Hey people. I started this because I was on writers block with my other story. I found that when you start one story it makes other story ideas to pop into your head and such and blah blah blah…… I was on writers block so I started this. I am going out to dinner but I am going to try and get up a new chapter for Silent Is Always Better in a few days. So here is this new one. It is going to be in Kagome's point of view most of the time.

This is just the prolog….

Disclaimer: I own nothing but this crazy idea. Which probably thousands of other people have thought of too. -_-

Finding Myself

Prolog

Life….. I thought we had choices. That was how our lives ended up so differently. I'm Kagome Higurashi, I live with my mom, dad, brother and jii-chan. We live down at the old Higurashi Shrine. It's…… ok there. The shrine makes life more exciting, or complicated, either way you look at it.

My brother and jii-chan are great. My mom and dad? That's a different story. They both want me to be somebody I'm not. To put is short, they want me to be 'All Perfect Barbie'.

They each have different standards they want me to go by. Different rules, way of life, different me. Mom wants me to wear those pretty in pink clothes, play musical instruments beautifully, and still have time to make dinner for the family. Like those sitcom children, you know? Those perfect ones that only high paid Hollywood writers could come up with.

Now it's down to my dad. He wants me to get on of those high ranking jobs were money is power, and I am suppose to have a lot of both. He expects me to get above average on all my grades. H expect me to be above average, like average just isn't good enough for him.

They must know I don't want to be what they want me to. They have zero trust in me. They are always leaning over me, breathing down my back. I can't even breathe when their around, to afraid of messing up in front of them. Who has time to breathe?

I just wish I could……. Spread my arms a little. If only for a minute, just to feel what it's like. To be, independent. My own person, me. But I can't, why? Because of my parents. The are still there, watching.

So I smile. Because that's exactly what they want. A perfect, beautiful girl that smiles. I smile when I'm angry, to hold back the words I wish so much I could push out of my locked cherry colored lips. Like; Stop running my life for me! Leave me alone for god sakes! Smile. I smile when I'm sad. Perfect girls aren't sad, they don't cry. I smile when I'm scared and confused, too. Perfect little girls don't get scared….. They're fearless. They can't be confused, they're to smart.

I'm always smiling. Always acting just like my parent want/tell me to. I do it just in hopes that my parents will, back off. To where maybe, one day, I won't have to be 'That Perfect Girl'. One day, just one day, I can be….me. And that will be enough.

Tomorrow I have school, a new one! We didn't move or anything. My parents just felt I needed a school that could offer more. I'm not going to miss my friends, I didn't even like them. My parents did. They weren't my type of people. Then again, the way me life is now, I don't have a type. I'm searching, I guess. Lets just say I have to overcome my fear, my parents.

I might as well go to sleep now. I have to be at my new school early tomorrow, parents orders.

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Kagome lays her body, adorned with her favorite pink pajamas, down onto the motionless bed. Giving into the comfort, she drifts off into dreamland, with a smile on her face. Forced.

A/N: Remember! This is just the prolog. The chapters will be a lot longer. Do you like? Should I keep going? Please review! Well I got to go get ready for going out to eat. What color should I wear? I know, BLACK! Buh-bye!