And he only has two friends in La Push, he can always visit when he wants. His new job doesn't require many hours of him since it's a small town and only a bit bigger then forks.

This life cant be healthy for him. And I thought to remember the very few good memories about this house, him and me could take some pictures of us and the house.

I talked to Charlie about this not being healthy for him and living out some things like this big house mocking him.

It was kind of hard talking to Charlie its always hard talking to Charlie since me and him aren't exactly the type to share our feelings. He understood and thinks it was a good idea after all. And thought it was a good idea to visit often and take pictures.

So tomorrow will be my last day.

But he made me agree to taking self-defense classes and Karate to protect myself. Since people where going missing and there was gang violence involved, Charlie started to become over protective. And I had to carry a bottle of pepper spray with me everywhere.

After my talk with Charlie I headed up the stairs to my room, begging to getting consumed in thought.

Charlie and I agreed to come back and visit his friends in La Push. Which probably meant visiting Forks. Which means I might not after all never see Edward again. I might end up seeing him sometimes. Suddenly I looked forward to visiting Forks for the chance to see Edward.

Then I thought about how after all this years, Charlie never really got over René. Would it take me that long to get over Edward too? I certainly hope not. I should really avoid him altogether, and really try this time. And really hard, harder then I ever have before.

I felt kind of pathetic, but tomorrow I would leave after lunch. So I could avoid my sixth period class with Edward and on the plus side I would miss my gym class too.

I had Charlie keep it a secret of us moving so it would become a big thing, the longest sheriff they ever had is moving and his daughter who had just moved here is moving again. I will tell Mike to keep it a secret too. I would only tell him and Angela. I don't think I could trust Jessica to keep it a secret, I hope that doesn't sound mean. At lunch when I would tell them all goodbye, it would surely spread through the lunchroom pretty fast that I was leaving. And the last thing I needed were ??? pair of eyes starring at me during lunch and whispering about me. So on second thought I would leave before lunch.

EPOV

I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER! I don't care what Rosalie and them say! I don't care what anyone says! Tomorrow I will talk to Bella and I will somehow try to be with her and tell her my two deepest secrets. What I really am-and warn her how dangerous I was, especially to her.-and my most important secret, how much I love her. How deeply and crazily I was in love with her. How obsessed I was about her. And how I couldn't take not being with her, how it hurt, how it stung. I was possessed with her in my every thought and second.

I could only hope she would except me. Even if she would only have me as her friend! And I could somehow steal her from that vile Mike Newton and anyone else who wanted her. I couldn't believe SHE WAS HIS!…NO! SHE WASN'T HIS! SHE IS MY BELLA!!! That's right! I said it! My Bella! She is my Bella!

Will she really might not be mine, not yet, maybe not ever. But I would always be hers. She may not know it but she would forever have my heart and there would be nothing anyone could do about it. Only God and I thank him for Bella. She was an angel from heaven.

And tomorrow I would tell her I was hers forever. Maybe not exactly tomorrow but soon. I would somehow hopefully be with her. And could rightfully say she was mine. This pleased me and frightened me at the same time.

Tomorrow. But right now I would go to watch her sleep and plan how to approach her and talk to her. And what to say and when to tell her how I felt. And it had to be soon because I just couldn't stand it anymore. I couldn't stand other boys loving her and especially could not stand seeing that stupid mike with his hand around my Bella.

I rushed towards the back door, on my way to see my Bella, when Jasper asked.

"Where are you going Edward?" he said, looking up from his book where he was sitting on the couch. I didn't even turn around I was just going to quickly reply and keep running on my way to see my Bella. I was surprised and curious why he would ask but I didn't really care I only cared about one thing.

Before I could answer Rosalie interrupted.

"Where do you think Jasper?" She sneered. I stopped & turned around and the turn of the conversation.

"To see his precious human of course! Where else?" she shouted at him like he was an idiot.

They where all sitting in the living room. Alice was sitting on jasper's right with Esme beside her holding a fashion magazine, they were reading and talking. Rosalie was on his left reading a magazine with Emeitt looking at it over her shoulder. And Carasile sat on Emeitts side on his own seat surrounded by different books around him. Medical and story telling alike. But he was not reading either. Instead he was holding the newspaper. But he wasn't really reading it. He was really thinking about me. In the back of their heads they all where, every evening when I left. But I never thought anything about it. They all turned their heads when Jasper had asked. And when Rosalie had answered.

Jasper looked away from her and back at me.

"Why?" he said accusingly .with his big and questioning eyes. In his head he was irritated. At Rosalie's attitude outbursts and offensiveness. And me.

"What do you mean why? Where else do you thinkhe has been going every night? And why else? His in love with the human!" Emeitt laughed at the thought of me being in love with a human. "Where have you been for the last few months? Under a rock?" She shouted. And she sneered at the word human, using it as an insult. That set me off.

"ROSALIE WHY DON'T YOU SHUT YOUR BIG MOUTH FOR ONCE?" I yelled at her. Everyone turned their heads at me in shock. Alice and Emeitt laughed. They knew this as the truth, but everyone else was to serious to find the truth comical.

"OR DO YOU NEED ME TO SHUT IT FOR YOU?"

"Everyone just please calm down." Carlisle tried. He had put his newspaper down and threw his hands up spreading them away as to dismissing the argument.

Rosalie had her arms crossed over her chest and was throwing daggers at me with her eyes and I returned the favor back at her. Jasper glared accusingly & suspiciously at me with narrowed eyes beside her. He was only irritated with her because the way she acted but he was really irritated with me. He didn't like what I was doing, being with Bella all the time.

"I don't care jasper." My voice sounded low and restrained and cold.

"I don't care what any of you have to say anymore." I turned and started to walk away and Esme and Carlisle called after me.

"This isn't right Edward. When she finds out, she wont love you." I froze in my tracks. "She will tell out of fear if you tell her. And we will all be in danger. She'll hate you Edward." Jasper said coldly. They all stayed quiet. This offended me but mostly because it was true. I stood for a second longer, then I ran off to watch after Bella.

I was still upset after what Jasper said, knowing the chances, but seeing Bella made me a lot more calm. Bella did have different reactions than most people but she would probably fear me after I told her. And if she didn't fear me, she would surely hate me or think I was a freak. She probably already did hate me and think I was a freak.

My confidence was weary, what where the chances that she would ever love me? But I would try anyways. I know I don't deserve her. Neither Newton deserved her. What where the chances she would pick me over him? I wasn't even sure if I was better for her than Newton. I felt a wave of anger go through me remembering of how Newton would rap his arm around her and kiss her on the head or the cheek. Tomorrow I would take her attention and Mike better not get in my way or he wouldn't have any arms. But it bothered me how I wasn't anymore deserving enough of her than Newton. I don't think there was anybody deserving enough of Bella.

And would I do if she did reject me? Keeping bothering her till she couldn't take my presence?

I decided not to think about any of this and just watch my angel sleep in peace and kept my thoughts on my excitement for tomorrow. For then I could finally talk to Bella.

Soon I couldn't stop thinking about it and wanted to just wake her now and start telling her everything. I laughed at how much I sounded like a little boy on Christmas eve night who couldn't wait till morning to open his gifts and wakes his parents up so he can open his gifts now. I looked at the window to tell if it was almost morning or not. For once I couldn't wait till the sun rise. Usually I was upset with the sun rise because it meant my time alone with Bella was up and I had to go to school and ignore her. But I never really did ignore her. I watched and listened to her every moment secretly through peoples minds.

Finally it was soon time for her to awake. So I leaned close to her and whispered to her.

"Good morning my love. Today I will talk to you and I please ask you to reply and not be angry with me for being rude in the past. Please understand what I have to tell you and except me. I beg for you to please don't fear me or hate me. Please listen to me for what I have to say and believe and trust me."

I leaned away wanting to pet her hair or kiss the top of her head but I knew my coldness might wake her and she probably didn't want me to kiss her. "Goodbye, I love you."

I walked away slowly trying to make my time with her last, when I thought, I've never watched her awake in the morning be fore. So I decided to hide & watch from outside her window. Then I herd her whisper my name it pleased me when I herd her say my name in her sleep. I wondered why she did but I guess she was still questioning what I was and having dreams of what she thought I was. I so badly wanted to know, what was she dreaming of me? And why did she pled for me not to go? I had no clue but I loved it.

"Edward…goodbye." I was surprised. Did she hear me when I told her goodbye?

"Goodbye Forks. Sorry Mike. Don't tell till I leave Angela. I'll visit and ill miss you Angela."

I don't understand? When I said goodbye to her, did it lead her to some dream where she thought she was leaving forks? Why did she say bye to me? Did she recognize my voice and included me when she was saying bye to her friends? And why was she saying sorry to Mike? I know Bella hated Forks so I guess she could be dreaming of leaving. But did she hear me say everything else I told her?

"Don't worry I wont tell anyone." she said smiling.

I was confused she asked Angela not to tell about something till she left and then she said she wouldn't tell. It kind of sounded like she was answering her own request. Was she playing two people in her dream?

"I know what I saw but I wont tell anyone , don't worry. You can trust me."

That just sounded a lot like she was talking to me about the accident when the van almost hit her.

That must be what she is dreaming of. When I said goodbye she must have had a dream that she thought she was leaving. And it made her very happy since she was smiling. And she must be telling me not to worry because she wouldn't tell what she saw. She wanted me to trust her. That was ironic. I wanted her to trust me. I noticed her room brightened and it was morning and she would awake soon. So I leaned close to her.

"Goodbye my love." then I quickly petted just a spot of her hair and went out her window. She didn't have many close by neighbors and Charlie had already left to work, so no one would see me outside her window. I watched her from her window. Her smile disappeared after what I told her and her eyes tightened hard. It made me sad. She probably did want to hear that from me.

Then her eyes awoke.

BPOV

I woke up to a bright day, will at least my room looked bright because it was morning. And surely the sky would me grey like always.. I thought I would wake up bright completely happy too. But instead I felt sad and the pit of stomach hurt bad. I looked out my window and sighed. I was kind of happy to leave Forks but at the same time I felt like I would miss it. No, I probably wouldn't miss it. I would just miss my friends and… suddenly I felt a really bad rush of pain strike my chest. My arm clutched my chest I didn't know what hit me. I bent forward and holding on to the windowsill for support. My breathing was heavy and my heart was pounding and stinging. What was wrong with me? I could feel myself sweating. I leaned my forehead towards the window thinking the cool glass would help but I rushed my head to fast towards the window and I hit the window to hard.

"Ow!" I cried. I but my hand on my forehead. That was going to leave a mark.

I took what was probably the last look out my window and took a deep breath. Goodbye Forks.

I walked away to the bathroom to get ready.

I decided to wear something green today as a farewell to forks, the greenest place I ever seen. But then I remembered I got rid of most of my green shirts because I hated it most of the time how Forks was so green.

On my way to school I thought about the weird strike of pain I got earlier Was I sick? Maybe it was just heartburn.

I was deep in thought when I was parking my truck. I cut the engine and folded my arms across my chest and leaned back in my seat. I looked my driver seat window to see if I saw Mike anywhere. He still wasn't here. So I just kept thinking about what happened this morning. I thought about I what could have triggered the strike of pain. I remember thinking of leaving and missing my friends. What else did I do?

I turned my head the other way to the passenger seat window. When I saw a silver shiny Volvo parking right next to me. My mouth dropped at who was driving it. Mostly because he was the cutest the guy on the planet and it always took me by surprise but I remembered the moment I was about to say I was going to miss Edward.

…and I was going to miss him. Even if sometimes he was jerk-ish and confused me completely. Suddenly the strike of pain came again. This crush is going to far and now I'm feeling physical pain when I think about him. That's not a good sign of getting over him.

I was watching him when he suddenly turned and looked at me. I turned my head the moment I realized he was turning to face me and I turned my head so fast I probably got whiplash. From the corner of my eye he was smiling at me. Unless I was imagining it. Then I remembered my plan to completely ignore him in my attempt to get over him. Which wasn't exactly going so great right now.

I snatched my bag and hopped out of my truck and practically ran to the front o f the school. I looked back at him he was walking two yards behind me. And his eyes where on me and when he saw me looking back at him he smiled. I sped up, hoping not to trip. I stooped right at the foot of the steps, almost tripping over the first step, in the front of the school that led to the front doors of the school. I practically almost feel forward. I looked around trying to spot someone I knew.

I spotted Jessica, when I felt someone right behind me. I peeked back a little at who it was. He towered right over me, I knew it was him because I saw his pale white hand. I hesitated and looked up a little. He was starring straight down at me smiling. He began to speak, then I threw my hand up and yelled.

"Hey Jessica!" I was happy to see her turn her head my way and smile when she saw me. I ran up to her and hugged her warmly. Right now she had became my safe harbor away from Edward.

She was talking to someone when I yelled to her. I looked behind her to see it was Angela she smiled at me when she saw me. I walked up to her and gave her a warm hug. She was my bestest friend and I had just realized that. On my last day in Forks I barely realized that. I felt like an idiot.

I smiled at there confused faces. I never hugged them before and they were a bit confused with my eager happiness. I ignored the curiosity in my head about Edward about to talk to me and his beautiful smile faced to me. .

"Where's Mike?" I asked and turned my head to the parking lot. I was really just using that as an excuse to see where Edward had gone. He was still starring at me, smiling when I looked at him. Then he lifted his hand and waved hi. I looked away, back at Jessica and Angela. They were starring at Edward and then turned back to look at me. They seemed shocked, good. So I wasn't imagining it. Then Edward started walking up to me. I thought I felt my mouth drop. I thought he wouldn't bother me while I was Jessica and Angela. But apparently today he was determined to talk to me or something.

"Hey Bella!" I felt an arm wrap around my waist and turn me around. I looked up to see Mike's baby shaped face and his puppy like smile. I smiled up ay him and kissed him on the nose. I hugged him tight and closed my eyes. I could feel the blush on my face. I turned Mike with his back facing Edward and me facing him so I could see what he Edward was doing. I opened my eyes to see Edward.

He was mad. He had the same look on his face on that he had on my first day at Forks High School. He was starring directly at me. What was his problem any ways? What did he want from me? I tried to forget about him. So I closed my eyes and held on to Mike when the bell rang. I said goodbye my friends and gave a kiss to mike on the nose again.

I headed to my first period class. I held on to my book bag strap that went down against my chest. I was smiling and I was happy. I looked up to the dark grey sky and smiled for once. Not even that could put me in a bad mood. I didn't even know why I was happy. The place we where moving to was cloudy most of the time too. So it wasn't the weather I was happy about. I closed my eyes & focused and let the first thought in my head come to me. I saw Edward smiling. Oh no, that's why I was happy. He was for once paying attention to me. That made much to happy for my own good. But that didn't help my plan.

Suddenly someone pulled me by my strap of my book bag. "Bella." It was a beautiful velvet voice I recognized instantly. I froze in my path and turned to around cautiously. I looked up at him. He still had on that scary mean looking face. That beautiful serious looking face.

Then he surprised me. His face fell and he smiled brightly at me. "Bella."

He repeated my name like he was relived. But I wasn't going to let my plan fail that easily.

I focused and composed my face from shock to a stern look.

"What Edward?" I asked coldly. He closed his lips hiding his teeth but he was still smiling at me. He held my gaze for a moment longer then he finally spoke. "Hi."

I was confused. Since when did he smile & tell me hi? But I wasn't going to fail my plan that fast. "Bye."

And I turned to walk away again. "Wait." He garbed me by book bag strap again and pulled me closer. I looked up at his gaze. He intensely looked down on me.

"I need to talk to you, privately." he said restrained.

"No thanks." I said and started walking again. He pulled me again. This time my back was aligned against his chest . He was cold, and a shiver went down my back. I looked up at him again. He was smiling. I would be smiling to from my instant happiness of being so close to him, but I was trying to keep my thoughts straight and not act like an idiot.

"Please." He said sweetly.

I couldn't help but to smile like an idiot. I tried once again to keep my emotions on my face straight. "Fine." I said sternly.

He kept my gaze for a while longer smiling and deeply starring down into my eyes. He was making my plan crumble every second I was with him. Then he finally spoke after a long moment.

"Follow me." then he started to walk and I followed.

I would follow you anywhere, I was saying in my head. I starred at his retreating back. He was walked so fast. So I sped up. I wish our quiet moment would have lasted longer. Shut up! I yelled at myself in my head. My plan wasn't going very well.

We walked behind building four, where my first class was. Which I should really be heading to right now.

He stopped once we were out of sight and turned around to face me. He turned so quickly I almost ran into him. We were only a centimeter apart. He stared down intensely at me and smiled again. I looked back to look around me to escape his gaze. I looked back at him and stepped back a little. He reluctantly stepped back too, realizing I was uncomfortable. "I'm sorry." He said apologetically. "Its okay ."

"I mean, I'm sorry for being rude." He finally spoke.

He was apologizing? Wow. That took me by surprise.

"Oh." I wasn't sure what to say. Even though there was a lot I wanted to say.

"I'm sorry if I have offended you."

"Yes." Sometimes I wanted to tell him off so badly but I could never have the guts to ever do something like that or be that rude back to someone else. Epically not him. But why shouldn't I give him a piece of my mind? He deserves it than anyone else I ever know or offended me! Suddenly I felt a burst of anger. I kept my eyes down.

"Yes, you have offended me!" I raised my voice at him before he could reply.

"And what the heck's your problem anyways? What did I ever do to you-"I continued then looked up at his face, and I couldn't continue any longer. He seemed extremely sad and ashamed. I lost all my courage and anger. I was still mad but I couldn't find enough anger to be mad at him. And seeing his sadness surprised me. And then I felt completely guilty, when I should be completely angry. Instead I was just so happy he was talking to me!

"I'm sorry." I blurted out.

"For what?" he interrupted before I could continue. He raised his head and his eyes were pleading. "You should be furious at me! I'm so sorry Bella! I-"

"I forgive you." I interrupted. I couldn't stay mad at him. "But why where you so mad at me?" I asked. I felt a relief to put the question out there. I eagerly waited for the reply.

He sighed and looked up at the sky. I hope he wasn't going to avoid this.

"Its hard to explain. I want you to know but I'm scared you wont trust me. And I so badly want you to trust me. But it be better for you if you didn't."

Ugh. Again with the mysterious riddles.

"I know what I saw. I know you have some kind of secret. And I promise I wont tell. I'm understanding your some how dangerous, but the thing is I don't care. You don't even have to tell me."

"But I want you to know. I need you to know. But I'm scared you might run from me. You wont want to be near me. But that would be good because I am dangerous and I don't want you to get hurt or-"

"I understand your dangerous but I know your not bad. Your defiantly not a bad person.''

"Your wrong."

He stared at me for a while. Then the warning bell rang. I have to get to class. I began to walk away.

"I'll walk you to class since your boyfriend didn't bother to accompany you."

"No thank you. And Mike didn't have to walk me to class. I didn't bother me. And so what? Its not any of your business."

"I just didn't think it was very polite."

"Look who's talking about politeness. Like you know so much about being polite to others."

"I'm sorry." he said sincerely.

"So are you ever going to tell me?"

"I want to, but I'm afraid you might hate me."

" Why do you want me to know? Why would you care if I hated you? Why does it matter? You don't have to tell me. Its none of my business. I wont tell anyone, I thought I'd already proved that. I'm not sure why you still don't trust me, but we can just forget about this. And we can just move along about this."

"I did trust you wouldn't say anything and I still do. And I want it to be your business. But if we did just forget about the whole situation, would you still talk to me? Or would you avoid me?"

"I never really talked to you. I tried but you ignored me so I just went along with it and ignored it, thinking that's just the way you wanted, so fine."

"You say we should just forget about the situation. So since we were never really friends, that means you will just ignore me and not talk to me? Is that what you will do if we decide to forget about the situation?" If I wasn't moving I wouldn't know how to answer him. But since I am moving, it doesn't matter since I wouldn't be here.

The tardy bell rang. But I didn't pay much attention to it.

"Does it matter to you if I talked to you or not?"

"Yes. Very much." He answered me quickly.

"Did you want us to be friends?" He stayed quiet for along time. That offended me. If he didn't want me to be his friend, what didn't he just say so?

"hmmm…friends?" He said thoughtfully. That sounded like a no to me. We were standing outside my first period class and I was already late as it is.

"Fine. We wont be friends." I said. Before I could go inside, he grabbed my arm urgently.

"Bella! Wait!"

"Don't worry its all forgotten. Nothing ever happened." And then I went inside.

EPOV

I watched her face a moment longer then I hid under her window & closed my eyes listening to her steady heartbeat. Then I herd her footsteps. I tried once again to hear her thoughts and maybe decode her dream. And once again I failed and herd nothing and once again it saddened me. Why did it have to be her thoughts I couldn't hear?

I suddenly realized her footsteps got louder and closer. She was coming to the window. She right above me and I badly wanted to look up and see her beautiful face but I know I would scare her. So I didn't dare. I quickly climbed away to the other side of the house. and retarded into the forest to fast for human eyes to see.

I ran eagerly back home to get ready for school. Because today nothing would hold me back from my Bella. And I tried my best to ignore that nagging thought of, what if she didn't love me back? I was pretty sure she already hated me after how rude I was to her. After I tell her what I was and how deeply I was in love with her and not to mention how deeply in love with her blood, what would she think of me then? I shivered at the thought and tried to avoid it for now because I knew if I thought of it to much it would steal my little confidence I had that the thin chance she could possibly except me. And the even thinner chance that she could ever love me the way I loved her.

My family noticed my eagerness and knew there was something going on. But I didn't bother to answer any of their thoughts. I didn't want tell them anything unless they asked. I didn't want to start anything because at the end I wouldn't do what they expected of me. It would only disappoint them. Now I would do the only one thing I really wanted to do and no one was going to change my mind. I loved Bella and no one was going to stop me from telling her that. …except her. Suddenly that thought came back to me. What would I do if she didn't want me? Why was I so stupid? Of course she wouldn't want me. I am a monster and she is a good angel. But I would still try and tell her everything. I didn't know what I would do afterwards if she didn't love me back and was horrified by me. Maybe I could just kidnap her and use her knowledge of what we are as an excuse to convince Carlisle to change her for me, then I could keep her forever. I liked the thought of being with her forever. But no. I couldn't do that to Bella. If I kidnapped her from her life and brought her into this life, she would surely hate me forever. So I would just try and if she didn't want me I would just watch after her through her life secretly hiding in the shadows.

As we drove into the parking lot I saw her parking her old rusty red Chevy. I rushed to park in the empty lot beside her. I herd my family's inner awareness of why I parked here. They knew better, they knew I shouldn't be this close to her and should do all I could to avoid her. So now they knew what to expect of me today. They could tell I planed to pursue her, and they didn't like the idea.

Arrogant selfless idiot. That was Rosalie's only thought.

I hope you know what your doing Edward. Emeitt.

Think about what your doing Edward. Think of what will probably happen. Your not just putting us in danger, your putting her in danger too. And for that she will surely not want you. Jaspers words hurt the most, but I ignored them all.

Good luck Edward! Alice thought confidently. That was the only encouragement I got. But I didn't need it. I would only do what I wanted now. And somehow try to do what my best for Bella. I would pursue her but I would keep her safe. I looked up and finally saw her beautiful face, for what felt like a long time. I couldn't help but to smile at her. But I wasn't sure she saw me. The moment I faced her she turned fast away. That hurt a little, I wondered why she turned from me so fast. Was she afraid?

I got out to go speak to her finally after what seemed for more then forever. But she had already half ran from her truck heading towards the front school doors. I quickened my pace. I wasn't to far behind her when she looked back at me. I smiled more out of happiness to see her looking at me then trying to be polite. Shock and surprise seemed to cross her face for a split second then she turned quickly away and kept her quick speed heading towards the school. She stooped right at the front steps of the school, almost tripping over the first step and falling face forward. I was surprised she hadn't fallen at all on her hasty almost run to the school.

She was starring at the people standing in the front of the school like she was searching for someone. I stood right behind her smiling at the thought, that I was about to talk to her. She must have sensed my proximity and turned back to see who was standing right behind her. Then she finally looked up at me. I smiled in complete happiness and eagerness to finally speak to her and hear her voice speak back.

I was about to greet her hello when she turned away from me. Her hand flew up in the air and yelled "Hey Jessica!" Jessica turned t see who called her and smiled at realizing it was Bella's warm eager greeting to her. Then Bella ran up to her and hugged her.

I felt like I just been stung. Did she not realize I was about speak to her or did she not want me to speak to her? Did she finally understand and sense I was dangerous? That didn't seem likely. I starred at her greeting her surprised friends at her warm greetings. Then she asked for that vile Mike Newton. That didn't exactly help my morning, I believed would be great. She turned to search for him but looked directly at me. That did help my morning. I smiled at her and she must have noticed because her friends surely did. They turned to her with questing eyes and she didn't seem very nervous till I began to walk towards them. Then shock crossed their faces, when Mike Newton interrupted.

I wanted to rip his arm off and throw him across the parking lot when I saw him wrap his arm around Bella's waist. She turned away from me and to him. And then to top all of she smiled a big beautiful smile at him. He came to greet her and she greeted him much to happy then I would have liked. She greeted him back and kissed him on the tip of his nose. Then looked down with her eyes closed and her cheeks turning pink. He liked rather much but I surely didn't. then they spun around together with her still in his arms. I felt a great rage flame inside of me, building. She now faced me and then she took a quick glance at my way. Her face seemed a little surprised when she spotted me. I tried to read her eyes. All I saw there was more of a scowl or glare that was faced at me. I didn't know why but I don't think she welcomed me.

When I realized of course she would react like that, after how I treated her for the last month. Of course she wouldn't exactly be very happy with me. But I would try to change that. I would make it right someway and hopefully win her forgiveness. That could be my first step. Surely that was the first thing I should do. Apologize and ask her to forgive me.

I smiled at her despite her unhappiness with me. She closed her eyes and held on to Mike. Then the bell rang and she told them all goodbye, kissed him on the nose again and headed to class.

He was so sickening happy that she greeted him warmer then usual. But he felled to see he didn't deserve it much. He wasn't such a great mate to her, he didn't even offer to walk her to class. Or maybe I was just being bitter because she preferred him rather then me. I could only hope that would change.

I followed after her. She seemed at peace, smiling up at the sky. But not looking down at the ground to watch where she was going. Was that really best thing for her? She already couldn't walk across a flat surface with out needing something to trip over to cause her falling to the ground. Was looking up at the sky really the best thing for her. And she usually grimaced at the sky there was no difference of it today what made her appreciate it now? But if it made her happy, I was happy at it too. I quickly cached up to her. I tugged at her book bag strap to pause her and catch her attention. "Bella."

She looked up at me quickly, a bit taken by surprise. I was still a little upset at how she was not at best ends with me but with Mike. But saying her name felt like a great weight had been lifted of my chest and I could breath again. It felt so good to say her name while seeing her beautiful face, I couldn't stop myself from saying it a second time, nor did I want to stop myself. "Bella." the name left my lips in relief.

Her face changed from surprise to annoyance. "What Edward?" She said icily. The tone of her voice saddened me but I didn't give up. I hid my teeth from her, not wanting her to notice my obscure sharp teeth, and scare her. But I didn't stop smiling. I tried to cherish this moment a little longer, the time I got with her. I tried to get my priorities straight in my head.

Be friendly, don't scare her, think of what is best to keep her safe, remember the danger you are to her. And what to do if she didn't want me back. To many thoughts where rushing through me. And I felt frozen at the sight of her face and nervous not to seem like a fool to her.

"Hi." that wasn't much but good enough, I thought. She seemed confused.

"Bye" was all she said and turned away from me beginning to walk away.

"Wait." I said eagerly. I didn't know what I was doing, it just took over me, I didn't want her to leave me just yet. I pulled her closer to me with out even thinking. Her scent sunk into my head but It didn't control me like it had before, like on the first day. No, not anymore. Not after spending every night in her room.

"I need to talk to you, privately." I said hoping she would grasp that I needed to talk to her badly, for my own sake and sanity.

"No thanks." She said stubbornly and tried to walk away again. I pulled her even closer now that, her back was against my chest. Her proximity made a spark of joy go through my body.

"Please." I said trying to use the voice I usually used with humans to persuade them. It seemed to work. She flashed a quick smile, her faced shifted and answered sternly, "Fine."

I tried reading her eyes once again to understand why she smiled so big at me all of a sudden. I found no answer in her eyes but I was happy at her answer.

"Follow me." I headed to the back of the building of what I knew was her first class, there where no one would hear or see us. I could hear her stumbling feet struggling behind close to mine. When we where out of sight I turned to face her, she almost crashed into me which took me by surprise. She stopped right before she did. She was very close to me and it made me quite happy. I couldn't help but to smile down at her. She looked away from me. She faced me again stepping away. I stepped back to seeing she was uncomfortable.

I decided to get to the point and start the conversation. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay ." she answered thinking I meant my proximity making her uncomfortable.

"I mean, I'm sorry for being rude." I explained. She looked up at me looking confused. I must have really taken her by surprise there.

"Oh." was all she answered.

"I'm sorry if I have offended you." I continued to apologize. She kept her eyes on the ground.

"Yes." that's all I expected her to say when she paused. I was about to continue of how rude it was of me and ask for her forgiveness when she burst out at me.

"Yes, you have offended me!" She raised her voice. I looked down. I should of expected her to get angry but it seemed out of her character. I waited in shame for her to finish, knowing this is what I disserved and much more.

"And what the heck's your problem anyways? What did I ever do to you-" Then she paused.

"I'm sorry." she finally spoke. That shocked me and caused a spark in my voice.

"For what?!" I was surprised at the highness of my voice, but I was completely shocked at what she could be possibly have to apologize for. She owed me a list of complaints and shouts plus more.

"You should be furious at me! I'm so sorry Bella! I-" I tried to continue but she shocked me once more.

"I forgive you." Shock slapped me again. I was preparing how I would win her forgiveness and she just hands it to me with me not having to even ask! I didn't even deserve it!

"But why where you so mad at me?" I looked at her face, studying it. She was starring at me eager for a reply, I didn't need to read her eyes to know that, but I read her eyes anyways curious to se what I would find there. I was surprised to see that she wanted my forgiveness. But it maddened me. What did she want me to forgive her for? There was nothing to forgive! She didn't do anything! And to answer her question, what should I say? It would lead to why I didn't tell her about the accident and all of that. I looked up at the sky. Hoping for some relief to what to say to her.

"Its hard to explain. I want you to know but I'm scared you wont trust me. And I so badly want you to trust me. But it be better for you if you didn't."

"I know what I saw. I know you have some kind of secret. And I promise I wont tell. I'm understanding your some how dangerous, but the thing is I don't care. You don't even have to tell me." She replied.

"But I want you to know. I need you to know. But I'm scared you might run from me. You wont want to be near me. But that would be good because I am dangerous and I don't want you to get hurt or-" I tried hastily to explain what ever way I could, but she interrupted.

"I understand your dangerous but I know your not bad. Your defiantly not a bad person.''

"Your wrong." was all I could reply. She must now this. She must grasp it. If I wasn't bad, I'd let her live her life in peace. And not have altered it. I studied her face hoping that I would find a clue that she would grasp what I was saying and at the same time horrified if she did, and she would probably run from me.

The warning bell rang, but I hardly heard it. It was hardly noticeable in the background of my tangled thoughts racing all at once for my attention to deal with them.

"I have to get to class." she stated and started to walk away. The bell meant my time was up. But I wasn't ready for it to be over just yet.

"I'll walk you to class since your boyfriend didn't bother to accompany you."

"No thank you. And Mike didn't have to walk me to class. It didn't bother me. And so what? Its not any of your business." she retorted back at me. It didn't make me happy that she was defending him and keeping me out of her business. Even though she had every right of keeping me out of her business. But to me it meant she wasn't letting me into her life. Which I was letting her into my life trying to tell her everything but at the same time I was just endangering her. It was right for her to keep me out of her life.

"I'm sorry" I said ashamed of what I was doing. "I just didn't think it was very polite."

"Look who's talking about politeness. Like you know so much about being polite to others." she retorted.

"I'm sorry." I said sincerely.

"So are you ever going to tell me?" She said curiously.

"I want to, but I'm afraid you might hate me." I answered honestly.

" Why do you want me to know? Why would you care if I hated you? Why does it matter? You don't have to tell me. Its none of my business. I wont tell anyone, I thought I'd already proved that. I'm not sure why you still don't trust me, but we can just forget about this. And we can just move along about this." she suggested. She wanted to know why. I wasn't sure how to answer. I wanted to say its because I love her and want her in my life and I want her to now. But I wondered what she meant by forgetting.

"I did trust you wouldn't say anything and I still do. And I want it to be your business. But if we did just forget about the whole situation, would you still talk to me? Or would you avoid me?"

"I never really talked to you. I tried but you ignored me so I just went along with it and ignored it, thinking that's just the way you wanted, so fine."

"You say we should just forget about the situation. So since we were never really friends, that means you will just ignore me and not talk to me? Is that what you will do if we decide to forget about the situation?" I didn't want her to ignore me.

"Does it matter to you if I talked to you or not?"

"Yes. Very much." I answered quickly. I want to be in her life.

"Did you want us to be friends?" I thought about that. I didn't want to be friends, it wasn't enough.

"hmmm…friends?" But if that's the only way should would want me. that could be the first step to becoming closer. I was about to answer when she retorted.

"Fine. We wont be friends." No. I wasn't going to let her go that easily. I grabbed her arm.

"Bella! Wait!"

"Don't worry its all forgotten. Nothing ever happened." And she went inside.

This really wasn't becoming the day I planed. What had I done? She thought I meant I didn't want to be friends when I took to long to answer. Now she would be incredibly angry with me. Id be blessed if she ever talked to me again. I wonder if she grasped that I was dangerous or not. Staying away fro me would be the best thing. But I still would try, that's how selfish a creature I was.

BPOV

Jerk!

No, he wasn't a jerk. I just wasn't good enough to be his friend or anything else. He made that obvious the first time why didn't I just realize it soon enough? I wrapped my arms around me protectively and bit on my lip in stress. I had a sick feeling in my stomach. I wanted to cry for being so stupid and I felt the tears building up inside of me. They were warm and fresh inside my eyes.

The teacher called to me demanding to know why I was late. I ignored him as he talked because it was like I could barley hear him. I headed to my seat, when realizing all eyes where on me. I was dripping wet since it had started to rain and stupid Edward was holding me up.

The teacher demanded again upset now that I wasn't listening.

I could feel my tears at edge. I squeezed them tight shut Hoping no one would see. But one tear got away. I quickly swept it away along with all thoughts of Edward. I looked up to answer. "I woke up late, sorry." Then I looked down. Edward had just gave me the push to completely get over him. It hurt and it would sting later on when I thought about it but I don't care, he wasn't nice! So I didn't like him because he was so mean! What did I do to him?! No wonder no one pays attention to them! They really thought they were to good for any of us! Maybe they where right. They were beautiful and some kind of strengths and speeds they were keeping a secret. They where something else. But what did he wanted me to know? And what did he care if I hated him? Frustrating. And it was worse that this morning Charlie said we were staying till the end of the week maybe. Because we weren't exactly ready to move. But I was so badly wanted to just leave early and not see Edward again. So maybe I would just skip school today or something. On my way to lunch I told Angela, Jessica and Mike that I was moving and probably leaving early today. Mike didn't take it well. They convinced me to stay at least while lunch. I agreed but if the news got around I was leaving and there were to many eyes on me I would make an excuse and head out. I was making this hasty plans in my head while we waited in line. my best friends chattered at me but I wasn't really listening. I felt so pathetic, I was running away from my problems.

Is this what I was always going to do? Just run at the first sign of trouble? Sure Edward was kind of jerk-ish, and sure I wasn't exactly being truthful to Mike exactly. But it was kind of dangerous here with people going missing. But there was more going missing in the town we were about to move to. That thought didn't help. Poor Charlie he needed a new life, this could almost be helpful for him if it wasn't the people going missing in that town, this would almost be good for us.

My friends went ahead to get their lunch while I strayed behind deep in thought. "Hello Bella" I herd his voice say. that's when I noticed I was alone, but I wasn't alone.

"Hi." I said monotone and walked away to catch up with the rest of them. I was at the front of the line buying only a lemonade and a apple for lunch while they waited for me when he followed after me again. "Bella I-"

"Don't care." I cut him off icily.

"Please Bella, I -"

Then I walked away. I didn't care anymore. At least that's what I was forcing myself to think. I walked away with my friends chattering around me. They hadn't noticed Edward thank god or else they wouldn't have left me alone about it. They were suggesting they throw me a going away party, but I lied there wouldn't be enough time. Then they suggested we skip class and celebrate. I wasn't up for that either. I would never be up for something like that. But today I would skip, but by myself.

We all sat down together for the last time. I kept throwing glances at Jessica hoping she hadn't or wouldn't say anything about me leaving yet. When I looked at her again she was starring at something ahead of us and she didn't look happy. Before I could turn to see at what she turned to me with questing eyes.

"Why is he starring at you again?" she asked. I spun quickly to know what exactly she was talking about, when I saw Edward starring at me. He was standing there leaning against a table, I hesitated. Before I could look away and just tell Jessica to forget him, he started walking towards me. I saw Jessica's mouth drop from the corner of my eye. Then Mike turned around to see what we were starring at he, wasn't to happy. I didn't want there attention to be on this little problem I had going on with Edward right now. Then Tyler turned to me and asked, "Is it true Bella, your leaving?" that's when everyone on our table turned to look at me. I looked at all of them and my face started turning red, I could feel it. Then Jessica asked,

"What does Edward want?" then Angela and Tyler turned to see him approaching too.

"I have to go get something from my truck ill be right back." I came up with a quick excuse and I got up.

"I'll come with you." Mike suggested.

"No thank you. I just forgot my book for next period and my excuse to leave campus early."

I got up and walked away. I threw my unfinished lunch in the trash and went out the doors. "Hello Bella!" "I herd an angelic voice say to me. I looked up to see Edwards sister, Alice I believe, across from me waving at me with a big smile on her face. She was talking to one of Edwards brother's, Jasper I think. I smiled and started walking away. Why was she talking to me? I thought they didn't talk to anyone, although she was the only one who told me hi, jasper just starred at me.

I herd Mike's voice as I walked away. "Hey Bella, wait up." I kept walking. He caught up to me fast and I slowed down. I was thinking of an excuse to be alone, when he asked. "So what time our you leaving?"

"Maybe during class or before class."

"Oh." He answered sadly. "That soon?"

"Yup. I promise to visit a lot when I can. And ill call you all almost every day. I'm sorry I'm leaving and all." I looked down, after answering him sincerely.

"Can I speak to you alone Bella." I looked up at the sound of his voice. Mike wasn't so happy.

"Were a bit busy talking." He retorted. They were both glaring at each other.

"I have to go to the consular to ask for some papers. I'll talk to you later Mike." I hugged him and the whole time he glared at Edward. "'Ill call you later Bella." he said not even looking at me but still glaring at Edward. I remembered what Edward said about Mike not being a good boyfriend, and it bothered me to see him paying attention to me but instead scowling at Edward when he kind of should be paying attention to me since I was leaving.

Mike headed back to the cafeteria. And I quickly headed to the front office hoping to escape Edward. I went in to ask for my papers, she was taking long when the bell rang which meant lunch was over. Everyone would be heading to class. So I hoped so would Edward.

The warning bell for 1 minute to get to get class was almost going to ring. "Dear," the front office lady called me. "Shouldn't you be heading to class?"

I was a little impatient. "I had come to ask for my papers, remember?"

"Oh, right. I'll get you those." She finally gave me my transfer papers and I headed to my truck.

I decided to skip school and go home and pre occupy myself with packing. So that way Charlie wouldn't have to cancel the moving trucks tomorrow afternoon. I unlocked my door and began to open it when a white icy hand closed it and laid there keeping it closed. Keeping me from leaving.

I decided not to even look at him. I would just try to be patient and concentrate on getting away from him as soon as possible.

"Hello Bella."

I waited. I could feel his gaze on my face. But I was to scared to turn. Scared of what? I did not know.

Maybe seeing his face and him finally speaking to me would crumble my will power. And I would have to start all over trying to get over him.

"You've been very graceful today, but not very patient." Then he giggled. What the heck did that mean? and whatever patience I had crumbled with his comment.

"What do you want Edward?"

"First to apologize for being very rude in the past and offending you." he said sincerely. I kept my face composed and focused. I didn't dare look at him.

"Your apology has been recognized." then I pulled on my door handle, but he didn't move"

" I also want to ask for you forgiveness. Will you forgive me for being completely absurd to you?"

"I already had." I stated a little annoyed.

"What about for my recent offense?" I believe you miss understood me and I offended you."

I waited for him to continue. He stayed quite for a moment.

"Shouldn't you be in class?"

"Shouldn't you?" he retorted. I wasn't sure what to say. I didn't want to get caught.

"Are you finished yet? You apologized and I forgave you."

"What about earlier today? I am very sorry for offending you. I would love to be friends its just dangerous for you to be close to me. And you already know I am different. You have your proof."

"So you emit I'm not crazy?" I said eagerly almost smiling. I almost slipped and looked at him.

He chuckled before answering. "Not completely."

I frowned at his teasing.

"Okay then, will bye." I nudged at my door but he still he didn't budge.

"Was there more you wanted to say?" "Edward?" I said his name for pleasure which I really shouldn't have.

"Yes."

"Then please continue."

"Will you agree to be friends? Only if you please."

"No."

"Are you still angry with me?"

I sighed letting out my past anger. "No."

"Then why?"

"It wouldn't work."

He stayed quiet for a moment "It wouldn't work being friends?" He said confused.

"No"

"Are you afraid? Have you finally grasped what I've been saying?"

"No." I said nearly laughing. He thought I was afraid of him but that had nothing to do with it. "I understand your dangerous but that still has nothing to do with it."

He stayed quiet. "Is it because I haven't proven of being a good friend?"

"No."

He stayed quit again. "I don't understand.'' He finally stated.

"Doesn't matter." I said dismissively, more to myself then answering him. I pulled on my door but he still didn't move. I was getting angry.

"Please finish Edward."

"Explain."

"Explain what?"

"We cant be friends? It doesn't matter? Do you really dislike me that much?"

"I don't dislike you. And it wouldn't work to be friends, doesn't matter if we were or were not friends because it wouldn't work out."

I pulled on my door once more but he still didn't move.

"What do you want from me Edward?" I yelled and looked up at him finally, but in in anger losing all my patience with him.

"I'm tired of staying away from you Bella. I just want to fix that, that's all I want!" he raised his voice a little but his voice was restrained but surprisingly still beautiful, his eyes pleading and tired. He seemed restrained and un happy. It made me sad to see him like that.

"I'm moving." That's all I had to say. That's all I could come up with after that comment.

"So it wouldn't work being friends since I'm moving, it doesn't matter."

Thankfully he moved his hand and I quickly climbed into my truck. He closed my door for me. I felt awkward and confused. Even more confused.

"I promise not to say a word about anything I saw that day. Your secret safe with me. That's all forgotten." I reassured him smiling. He didn't answer but stayed quiet, still staring at me.

"Good bye Edward." he glared at me some more.

I looked away and started to pull away when he smiled and said "See you soon."

It sounded like a double meaning. What did that mean? I was suddenly anxious to find out.

EPOV

I decided not to listen in on Bella's friends, I was afraid when I did get the chance to tell her about what I was and my passion for her, I didn't want to tell her I how I kpt listening in on her conversations, I knew that might upset her. Lots of things about me might upset her.

I almost slipped and watched her through her friends eyes on their way to lunch, but I knew seeing her around Mike Newton wouldn't help my patience and would only upset me more. Last thing I needed right now as a bad case of jealousy getting strong and me getting closer to killing the boy.

I caught my chance to talk to Bella when her friends had momentarily left her alone when they moved up in the lunch line Bella was still preoccupied with getting her lunch.

"Hello Bella" I greeted her. She barely glanced up at me and answered me not even half heartedly in a voice with no tone or emotion to it. "Hi." then she walked away casually to catch up with her friends.

She was at the front of the line buying only an apple and a lemonade when I tried again.

"Bella I-"

"Don't care." she cut me off, with attitude.

"Please Bella, I -" I tried again pleading but she didn't listen. She just walked away not caring much for what I had to say.

I avoided sitting with my siblings and I decided to sit alone instead at a table that was never used. I leaned against it not really bothering to buy lunch or sit down but instead watched Bella thinking out my plans.

Obliviously I'd messed up big and she dismissed my presence around her, but I had no waver inside of me to give up trying. I thought it would come to this, I couldn't give up on the girl. I just dint have it in me. Alice was right, that was a lost cause.

I would wait till biology were she would have no option but to hear me out, since she sat right next to me. I would keep apologizing till she forgave me. I would clear the misunderstanding this morning and let her know I did want to be friends. And be friendly to her even though if she may say no. and hopefully her anger would loosen little by little, and we would become friends.

But that was where my planning stopped. I wasn't sure how to win anymore of her affection than that. I would be just her friend if that's the only way she would have me. And I would let her in on my secret hoping she wouldn't fear or hate me.

I noticed Bella was glancing at Jessica a lot. I started pondering why.

Jessica as watching me, Why is Cullen starring at Bella again? She thought.

As I watched Bella I felt that weird emotion again. Something was puling at me towards her. She followed Jessica's stair to where I was. When she looked directly at me where I was, I just couldn't stay away. It was just like a magnetic pull to her that was hard to resists. I didn't realize I was walking towards her till I heard Jessica's mental thought, He's coming this way. What does he want? Is he coming to talk to Bella?

Jessica's expression caught Mike's attention he, cursed interlay at me when he saw me coming there way. But I wasn't listening to them much.

She started turning red and then Jessica asked,

"What does Edward want?" Two more children turned around.

"I have to go get something from my truck ill be right back."

Then she started to the exit doors.

"I'll come with you." The stupid boy who has been on my nerves lately suggested. I didn't like the idea of them two being alone together. It angered me.

"No thank you. I just forgot my book for next period and my excuse to leave campus early." I was happy to her answer but upset that she was leaving campus early. I could I handle not to follow her off campus?

She threw her lunch on her way out, when I realized an too eager Alice was close to the doors. When she saw Bella she couldn't resist, the words were out of her mouth before she could even think of her choice, but she didn't care.

"Hello Bella!" She waved enthusiastic with a grin at poor Bella who seemed astonished. Jasper was with her. It didn't help my case to see Jasper near her, he still hadn't gained whole control of his bloodlust since he wasn't as old as us yet.

Bella just smiled friendly and walked away, Thank God. I didn't want her near Jasper. Mike Newton cached up to her before I could, I started to walk faster after them. I ignored whatever conversation they were having and interrupted rudely on purpose.

"Can I speak to you alone Bella." mike was very angry but I could not tell what Bella thought, only her eyes had questions.

"Were a bit busy talking." He retorted. I glared him down and he scowled back. He cursed at me in his head, once again I felt like throwing him into the wall.

"I have to go to the office to ask for some papers. I'll talk to you later Mike." then she hugged the foolish boy. But he wasn't polite enough to even look at her he just kept up the long list of curse words. "Ill call you later Bella." he said not even looking at her. He angered me more every second but at least he left and left me alone to my Bella. But before I could decide what to say, she walked away and entered the front office. I waited for her wondering what to say to her and not paying attention to the bells. I was so consumed in thought about what the heck I was doing and the dangers I was putting her in, that I didn't notice she was heading to the parking lot. I watched her as she stumbled over her steps, I think she was so use to it she didn't even notice that she did. I was surprised she hadn't fallen once today, I was proud of her.

Before she could get in I placed my hand on her door trying to hold her from leaving, at least until I told her what I needed to start trying to be her friend.

"Hello Bella." I was grinning at the thought how many times I got to say her name today and speak to her, then I remembered how she hated me and hadn't answered me much back. Oh yeah, she pretty much hated me. Why? Because I was a fool. Right. that's what Rosalie always told me and now I couldn't help but to think she was right.

I was a fool to bring Bella into this life, it was no place for a human, especially not the human who had the worst luck and the only human I loved. And I was even more of a fool to think she would love me back.

She didn't answer my greeting or look up at me. Again she ignored me.

"You've been very graceful today, but not very patient."

"What do you want Edward?" She finally spoke, but with attitude.

"First to apologize for being very rude in the past and offending you." I spoke.

"Your apology has been recognized." she then tried to open her door again, but I dint budge just yet.

" I also want to ask for you forgiveness. Will you forgive me for being completely absurd to you?"

"I already had." she sound impatient.

"What about for my recent offense?" I believe you miss understood me and I offended you."

No answer, then she retorted.

"Shouldn't you be in class?"

"Shouldn't you?" I replied back.

"Are you finished yet? You apologized and I forgave you." She answered.

"What about earlier today? I am very sorry for offending you. I would love to be friends its just dangerous for you to be close to me. And you already know I am different. You have your proof."

I decided to give her what she wanted, the truth.

"So you emit I'm not crazy?" she said pleased an smile almost forming on her lips. Her head slightly towards me, but she still didn't look at me.

"Not completely." I teased.

"Okay then, will bye." she tried for her door but I didn't move.

"Was there more you wanted to say?" "Edward?" hearing her say my name made me more eager. I couldn't help but to smilie.

"Yes." I simply answered.

"Then please continue."

"Will you agree to be friends? Only if you please."

"No."

"Are you still angry with me?" I asked thinking that could only be the reason.

She took a deep breath and answered. "No."

"Then why?" I demanded confused.

"It wouldn't work."

I was completely dumbfounded. "It wouldn't work being friends?"

"No"

"Are you afraid? Have you finally grasped what I've been saying?" I was happy if she did but yet hopping she didn't scared at the outcome of her not wanting me because of that.

"No." She said amused. "I understand your dangerous but that still has nothing to do with it."

I pondered at her response. I didn't think the situation was funny, but I badly wanted to be in the joke. I felt anxious again to know her thoughts and tried to understand what she meant.

"Is it because I haven't proven of being a good friend?" I guessed again.

"No."

Wrong again. Why couldn't we try being friends? "I don't understand.'' I finally stated.

"Doesn't matter." She dismissed the conversation and pulled on her door again. She seemed a bit more impatient now. But I wasn't done yet.

"Please finish Edward."

Frustrated! I was now frustrated!

"Explain." I said as calmly as I could. I wanted to know so badly what she meant and hear her thoughts.

"Explain what?"

"We cant be friends? It doesn't matter? Do you really dislike me that much?" She hated me!

"I don't dislike you." That was the best news I herd all day. "And it wouldn't work to be friends, doesn't matter if we were or were not friends because it wouldn't work out." that frustrated me more, I still had no clue what she meant. Their was absolutely no making sense of the girl. She tried at her door, but I wasn't giving up yet. This made her mad.

"What do you want from me Edward?" She yelled at me. I had a feeling all this time, that was her patience and it finally broke. She finally looked at me in anger. Then the truth spilled.

"I'm tired of staying away from you Bella. I just want to fix that, that's all I want!"

She was quiet, breathing hard her eyes on me for once. I waited eagerly for her response.

"I'm moving."

…Great….

My day wasn't getting any better.

"So it wouldn't work being friends since I'm moving, it doesn't matter." She explained. I removed my hand from her door, she quickly got in and I politly closed the door for her. I was in a trance, consumed in thought.

It made sense now. I hadn't been listening to the others thoughts because my mind was consumed with Bella as always, I hadn't notice that that's what they were all thinking. She was moving to a different town. Taking all my chances with being with her

"I promise not to say a word about anything I saw that day. Your secret safe with me. That's all forgotten." She reassured me smiling. Her expression seemed concerned. I must have surprised her with my reactions and all.

"Good bye Edward." I still starred at her. This didn't change anything though.

I had no will power. I smiled at her and spoke.

"See you soon."

She starred at me bewildered. I think she might have understood what I said. Then when she kept starring at me not paying attention to the road, I was sure she understood.

"Hello Edward. How did it go?" Alice asked perky on our way to the Volvo, with Jasper arm wrapped around her. He was starring at me, watching me. He was suspicious of what I told Bella, how much I told her.

As we approached the car I looked at Jasper.

"Don't worry. I didn't tell her anything she didn't already know." Then I unlocked my driver seat door and whispered. "Not yet."

"What?" He said raising his voice and in disbelief.

I looked up facing his glare "What?" I asked as if I didn't hear him. He knew better. These aggravated him more.

"Edward!"

"She's moving." He waited expecting their was more to the story.

I rolled my eyes. "What?" I asked innocently.

"You know what! Talk!" He retorted.

None of them got in the car, they were all standing around the Volvo listening to me and Jasper argue. He glared at me and wouldn't budge till I told him. I looked away from him avowing his scowl.

"Oh God! Edward, what did you do now?" Rosalie said angrily throwing one arm up in the air.

"It might not be what he did but what he's going to do." Alice stated.

I felt like the bad child in the family right now. I didn't like how Rosalie and Jasper right away accused me of something. Even though they were right.

"Why is she moving?" Alice asked disappointed and curiously.

"From what I herd of her friends thoughts she is moving to a new town where her dad got a new job."

"What town?" Alice asked.

"I don't know." I said looking at Jasper who was still glaring at me.

"What are you planning?" He asked restrained.

"Planning?" I asked?

"Yes Edward! What are you going to do now? I know your going to do something that someway or other is going to expose us."

I stayed quiet.

"What did you already do?" He asked suspicious.

"What do you mean?"

"You said you didn't tell her anything she didn't already know. What does that mean?"

"She already knows there is something different about us. I just told her she is right. Which she already knew. And she took it as good news that she wasn't completely crazy." Emeitt giggled at the last sentence.

"You told her what we are!" Jasper was furious.

"No."

"But you are going to, aren't you?"

"…Maybe."

"Ugh, Edward!" Rosalie said. Jasper sighed in disappointment. Then Alice had a vision, they all waited epically Jasper who was eager to know if it was something about me.

"We're moving?" Alice asked, exiting her vision and blinking in confusion.

"You want us to move just to follow the girl? Jasper asked.

"but I don't want to move!" Rosalie asked making it about her self and what she wants. Like anybody cares. Emeit rapped is arm around her, comforting her.

"Jasper leave him alone!" Alice stood up for me. "she is going to be my best friend soon, so get use to it!"

He looked at her for a while. I was afraid if Bella told, the Voultri would punish us for the humans knowledge of our existence, and Alice getting hurt.

"She wont tell anyone, Jasper."

"How do you know."

"She promised before she left."

Jasper was still skeptical.

"Lets just go home and see what Carlisle has to say about this." Emeitt suggested.

"He has bad news waiting for us." Alice stated. We all turned to her.

"I had a vision earlier, he noticed there have been a lot of people going missing in a town not to far from here, he thinks it could be one of our kind." She explained, her voice growing lower as she got to the last part.

"Then we better be heading home." I stated and they all got in the car. I noticed they were all focusing on me, trying to decide what they thought about me being in love with a human and how I've changed. A car full of tension didn't ease my thoughts and worry's about Bella. I talked to her which was the best thing of today, which didn't turn out so well. But it was wonderful hearing her voice that made it a whole lot better. I thought a head at the argument waiting at home that would surely start.

Yes, this was certainly not one of my best days.

BPOV

Today was my first day of school.

It should be very exciting.

Am I excited?

No.

Why?

One word…

Edward.

That was something how my conversation went with Charlie these morning except I didn't answer the why question. And that was how a few other of my conversations went this weekend when me and Charlie spent father-daughter time in town. My new town. Mostly everyone was friendly and asked me the same questions. It was annoying, but I was friendly each time and answered there questions.

"What town did you come from?"

I had to answer forks but also tell them the slight detail I'm not exactly from there because I was born in Phoenix. Which started more questions.

"What's it like there?"

"How did you like it in Forks?"

"How do you like it here?"

"What grade are you in?"

"When do you start school?"

"Which of the two high schools in town are you attending?"

"Are you excited?"

"Why are you not excited?"

So I started to lie that I was excited to avoid explaining why I wasn't, and lie why I wasn't excited. But I was a bad liar. And lied that I did like it in Forks since I didn't want Charlie to know I hated it there even though I moved there. But like I said I was a bad liar and people could tell I didn't like it in Forks.

Today was going to be along day.

When I got to school, it was like the my first day at Forks High School, everyone was starring at me. I was really scared at first when I saw everyone starring at me then as I walked to the office everyone was waving hi to me. I started getting use to it. On my way out to the office and on my way to class, awfully early, people still waved and called me by my name I got so comfortable that I waved back or gave them a friendly smile. I was getting so use to waving hi and smiling, when I herd a very familiar voice like velvet it almost knocked e over in shock! I froze in my tracks and turned to the side where I herd the voice come from. He smiled a beautiful smile, crocked, and waved hello.

My mouth fell open.

"H-hi." I said dumbfounded and kept walking looking back, with my mouth wide open. To be truthfully I didn't even know which direction I was going, I just starred back at him. Then I stopped and turned all the way around and just starred at him. He was still looking at me smiling, then he waved again. I wondered if I dare go back or not.

I started heading his way when a boy came up to me and started speaking to me but I didn't notice him enough the first time I just kept walking towards Edward with my mouth still open then stopped realizing the boy was talking to me.

"Hey. Your Isabella Swan, right?"

"Yeah, hi." I said hardly looking at him, my eyes kept flickering to Edward. The boy started to talk again but I was still to shocked to listen or remember what he said. Then he shifted his weight blocking my view of Edward. I rudely peeked around him to see Edward.

He began to laugh, he was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed watching me. I began to smile like an idiot. I quickly realized where I was and what I was doing. I couldn't belive for a moment I forgot where I was, there was someone talking to me right in front of my face and all I saw was Edward. I finally looked at the poor boy who was talking to me and bean to listen to him for the first time.

"….having a party to my house and your invited. Do you wana come?"

I was getting invited to a party? Me? "Me?"

"Yeah.." he said.

"wow" I was telling to myself more then the boy. My mother would be proud. I hardly even got invited to birthday party's when I was little.

"Thanks for the invite. Um, ill catch up with you later."

"Cool." He smiled. If you want to come just tell me and Ill tell you the address and give you directions.

"Ok."

"Bye Isabella."

"Bye" I said.

I was careful not to look towards Edward and walk away with whatever dignity I had left after my reaction at him he surely saw. But it didn't help much I almost tripped twice and stumbled over every other step I took.

The moment I walked in my first period a cheerful pixie sized girl was leaning on a table right in front of the door smiling and starring at the people who came in. when she saw me she yelled, "Bella!" as if she were waiting for me.

"Hi." I said and kept walking ignoring her. I was freaked out enough for one day by her brother. I sat down at an empty seat on the right near the back of the room.

When the teacher called to order of the students and took attendance, the pixie sized girl was sitting next to her sister, the other girl, the blond one. They sat at the very back on the left side of the room.

My day was kind of nice, if were a regular teenager and all. But since it was me and my weird socializing, I didn't like all the attention but I got used to it, it was a little comforting, hardly.

Then when I walked into my 3rd period and sat down alone, I pulled out my book deciding to read and sat there peacefully till class started. I didn't even notice there was someone sitting beside me. I looked up to see it was Edward, he was watching me read.

I froze.

"Hello Bella."

"Hi." I replied a few seconds late. Then the teacher started class, not giving him a chance to continue, Thank God.

The teacher asked for everyone to get into partners. Edward turned to me and asked "Do you have a partner?"

Obviously I answered "No."

"Want to be partners?"

"Sure."

"Does everyone have a partner?" the teacher asked.

"No" a beautiful voice answered from behind us. I looked back to see it was Edwards sister, the blond one. She was sitting to tables behind us alone.

"You be partners with your sister. I don't mind working alone." I suggested.

He chuckled. "Are you that desperate to get rid of me Bella?"

"No! I- just thought, I mean…ugh…" I said trying to apologize.

"Its ok. I was just kidding, Bella." He chuckled again.

"Oh...right."

"Besides, Rosalie's a pain." He answered. I looked back towards her.

"I heard that." She stated.

He laughed again. I turned towards him.

"Good.'' He replied sharply.

I tried not to laugh but a giggle escaped. I sure I saw Rosalie scowl at me so I turned all the way around facing forward then looked away from them both.

Our conversation was mostly on the lab we were doing and the teacher came around often so we didn't have much of a chance to talk. In my next class I got to sit next to a girl named Alex. She was really friendly and invited me to sit with her friends at lunch, I excepted not wanting to sit alone. I really liked Alex, she kept me laughing all during the class and she understood sarcasm! In Forks no one seemed to understand me when I used it, I thought I would lose my sense of humor after a few weeks of that depressing weather. When I told her that she laughed.

We headed to lunch together, for a moment she left me alone in the lunch line and Alice came up to me.

"Bella! Do you want to sit with us?" by then Alex had already came back.

"No thanks, I'm going to sit with Alex."

"Would you like to sit with us?" Alex asked hearing our conversation and asked being polite.

"Sure!" she answered. This scared me a bit. Was Edward going to sit with us too? And there whole family? Surprisingly I never saw any of her siblings only Rosalie and Emeitt sitting alone.

We all talked a lot, especially Alice. A few times she made comments on my outfit giving me tips and that started a whole other conversation, style. I didn't speak much, just when we were introducing each other and about how me and Alice came from the same school.

My next class I had Alex, Alice, Rosalie, and Edward. Alex sat a bit far but I ended up sitting next to Edward again. And Alice and Rosalie sat right behind us. Alice talked for what seemed like hours which was only really 30min. and Rosalie stayed quiet most of the time. Edward surprisingly didn't say much till Alice finally paused for a second, only to start again.

"Alice! don't you ever run out of things to talk about?" He said annoyed, out of no where.

"Nope." she said smiling. I giggled at that. He looked at me and smiled.

"I'm sorry if she is annoying you." Then he looked at Alice. "She annoys us all."

"How rude." She retorted.

"You don't give anyone a chance to talk! Now that is rude!" he answered back.

"But at least I'm not as annoying as Rosalie, right?" she asked concerned.

"You are no where close to that but you are getting closer."

They both giggled, teasing Rosalie.

"Excuse me?" Rosalie retorted, for the first time speaking.

Finally the bell rang and I jumped out of my seat. I was one of the first ones out the door.

"Bella! Wait for me!" Alex called from behind. I waited as she caught up, when the boy from this morning came up to me and began to talk to us. He greeted Alex. Then begun to speak to me. We were standing near the door, Edward, Alice and Rosalie came out and they all stared at me as the past us by. They might be angry with me since I didn't speak a word during the class and left with out a word. They must have been offended. I felt guilty but not towards Edward he once did that to me too so now he knew how it felt.

I walked with Alex and Daniel. I finally learned his name. he invited her to the party too. Alex headed of to her class and Daniel walked the rest of the way with me to Spanish since he had the same class. He reminded me of mike but I hope he wouldn't be to friendly like him.

When I walked into the class the first face I recognized was Edwards and then his brothers. There was only a few seats and the teacher assigned me to sit right in the middle table. And in the next table sat Daniel who was a bit too excited that I got to sit close to him. Yes, he was becoming to friendly like Mike.

Edward and Emeitt sat right behind me. Daniel talked a lot to me before the teacher started class. She told us to get into partners. Right away Edward sat next to me. I was overly happy and tried to hide it and push it away. Something told me I was not going to get over Edward anytime soon. I sighed.

"Sure Edward, abandon me. I don't mind. I wont miss you." Emeitt spoke.

I couldn't help but to laugh. Edward looked back at him and scowled him. Then turned towards to me. Before he could speak Emeitt interrupted on purpose.

"You were stubborn anyways."

When he tried to speak again, Emeitt kept going.

"I'm glad your not my partner, your were bossy too."

Edward rolled his eyes. "Emeitt would you drop it! Your not funny."

I couldn't help but to laugh. They both looked at me and I quickly turned away clearing my throat trying hard not to laugh at them.

"Will someone seems to think I am."

"Yeah, keep telling yourself that." Edward replied and turned away.

"Yeah, and you keep telling yourself you know everything." He whispered.

"I can still hear you."

"You know its nosy to listen to others people conversations."

"What are you talking about? Its just you talking to your self."

"…So?"

Edward looked at me. "Anyways…" he began to say sounding annoyed.

"Know it all." Emeitt whispered again.

"Emeitt!"

"Fine! Fine!" Emeitt said finally giving up.

Before Edward could speak to me the teacher hurried us to get to work. So there wasn't much time for us to talk. But that didn't stop Edward from trying.

"How was your first day of school?" he asked.

"Fine." I had started school a week later then the time we arrived here. We were taking time to settle in. I wonder When Edward and his family started school here.

"Hush class. Get to work." the teacher warned.

"So how was your lunch?" he asked, not paying attention to the teacher,

"Good." I answered simply.

What did he want from me? Oh right. Last time I asked him, he said he was tired f staying away from me.

"I'm glad."

"Please get to work." The teacher told us then walked away.

"So how was your weekend?" He continued, ignoring the teachers orders completely.

"I think we should shut up before we get in trouble. I really don't want a bad start with any of my teachers." I stated.

"Okay."

We began on our assignment. Soon he started to talk to me again.

"You never answered my question about how your weekend went, though"

I put down my pencil and sighed.

"I'm sorry." he said. "I just find it hard to restrain myself from talking to you."

I didn't speak and focused on completing our work sheet.

I thought that was a boring conversation we were having. But he did seem eager to talk to me and spend time with me.

I looked up at him. He was still starring at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing." He said.

I looked down trying to focus but I could still feel his glare.

We were working together quietly when Daniel called me.

"Hey Bella."

"Hey." I said a bit annoyed.

"So are you going to my party?"

"Maybe." I said, I didn't really want to go, but it would be nice to go and spend time with Alex, if she did go.

"Oh." he said. "Is Alex coming?"

"I don't know, but it seemed like she was really excited, so probably." I reassured him.

"Cool."

"Please quite down class." the teacher began. We weren't the only ones talking.

"Talk to you after class." Daniel said then leaned away.

I picked up my head turned to Edward. He was still starring at me.

I looked down quickly.

I could feel his glare.

"What?" I raised my voice at him. I was surprised at myself.

"Is there a problem Miss Swan?" the teacher paused beside me as she was walking down the isle. She over herd my rudeness to Edward.

"No M'am." I said quietly. I couldn't believe I was getting in trouble. I never got in trouble. This seemed unfair, we didn't talk much or very loud. There were other students who were holding louder conversations then we were. But of course I wouldn't have the guts to talk back to the teacher. And that surely wouldn't help my case.

"Good, then I'm sure you and Mr. Cullen wouldn't mind staying after school for detention and helping me with some work after school."

My mouth dropped. She was really strike. What did I do?

"Well?"

I hesitated to speak, but Edward spoke for me.

"No Mrs. Rodriguez, Bella and I wouldn't mind helping you after school."

"Good." she said as she walked away to scowl some other kids who were talking during class.

I looked at Edward, my mouth still open.

He smiled at me. Then closed my mouth with the eraser tip of his pencil. Then he laughed at my expression.

I scowled at him for a second then looked away.

Great.

Then the bell rang and everyone got up to leave. Edward was about to speak to me when Daniel came up to my desk to greet me.

"Hey Bella."

Edward looked at me a moment longer. "See you after school Bella." he said smiling then walked away.

Gir. This was so unfair.

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