I Lie Down In Darkness
While I have been drowning
My poor, flightless birds have been yearning to take flight
The fluff up their wings and gather dust in the dark room
I watch them and begin to sob
I know they have suffered without soaring this earth
"Come then and fly," I call to them
And they move past me
Into the deepening, suffocating night
Their flapping wings brush against my boiling skin
"Oh my Christ, I am dying," I cry in the shadows
My light has faded into ashes
My dear Harry, how I have forsaken him
He is ashamed, hurt, and betrayed
How I need him so, but he won't have me
I wish we could live inside my clock
Safe between the metal, listening to the whirring sound
My mother, I have tried to pretend I love her
But her hatred and jealousy of me cannot be hidden
She is wicked and sick
She has destroyed me
We will never be happy together
My darling sister, she is gone
She has suffered and slipped through the fingers of life
I will join her soon in paradise
My beloved father, how I wish I could go back
To the times where he called me his beautiful little girl
The time of innocence
He has spoiled me so, but now he smothers me
He smothers me in front of everyone
"But you must be proper," I hear his voice echo against the tiles
Haunting me
"Oh pooh," I say
I have suffered in this darkening life
I feel the pain burning in my heart
"Oh most powerful, oh must..."
I lie down in darkness
While I have been drowning
My poor, flightless birds have been yearning to take flight
The fluff up their wings and gather dust in the dark room
I watch them and begin to sob
I know they have suffered without soaring this earth
"Come then and fly," I call to them
And they move past me
Into the deepening, suffocating night
Their flapping wings brush against my boiling skin
"Oh my Christ, I am dying," I cry in the shadows
My light has faded into ashes
My dear Harry, how I have forsaken him
He is ashamed, hurt, and betrayed
How I need him so, but he won't have me
I wish we could live inside my clock
Safe between the metal, listening to the whirring sound
My mother, I have tried to pretend I love her
But her hatred and jealousy of me cannot be hidden
She is wicked and sick
She has destroyed me
We will never be happy together
My darling sister, she is gone
She has suffered and slipped through the fingers of life
I will join her soon in paradise
My beloved father, how I wish I could go back
To the times where he called me his beautiful little girl
The time of innocence
He has spoiled me so, but now he smothers me
He smothers me in front of everyone
"But you must be proper," I hear his voice echo against the tiles
Haunting me
"Oh pooh," I say
I have suffered in this darkening life
I feel the pain burning in my heart
"Oh most powerful, oh must..."
I lie down in darkness